Chapter Ten

My ears were ringing as I felt my body getting suck in, back from the horrible month following the events after my father declared my upcoming nuptials months ago.

I shuddered.

The terror I felt the moment I knew my family was trading me and my future for their mistakes and the stigma of being guarded twenty-four-seven in fear that I would do something they don't want was overwhelming enough

I'm not a selfish person but at that time I want to be selfish for myself.

I don't remember having that defining moment of clarity of my own wants but I remember the night before the wedding when my family was sleeping peacefully in their beds while all the servants were working for the big day. I remember vividly waking up in the middle of the night with no one in sight. Neither guards nor servants were in my room. That simple moment spurred me to peeked through the slits of the door with not a single person in sight.

That moment, realizing that no one was wat