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#36: Losing My Mind

Author: Aria Steele
last update publish date: 2026-06-27 22:11:12

~Lila~

The Orientation

“What exactly did you find out?” I whisper to Ryder the second Jordan and Lincoln Kantor escort me back to the orientation room, both of them acting completely pleasant and attentive.

The two of them are a textbook one-two punch of pure, unadulterated danger.

A rapid glance around the crowded space reveals that Ryder’s little blonde distraction has already vanished. He is standing entirely alone, thick arms crossed over his massive chest. Honestly, he doesn’t even hav
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