Dejected

MARILYN

Yeah, I know I'm a fool for boldly declaring that I'll undergo the trial without knowing anything about it. Balin has been mad since then and has refused to say a word to me. After that declaration, he had bundled me into the mansion, saying that I had lost my mind. But then, I desperately wanted to prove to his people, to everyone who looked down on me that I wasn't useless at all. I wanted them to know that being from another race doesn't make me useless. This feeling of being of no use really sucks. Each day, I smile and go about the day's activities while wilting on the inside. This was my chance to prove to them all that even the lowest of all could make a difference, but then Balin doesn't seem to understand, he is vehemently against it. I'm ready to go against him this time to prove my value to his people. He is the Alpha and has never known the pain of being ridiculed or disrespected. Even the lowest of the maids here disrespects me. Others don't acknowledge me, but th