“Kuronomiya.” A female colleague of mine named Futaba Megumi approached me at my desk.
“Yes?”
“Hamada-san is looking for you.”
“Ah. Thank you for telling me. I’ll go now.” I said, saved the document that I was working on and got up from my chair. Hamada Tetsuo-san was my immediate supervisor. We had a very cordial superior-subordinate relationship and so, it wasn’t odd that he would ask for me often. Being a bit of a workaholic helps me get my work done, at least, and so I had earned my place.
I knocked on Hamada-san’s glass door. He waved me in immediately. “Ah, Kuronomiya-kun. I have to say, you’ve done quick and good work on your previous project.”
“Thank you, Hamada-san.” I bowed. “It was thanks to your timely guidance.”
“Mm. Well, I called you here for another reason though. I know that you have just finished a few major projects, both with your team and individually, but I would like to assign you something.”
He would always speak so gently and politely but that did not mean that his assignments were any less than orders. I could not refuse. “What would that be?”
“You know that the company is planning expansions, right? As part of that, we’re opening a few new outlets spread across Tokyo. The sales model that you had come up with in your previous project seems like it can be adapted to fit our needs. I will mail you the details so that you can work on it. If this sales model works at one of the new outlets, we can look into its further applicability too.”
My sales model? “I’d be happy to work on it, Hamada-san, I’ll involve the team as well. I’m sure that they have a lot that they can do to contribute too.”
“Okay.” He nodded and asked after a pause. “Are you leaving now?”
“I’m almost done with today’s work. I’ll be leaving within the hour.” I replied.
Hamada-san was thirty-five years old. He had made his way up to the post of Division Manager through effort and perseverance. While his strong brown pupils held a youthful vigour, his stray grey hair was testimony to his tireless work and the pressure. It was no wonder that he was up for another promotion soon.
“Do send me the details of the sales for the 2-chome branch too before you leave.”
“I shall do that.” I bowed, excused myself and returned to my work. It had not even been a week since I finished my previous project.
So much for taking a break…
Once I was done with my immediate work, I packed up and left for home. When I was waiting at the bus stop, I received a call from my brother. When I reported that I had just left work, he let out a huge sigh of relief.
“I’m a little tied up with work. I was expecting to finish in an hour but it doesn’t seem likely. I was supposed to pick Aki up from the daycare but... Oh, am I glad that you’re done! Could you go pick her up? Kaori’s home. She’s not feeling too well. It’s that time of the month so… I’ll send you a text message. Buy her that medicine for the pain too, okay?”
At the pause that I had gotten from him there, I spoke up. “Hikaru-nii, breathe.”
“S-Sorry. I have a meeting now so…” He responded sheepishly.
“Mm. I understand. Leave it to me.” I said. He was a family man to the core and it was very rare for his planning to go wrong. When it did, like this, he would panic, if not ever-so-slightly.
“Thanks a lot, Kakeru. You’re a good little brother.” I could almost picture him grinning ear-to-ear as he said that. “Then, please take care of my womenfolk.”
I chuckled. “Yes. I’ll see you then.” I hung up and waited for the bus. The daycare was rather close to our house. It was just a ten-minute walk. There was a medical store on the way too. Kaori-nee had always had these bad spells so we had all adjusted to it. She was the one who would usually pick Aki-chan up on her way back from the library where she worked.
On occasions like this, I couldn’t help but feel compelled not to move out. I hadn’t really talked about it to anyone either. If anything, Hikaru-nii would be upset. Even though I am just his younger brother, to him, it would be akin to letting Aki-chan go.
I smiled at that thought. After all, Hikaru-nii was also a good elder brother.
The daycare was practically swarming with little ones in their play-clothes when I arrived. It looked like they were getting their share of the outdoors. Although it wasn’t my first time at the place, I was not very familiar with the way around. One of the teachers in the place approached me on seeing my confusion.
“Good evening. Are you here to pick someone up?” She smiled the kind of smile that would have made her popular among the children.
“Yes. Good evening.” I bowed. “I’m here for Kuronomiya Akiko.”
“Your name?”
“Ah, sorry. I’m Kuronomiya Kakeru.” I replied.
“Okay. I had heard from Kuronomiya Hikaru-san. Wait a moment, please.” She nodded and looked around. Soon, she raised one hand, cupped the other around her mouth and called out. “Akiko-chan!”
I followed her line of sight to find my beloved little niece sitting in the sandpit with a few other girls and a boy. She sprang to her feet and dashed for me immediately on seeing me. “Kake-jii!”
I crouched and took her into my arms when she threw herself onto me. “Good evening, Aki-chan!”
“Why did Kake-jii come? What about Otou-san?” She enquired after snuggling up to me a little.
“Otou-san’s busy. He said that he’s sorry for not being able to come.” I answered. “Shall we go home? Kaa-chan’s waiting.”
“Yes!” She nodded vigorously.
“I’ll get her ready to leave.” The teacher who was with us offered and took Aki-chan back into the building to change her out of her play clothes and into her regular clothes. I waited outside for those few minutes and watched the other children. I couldn’t help but feel a little bad for them, really. They were all so young, oblivious and carefree. They had their entire lives ahead of them.
They had adulthood ahead of them.
Notes:
Otou-san: Father
Kaa-chan: Mother
“Kuronomiya-kun, you’re leaving already?” Yamato-kun asked when I got up from my desk after packing up. “Yes. I have somewhere to go.” I replied and said goodbye to Shirokawa-san as well who was sitting next to my desk. “Thank you for your good work.” “Likewise.” They called back. I dropped by Hamada-san’s cabin and informed him of my progress on the new project that I had been assigned to. He was rather pleased with my progress too. Conscience clear, I headed out into the 06:00 pm streets of Tokyo. I checked my phone out of habit. There were no calls or texts from my brother. There was, however, a text message from my boyfriend. ‘Come fast.’ ‘Half an hour.’ I replied and po
“Where’s Hiro?” Hikaru-nii’s voice came from behind me as I was attending to the egg that I was frying. I turned to the doorway to find my brother leaning against the doorframe, his hands folded over his chest. He had been sleeping when I had gone to check on him earlier. So, I had started preparations for breakfast while trying to think of the various possible scenarios I would have to make my through once he woke up. “Not here… now.” I responded rather cautiously. “He hadn’t stayed?” He frowned. “I thought I had told him that he could.” “You… remember all that?” I had hoped that we could ease into this conversation but this being brought up right off the bat made me a little anxious. “I was a lot more sober by the time you had gotten home. I don’t remember sending
“You’re still not done?” I asked as I sat on the floor next to Hiro-san at the coffee table after my bath. “Maybe… one hour more?” “That’s okay.” I leaned against his arm. “I’ll wait.” “If you’re sleepy, please go to sleep.” “I can’t sleep properly without you, Hiro-san.” A lie… Maybe. “What is with that?” He laughed and patted my head. “Then, you can wait.” I nodded. I was planning on waiting anyway. I had left my phone on the coffee table next to his laptop. When I began looking around, I saw that the notification light was blinking. I reached out to take it. “Had someone called?” “No. I think you had a message though.” Hiro-san replied. “I did not check.” It definitel was a message and it had surprised me enough to make me sit straight up on reading it. “It’s from Hikaru-nii.” “Hikaru?” Hiro-san stopped what he was doing and looked at my phone as I opened the message. There were just two words on the
I was the first one to wake up the next morning. However, I could not even bring myself to move from the position that I was in. For one, Hiro-san was still holding on to me closely. Secondly, my back hurt a bit. Moreover, I did not exactly want to move. The clock on the bedside table revealed that it was a little past 10:00 am. I had managed to somehow apply for leave on my phone last night before falling asleep. Considering that I had been wide awake before it, it was incredible how much that sex had taken out of me- actually, taken out of Hiro-san and I. Once was far from enough for the both of us and by the time we settled into each other’s arms after that, we barely had enough energy left to move. I looked up at his sleeping face. It was no wonder that he was so popular. Anyone would want to see a face like that as soon as they woke up. Ah… Now I wanted to kiss him. It was past 10:00 am anyway. He had slept enough. I moved his arm
He held my gaze and slowly smiled. “You seem sure enough about this.” Sliding one hand down my right arm, he grasped my hand. “Let’s go back to bed though.” Saying that much and indulging in a soft kiss, he led me back to the bedroom. He came to a stop next to the bed, turned to face me and took both my hands in his. I gave him a questioning look. “You don’t have to treat me like one of your women.” “What? This?” He raised our hands to ask. “It’s not that I am trying to be really gentle or anything. It’s… Despite all my experience and how eager I am now,” he placed my hands on his chest and smiled sheepishly. “I feel like such a boy.” His heart was pounding against my palms. I let go of his hands and wrapped my arms around his neck. “When was the last time that you dated someone for real?” “Towards the beginning of college. Why are you asking me that now?” I shrugged. “Because I wanted to know.” Then I kissed him. “Because this is… amu
I opened my eyes fast because it was still too dark for me to see anything. I was breathing heavily and my eyes felt moist. There was a throbbing heaviness in my chest and my entire body felt numb. I had had a dream and it was painful enough to jolt me awake, almost crying, but I couldn’t even remember what it was about. It was rare for me to dream in the first place and, hence, a dream that was capable of leaving me in a wreck like that was even rarer. It made me close my eyes and try to recollect it again but all I could remember were the emotions and that I was not alone. Maybe… it was a good thing that I couldn’t remember it. I turned on my side and picked my phone up from the bedside table. The time was 01:57 am. I had barely just fallen asleep at 12:30 am too… I turned back and looked at Hiro-san. I was still lying on his arm but he had turned onto his back, his other arm lying over his stomach. He hadn't been awoken by my movement
On unlocking the door, Hiro-san let me in first. He followed me in after locking the door and proceeded straight to the kitchen. "I'll get you something warm to drink. Go change or freshen up if you want to.” I could at least change into something warmer. “Mm. I’ll… be out on the balcony after that.” “Kakeru, it’s cold out on the balcony too.” He said apprehensively. “I’ll take a blanket with me.” I said and went into the bedroom. He had offered no further protest, so I changed into warmer home-wear, wrapped a blanket around me and headed out onto the balcony. It was a little cold but I felt a lot better after changing and wrapping myself up like that. With my back to the wall, I sat on the floor and brought my knees up to my chest, covering myself up with the blanket and looking out at the night. My eyelids felt heavy. It was probably because of all that crying from earlier. “Why are you sitting on the floor?” Hiro-san asked on findin
What seemed like an entire lifetime to me was probably just an hour or so on the clock. That was all the time it took for Hiro-san to get there. I had already seen that shocked look on his face two times before. It was easier for me to offer up a smile the third time. Nevertheless, he was by my side in an instant- his eyebrows scrunched up in a way that told me that I was the only one finding this pattern of meeting strangely amusing. “Kakeru, what are you doing out here?” He crouched before me and took my face in his palms. The worry I saw on his face just then- I wished that I was seeing it on my brother’s. “Meeting out in the hallway like this is really becoming our thing, isn’t it?” I chuckled. “It shouldn’t be though. What happened?” He looked me up and down. “Where are your shoes?” He found them soon after asking, then looked at me seriously. “Hikaru?” I looked towards the door. “I don’t think he’ll want to see you now.” “Huh?” “
Did I have to actually say it out anymore? It seemed to me as though he had already figured it out. I could not bring myself to admit it. Confronted like that, I could not bring myself to deny it either.I had thought that it would be easier to tell my brother about us. I had not told him till then because he was still mourning Kaori-nee and I was trying to be considerate. I had thought that he would understand.“Kakeru, answer me.”What for? And, then what?“Kakeru!”“We’re dating.” I finally said it.“What?” He lowered his voice, his eyes pinning me to every word that I spoke.“I-I said that we’re dating.” I spoke deliberately and clearly. “Hiro-san is my lover.”He stared at me, then nodded. “Lover.”I swallowed nervously. “Yes.”“Since when?”“Almost two months now.”