“I want you to ruin me,”
I knew the moment my words got through Roman when his face morphed into a face of a schoolboy who doesn't know what to do. I should applaud myself for accomplishing such a feat but to be perfectly honest, most of my courage came from the alcohol I just drank, making me lose half of my inhibitions and footing.
And I feel hot.
Perhaps asking Roman to ruin me was going too far. Most of the words I blurted out came from the movie Lena made me watch once. The woman in that movie was a siren—a seductress born to dominate men, someone I couldn't be. Though, I couldn't explain the rush of something foreign and alive when I saw the unadulterated desire flash through Roman's amber eyes.
The urge to lick my lips was intense but I held myself instead I bit my lower lip to stop my tongue from darting out.
Wrong move.
Before I could grasp what had happened, I felt the loss of my weight as I was spun
I awoke with a sense of someone gently caressing my face. I slowly opened my eyes in narrow slits, prepared to have the first glaring brightness of the sun directly assaulting my tired eyes while trying to remember what had happened the night before. But instead, I was greeted with the faint light and the sound of crashing waves outside.Little by little the memories of the night before came in a torpedo of embarrassment and giddiness. I had done it. I was finally kissed and touched by a man. My body welcomed it even if my heart craves another man's touch–Alaric. I'm not even sure if I should be glad I fainted to escape the embarrassment of succumbing to the desire or sad that I haven't felt the full extent of it.I internally shook my head.I found Roman beside me wide awake while gazing at me with his unreadable eyes. What did he think of me now?“How long I've been asleep?”“Five hours,” That means–&ld
Where have you been?” the sound of my mother's voice early in the morning gritted my nerves as I exit from my walk-in closet, holding a black flowery dress that reaches just above my knees. I wouldn't wear it though. The dress was just an alibi.As I entered the secret door of my closet I had heard my mother calling my name from the entrance of my quarters and grab the closest dress I saw.I can't have her looking at me suspiciously especially now that I suddenly decided to marry the man who was the very reason I ran away.“Mother,” I bobbed my head, acknowledging her presence. The Queen stood, regal in the middle of my chamber, her nose stuck, high in the air. She looks impeccable and classy, a picturesque of a true Royal.I feel cold and detached from her, something she probably didn't expect from her naive and obedient daughter. A flicker of disappointment flashed in her eyes before she blink it away, replaced with her practiced smile
I wore a revealing soft pink nightgown made of lace. Somehow, it feels like I'm betraying Alaric. While my mind keeps on telling me that there's nothing between us, my heart has other plans. It keeps on beating for the man that only sees me as a nuisance—an unnecessary baggage he had a misfortune of picking beside the road.And there's Roman. Coming back had been a gamble. I expected a lot of things; my mother's worried face, father's anger, Enrico's punishment, and Roman's disgust and bitterness.None of those had been present when our paths meet again.Roman broke the wall I built around myself the moment he saw me and engulfed me into his warm embrace. It feels like he cares more than he's letting on. And when our skin touches, I hadn't expected the rush of anticipation that coursed through me. Now, I'm on a mission to break through everything that's keeping me from my happiness.I must admit, his drugging touch and kisses were a plus. At least I
I came down with a beaming smile on my face like Roman asked me to with the exception of the dress he ordered me to wear. Instead, I wear an old university shirt I stole from my brother's closet and the five-year-old sweatpants which I also stole from him. Nothing fancy, I know.Going down for breakfast would have been a good idea and a comical one but the image of my mother choking on her food while looking at me dubiously tugged a string on my heart. And besides, I don't want to antagonize my father early on my plan. I'm not even sure if it is a plan. All I know is I'm working to gain my freedom from my oppressive family.“I hope you're feeling well, your highness.” Roman greeted bowing his head with a smirk on his face and a glint of mockery in his eyes.I gritted my teeth, smiling stiffly at him.One of these days I'm gonna k*ll him. J*rk.My eyes zeroed on him. I gulped. He looked sexy. Like the men, I saw on billboards and magazin
Roman continued his visits every night in my quarters and not long I started to anticipate on his nighty visit that's until the night before our wedding.He never came.When the clock strikes twelve I'm more than ready to march towards the tunnels into his quarters for an explanation. But before I could rip open the secret door inside my closet I saw a note in the ground with his penmanship.My Princess,I am beyond frustrated right now that I can't be with you. As per tradition, we are not allowed to see each other before the wedding. And besides, I'm being watched by your father's manservant. But I promise to make it up to you tomorrow night.RomanI huff, stomping my foot on the floor as I walked out of the closet.“You should learn to close your windows, Victoria,” every nerve endings on my body stood alert as goosebumps erupted on my exposed skin. I physically shivered, hearing the familiar voice of the one person I'd
I lay awake the whole night thinking about Alaric who is somewhere in or probably out of the palace. The warning bell hadn't sounded so I'm assuming he's out of the dungeon and maybe sightseeing around the palace walls. Surprisingly, his presence hasn't given me second thoughts on marrying Roman.That should mean something right?It was probably because I got used to being used by all the people around me. Or maybe because deep down I know even if I'm slowly falling for Roman Hernandez I would still use him to gain my freedom.The thought of using Roman for my own gain despite all the good things he has done to me sent me into nausea. Guilt. Suddenly, I feel guilty. I feel guilty not because I'm using him to escape from this place but because I felt like I cheated on him with Alaric which is ridiculous. We didn't do anything and besides, I did not agree not will I, to meet him in my private chambers. He had done it of his own free will.But why it does fe
Red flags.I should have seen it a mile away the moment Alaric painstakingly scaled my wall just to inform me he got inside the palace ground undetected.“You smell weird,” I mumbled, trying to twist myself out of Alaric's suffocating embrace and on his unwelcome kisses.“Hmm,”I gritted my teeth as he tried to kiss me once again. Frustrated, I put the palm of my hands on his face to stop him from leaning on me. “Let go, Alaric, or I'll scream.” I threatened, pushing him off me. He's wet and sticky and there's this coppery smell on him that hasn't been in him when he visited my chamber.“You don't like it?”I slapped him. Hard. “I'm marrying Roman.” I spat turning away from him as I dashed out of his hold.“So?” He's mocking me. Even in the dark, I can picture the tilt of his head, an eyebrow raised on his hairline while his lips set into a sneer.“Wh
“I need you, Roman, ” I murmured on a desperate plea in between breaths.He stiffened but instantly relaxed within a second, making me question myself if I got a reaction from him. “No, no. Not that kind of ‘need’. I only meant—” Though we both knew a single thing had flashed through his head and mine, making me flush with mortification. “I only meant emotionally.”Roman gave me a curt nod. “Come, let's get you clean,” he said tersely, pointing to the shower.“Are you mad?” I mumbled“I could never be mad at you,” His voice was low almost rough but not cold. No never cold.“But—” He silenced me with a kiss on the forehead, his huge and callous hands holding my bare shoulders, igniting a delicious heat that was not there a moment ago.He gazed down on me still holding me captive. “I know what you mean the moment you said those wor