I woke up feeling so much worse than when I went to sleep. I dreaded today because I know Ezra will come straight from her to me and try to make me understand his reasons.
Maybe before I would have understood his reasons but now they were just absurd to me.
I just want to move on from him and his thoughts, it's time I move on from my crazy one-sided love and make something for myself.
I brushed my teeth and took a bath, I picked myself skinny jeans and a hoodie because the weather is cold today.
I am in university and I love to cook and I want to start my restaurant someday. Ezra being the only son of Irwin multinational corporations he inherited his dad's company and all and he started going to their office.
When I went downstairs for breakfast mum and dad left for their works. Mom is a doctor and dad has a construction company, he builds houses and offices.
We were not as rich as Ezra but we pass the rich vibe check. See I am still thinking about Ezra when I wanted to forget about him.
I have one hour to reach my university and I always took my car. Sometimes Ezra drops or picks me up because she is also going to the same university. I just can't take her name.
He met her at our university when he came to pick me up and after the second time he picks us up. I never questioned him or her but I stopped going with them or him.
Today, I don't want to see him or listen to anything. Maybe I am being overly reacting but I can't help it.
Besides Ezra, I have another friend whom I trust more than Ezra. She is Joanna and we were literally sisters in the form of friends.
She knows my deadly one-sided love for Ezra and his indirect rejection of my advances and she hates him for it and as a person too.
She thinks Ezra is an overly egotistical handsome Jerk, who thinks everything is easy. I don't mind her words because Sometimes Ezra is like that.
See my whole world and thoughts revolve around him, I need to stop thinking about him and should create my world.
I took my car and drove it to the University. Joanna is waiting for me at the parking lot playing with her keys.
" Hey, Fay! How are you? You seem dull!" She asked looking at my sullen face and puffy eyes.
"Nothing, I am alright." I lied knowing that she will break Ezra's bones if I tell her what happened last night.
" ughhh! Don't tell me that jerk hurt you again, if so then I am going to break his neck once and for all." See this is the reason I don't want to tell her.
" Stop it, Joanna! Ezra didn't hurt me in fact I didn't meet him at all." I lied again so smoothly that I am afraid I am going to live my life telling lies. I shuddered at that thought.
" you Are so bad at lying Fay so don't even try lying for that prick." She glared at me.
" I am sorry! I don't want you to get angry at him and from today I am going to ignore Ezra's existence in my life. So don't worry." I assured her this time she can hear my sincerity through my words and eyes.
" I know Fay it's just I care for you and I don't want to see you hurt that's it." Her tone softened and gave me a small smile.
I returned her smile before dragging her towards the entrance of the building to start our day.
Throughout the classes, my thoughts were revolving around Ezra and his reaction when I ignore him and it's for the best for him and me because he can't leave her, and I don't want her in between us. So it's better that I remove myself from his life.
Joanna and I have the same classes and now we are in our last class of the day and I am dreading the after class because I know for sure that Ezra will be here to pick us up precisely her.
Bell rang pushing me out of my thoughts and the dread came back making me all nervous and anxious. I don't want to see Ezra, why is this so hard.
" Fay! Are you not coming?" Joanna asked getting up from her seat.
" umm, yes! Sorry." I said getting up from my seat too to go home.
" We don't have any assignments so can we just hang out at the pizzeria for some time before we go to homes?" Joanna asked cheerfully without noticing my nerves which are ready to burst. I am tempted to decline her offer but it's been so long that I didn't hang out with her.
" yeah! Sure, let's go. We can take some time for ourselves." I said giving her an assuring smile.
"Yayy, thank you, Fay it's going to be so much fun and we can eat our favorite pizza too." Joanna is filled up with so much positive energy and enthusiasm.
We have left our classroom and already standing at the parking lot ready to take off.
" what is going to be fun? And where are you going without taking me with you! Hmm?" I heard a voice that I never wanted to hear at all today or tomorrow or even the day after tomorrow but my luck is not on my side.
I stood there with a straight face not showing any emotions on my face because there are so many things going on in my head and heart.
Hurt, anger, jealousy were burning inside me seeing her on his arm and them standing together like a perfect couple in love.
I hope I keep my cool, if not I am going to push someone so hard and break their noses.
What is it in her that he can't just get enough off of her? I can't question it or doubt her because she never gave me a reason to doubt her. She always smiles at me and has that warmth in her eyes and this makes me not hate her as much as I want to. It is so hard to hate them both when I love one and another. I don't know what I feel for her. She is not my friend and not an enemy.She is just someone who snatched away the guy I loved my entire life. I know Ezra doesn't do relationships or Girlfriends and he doesn't even be with a girl for more than 2 months but she is with him for a whole year and still, they are together."Stop putting your nose into others' business Ezra, it's not good." Joanna glared at the handsome beast who I call my best friend who stood tall with his signature smirk on his beautiful face and dangling on his a
"Purple Pizzeria" is the place we always come to because it feels like home and they sell the best pizza you can ask for. The theme of the pizzeria is purple and the employee's uniform is also purple. Purple is the last color in the Rainbow and but it looks so good and some say the color has a special meaning.I waited in my seat for Ezra to open my door, I am not particular about that but Ezra always insists that I wait for him to open my door, and now I don't want to piss him off more.We all came out of the car and entered the pizzeria at once. I stood at the entrance looking for seats, trying to get us the best seats to enjoy our pizzas."Come, let's go, I have found the place," Ezra said, taking my hand and guiding me to the backside of the place.
It's been two weeks since the pizzeria's incident and I have been ignoring Ezra completely. I have two reasons to push Ezra away from me, one being him seeing me as an only friend and the second reason! It has some time for it but it was the main reason I am being distant with Ezra.He is not good for me, I just can't be just a friend to him other than being someone's girlfriend. Ezra is the reason I never dated. When I was in school he threatened every boy in my school and fought with some and from then I decided to never try.Some may wonder why my world revolved around Ezra. When I met Ezra he was this lonely silent boy with hard features on his face. I didn't understand why he is like that but as time went I understood why he has to be mature at an early age.
EZRA'S POV: (##Contains Mature Content##)18+I feel so guilty right now, I was supposed to be with Fay right now making up for the last two weeks which I lost because of my behavior but still, I am on my way to Mitch's house. What is wrong with me, why I am so addicted to her and can't get enough of her. If I try I can resist Mitch but I don't want to. If I start resisting other girls then I will start to crave the only girl I don't want to hurt or ruin with my stupidity and toxicity.Fay is everything for me and it's my responsibility to keep her from bad people and bad things and I am one of them. I may look like a simple guy who runs a multimillion company but I am into so many dangerous things and I need to keep her from those things and myself too.I was supposed to be with Fay watching a movie and having dinner together but when she ran into my arms and her body perfectly fit with my body, I lost control and buried my face in her neck inhaling her rosy scent which I love. I
Finally, this is the day I am waiting for so eagerly. Today is the 14th and there is going to be Ezra's event which he invited me to and we are going to wear the same color. When Ezra left my house that day I called Joanna to inform her about it and invited her on behalf of Ezra.First, she is reluctant to accept the invitation because she and Ezra's enemy bond but I begged her to come with me and finally she accepted. We decided to get ready at my house because it will be easy and Ezra called me to inform me that he is going to send someone to pick us up. Joanna and I are currently sitting in my room doing a skincare routine before the party and I am still waiting for my dress which is to be delivered by Ezra." Fay! Do you think Mitch is going to show up today?" Joanna asked, massaging her face with something I don't know. This is one of the reasons for making someone's mood horrible." Don't you think joey that I don't want to think about anything right now because I am in a good
I and Joanna sat in awe inside the lavish limousine with big eyes and mouth agape because of its smell and richness. We took two glasses of champagne which tasted sweet and bitter. I hesitantly took the glass when Joanna poured it for me. I don't know if we are supposed to touch anything. “I think one glass is enough Joanna and I don't think we can finish the entire bottle from someone’s car without their permission,” I said, putting my glass aside.“ Why are you so bored? Fay this is not someone’s car and this is not a car but a freaking limousine so we have to have champagne.” she gulped the entire contents of her glass before going for some more.“I think that is enough joanna for now and we have to be on our best behavior so we can't embarrass Ezra in front of everyone.'' I gave her a look saying it's final.“Okay mom whatever you say.” she mocked me before sulking and pouting. She sometimes behaves like a child and she looks so funny. We sat in silence until we reached the place
I can't see them all lovey-dovey with each other on the stage. I placed my plate on the table and stood up to run away from there, from them and this damn town. I never knew this hurt this much. I am embarrassed because of his lie. I look like a fool in front of Joanna. She always warned me about him, about him making me a fool every time but I never listened. I am a damn fool." Fay! Are you alright?" Joanna enquired seeing me sitting still."Y...yes...s…" I choked out before running from the hall without looking behind and I can hear Joanna calling me but It feels like I am being choked there and I can't breathe properly. I have to get away from them. I heard footsteps following me but I ignored them and ran faster to get away. I can't stay there for more than a second. It is choking the life out of me.How can I be a fool, how can I be played by Ezra? It is so embarrassing thinking that I had a chance with him and making my hopes high. I am just his friend nothing more and just a
I know this is stupid but I still waited for him, my doom. Yes, he is my doom because nothing gets to my head when it comes to Ezra. I don't know when he became my life or a reason to breathe but he became everything to me. Some may say it is insanity to think like this or some may think that I am obsessed with Ezra but I don't heed to those words or thinking. I changed my clothes into PJs and hid that dress and chain at the last corner of my wardrobe so I can not see it and get reminded of my humiliation. I am not crying for him, no I am not that weak to very for someone. I am much stronger than that. I lay on my bed thinking about today's event and how they were both looking like a happy couple and how I didn't see an ounce of guilt on Ezra's face when he kissed me. Ugh, that Damn kiss! I am trying to push that thought from my head but I am unable to do that. Why did God choose every single bad thing and bad luck for me? I received a text from Joanna that she has reached home s