Chapter Eleven

Naive.

My family often called me naive. I don't know if I should take it as a compliment or a flaw on the never-ending list of reasons why my existence should be kept in secret. It was probably another softer word to use when calling me stupid.

For years they let me believe that I'm living the best version of life yet as I broke free from the past I get to experience feelings and emotions so new to me.

As soon as he was gone I ran to my room to find refuge, making myself believe that everything was all just a part of my imagination. But it's too damn impossible to look past the horror I felt when he blurted out those words.

‘And your still a virgin.’

Those damning words played over and over again, mocking me, making me squirm. I was only thinking about it because it's been pounded on my head since I was a kid that losing my virginity would also mean endangering my life. A simple sex could be fatal to me.

But why did they have to