Control is everything.
That has always been my rule, the single law that separates me from the chaos I was born into. Without control, men fall. They become weak, exposed, prey for those who are hungrier. But lately, control slips through my fingers the second I look at her.
Maya.
She does not belong in my world, yet somehow she has become the axis mine spins around. I should have cut her out the night she saved me, erased her from my orbit before the shadows learned her name. But I didn’t. I couldn’t. And now, every hour she stays near me, the danger around her grows sharper.
Tonight the penthouse feels smaller. The walls press closer. The lights of Los Angeles flicker like a city waiting to consume us both. I stand by the glass, whiskey in hand, watching the streets below while Lucio runs through the latest updates.
“Two of Vincent’s men were seen near the hospital,” he says. His voice is low, careful, the way it always is when the subject turns to her.
I do not move. “Did they make contact?”
“Not directly. Just lingering. Watching.”
My jaw tightens. Watching her. Watching my weakness.
Lucio continues, “We scared them off, but it will not be long before he tries again. He knows.”
“Of course he knows,” I mutter. “That is what he does. He looks for the cracks.”
Lucio hesitates before speaking again. “She is the biggest one you have.”
I turn from the window, my eyes locking on his. “Careful.”
He doesn’t flinch. He has been with me long enough to know when to push and when to step back. Tonight he chooses silence. Smart.
When he leaves, I am alone again, but my chest still feels heavy, tight with the weight of something I do not allow myself to name.
A knock pulls me from my thoughts.
It is soft, uncertain. Hers.
I open the door, and there she is, standing with her arms crossed over her chest, her hair loose around her shoulders. She looks small in this place, fragile, but her eyes, those eyes, are steady, searching mine with a boldness that strips me bare.
“You drink too much when you’re thinking,” she says, glancing at the glass in my hand.
A smile ghosts across my lips. “And you knock too softly when you are not sure if you should be here.”
She steps past me, into the room, as if she owns it. As if she owns me. “Maybe I shouldn’t be.”
I close the door. “You should not. But you are.”
Her gaze sweeps over me, lingering for a second too long. I know what she sees: a man unbuttoned, stripped down from the version the world fears. To her, I am not the devil they whisper about. To her, I am just Saint. That is what makes her dangerous.
“You keep pulling me into this,” she says. “And I keep letting you.”
Her honesty cuts deeper than any blade. I set the whiskey aside and step toward her. “Do you want me to stop?”
She hesitates, and that pause tells me everything.
“No,” she whispers.
The space between us collapses. Her scent, warm and clean, fills my lungs. My hand brushes her arm, her skin soft beneath my touch, and I feel her shiver. She does not step back. She never does.
“You should be afraid of me,” I murmur.
“Maybe I am,” she answers. “But I’m more afraid of what happens if I walk away.”
Her words ignite something in me I have no business feeling. I lean in, pressing my forehead to hers, letting her steady my storm for a single fragile moment.
But then the darkness slips back in. Vincent’s face flashes in my mind. His voice, his laughter. His threats.
I pull back, sharper than I mean to. “You do not understand what it costs to stand beside me.”
“Then tell me,” she says, fierce now. “Show me. Stop pretending I can’t handle the truth.”
The truth.
The truth is blood and ruin. The truth is the nights I spent clawing my way out of the gutter, the bodies I stepped over, the empire I built from ashes and screams. The truth is men like Vincent who will never stop until they taste my blood or hers.
“You want the truth?” I say coldly. “The truth is that everyone I touch ends up broken. You think you can survive me, but you cannot. No one does.”
Her eyes shine, but she doesn’t look away. “Then let me decide that.”
Silence stretches. The city hums below us. And I realize, with a clarity that terrifies me, that I cannot push her away anymore. Not because she refuses to leave, but because I refuse to let her go.
I step closer again, my hand cupping her face, my thumb brushing her cheek. “You are playing with fire, Maya.”
“Then burn me,” she whispers.
And I do.
My lips crash against hers, and the world falls away. She clings to me like she was made for this, like she was made for me, and for once I let go of the chains I’ve wrapped around myself.
When the kiss breaks, her breath is ragged, her eyes wide. I rest my forehead against hers, fighting for control.
“You do not know what you are asking for,” I tell her.
Her smile is small, trembling, but defiant. “Maybe I do.”
The sound of my phone cuts through the air. I curse, stepping back. Lucio’s name flashes on the screen.
I answer. His voice is urgent. “He moved faster than we thought. Vincent is calling in debts. He is not waiting anymore.”
I hang up without responding, my chest heavy with rage and resolve.
Maya’s eyes search mine. “What is it?”
“War,” I say simply.
Her face pales, but she doesn’t run. She doesn’t even step back.
And that is when I know. She is already mine.
The city is a blur of glass and neon outside the tinted windows, but my focus isn’t on the streets. It’s on the storm building inside me. Nico crossed a line when he went near Maya. He knew exactly what he was doing. He wanted to rattle her, to plant seeds in her head that would grow into cracks I couldn’t control.I should be furious at her for even entertaining him. I should be furious at myself for letting her out of my sight. But what claws at me more than anger is the image of her standing in front of him, unguarded, her green eyes locked on a man who would twist them into weapons if he could.My jaw tightens as I glance at her now, sitting silently beside me in the car. She stares out the window, her reflection caught in the glass. Her hair catches the light in strands of chestnut brown, and there’s a shadow under her eyes, proof that she hasn’t been sleeping. I did that to her. My silence, my world, my war.She doesn’t belong in any of this, but I can’t let her go. I’ve tried t
The silence between us is a living, breathing thing. It follows me from the car into the penthouse, clinging to me like a second skin. Saint doesn’t speak a word as he locks the door behind us, and I don’t bother looking back at him. My legs move on their own, carrying me down the hallway, my chest tight with the weight of everything I haven’t said.I want to scream. I want to throw something heavy against the pristine walls just to see if anything in this cold, perfect space can break. I want him to hurt the way he makes me hurt, every time he cuts me off with that voice like steel, every time he feeds me silence instead of the truth.I don’t stop until I’m standing in the middle of the guest room, hands shaking as I clutch the edge of the nightstand. My reflection stares back at me from the mirror above the dresser. My face is pale, my eyes rimmed red, and I hardly recognize myself anymore.The woman in the glass isn’t the nurse who clocked in and out of shifts, who dragged herself
Lucio’s voice comes through the earpiece before the car even reaches the curb.“He made contact.”The words stop me mid-step.“Where?”“At the hospital. Public enough that I couldn’t shut it down without drawing eyes.”My jaw tightens. Nico knows exactly how far to push. He’ll get close, plant seeds, and leave me to clean up the mess. It’s his favorite game.“Did she say anything?”Lucio pauses for half a beat. “Didn’t look scared. Didn’t back down either.”That’s worse. Fear would keep her cautious. Defiance will make her dig.I slide into the back seat, the city blurring past the windows as the driver pulls away. My mind runs through every angle, how Nico knew where she’d be, what he wanted her to hear, how fast I can erase the trail.By the time we pull into the garage under my building, my patience is already worn down to the bone. Lucio meets me at the elevator.“She’s upstairs,” he says. “Didn’t talk much on the way back.”The elevator ride feels longer than it is. When the door
I’m not sure if Saint’s words are still echoing in my head because of their meaning, or because of the way he said them, low, deliberate, like each syllable was meant to stop me in my tracks.Some truths don’t protect you. They bury you.The problem is, I’ve always been the kind of person who digs. I’m not good at leaving questions unanswered, especially when the answers are right in front of me wearing expensive suits and keeping secrets.Saint is gone when I step out of the bedroom, the smell of his cologne still clinging faintly to the air. The apartment feels colder without him in it, not because he’s warm, God, he’s not, but because he’s the kind of presence that fills a room whether you want him to or not.Lucio is waiting in the living room, arms folded across his broad chest. His expression is the same one he’s worn every time I’ve seen him: vaguely irritated, like my existence makes his job harder.“You ready?” he asks.I nod, pulling on my coat. My bag is already slung over
Control is everything.That has always been my rule, the single law that separates me from the chaos I was born into. Without control, men fall. They become weak, exposed, prey for those who are hungrier. But lately, control slips through my fingers the second I look at her.Maya.She does not belong in my world, yet somehow she has become the axis mine spins around. I should have cut her out the night she saved me, erased her from my orbit before the shadows learned her name. But I didn’t. I couldn’t. And now, every hour she stays near me, the danger around her grows sharper.Tonight the penthouse feels smaller. The walls press closer. The lights of Los Angeles flicker like a city waiting to consume us both. I stand by the glass, whiskey in hand, watching the streets below while Lucio runs through the latest updates.“Two of Vincent’s men were seen near the hospital,” he says. His voice is low, careful, the way it always is when the subject turns to her.I do not move. “Did they make
When my eyes fall open, it is hard to make out where I am. The silence stretches on endlessly, and for a few seconds, I just lay on the huge, luxurious bed, letting the memories from last night flood me.Saint Lachlan. “Shit! The hospital!” I sit up with a jolt, feeling dizzy as blood rushes into my head. I give myself one more second before scampering out of bed, heading out through the doors.But I halt the moment I get outside. The hallway is so long and the penthouse so huge that I don't know where to turn to get myself into the living room, or the kitchen.Looking towards my left and right, I decide to go right, fulfilling a part of me that thinks everything has gone left since the night Saint stumbled into my life. My feet take me down the hallway, bathed in the morning light coming in through the tall windows. I see a door slightly open on the left. My curiosity gets the better of me as I take a peek.It looks like a study, with an imposing desk that looks like mahogany. A th