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Hate Me, Don't Love Me
Lilly P.O.V
I'm the worse best friend in the world.
When I called Jessy from the bathroom adjoining Killian's room to tell her about the Paris thing, she was upset and kinda hurt that I didn't tell her about signing up. But I couldn't tell her that it was all a lie, that Killian made the entire program up because he didn't trust me to not fall into Jason's arms.
"You've been acting strangely for the past four months. I can tell that something is going on, but what I don't understand is why you don't trust me enough to tell me. You never used to keep secrets from me before. Why are you starting now?"
I felt the guilt eat away at me as I prepared myself to tell her another lie. I held the phone to my ears; clutching it tightly in my hands and sighed.
"Jessy, I'm fi
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