We walked to the edge of town where the forest started to take over allowing the light of the city to fade revealing the stars. I looked over at my friends Darla wrapped tightly in her coat, Laurel blowing warm breaths on her hands and the guys running ahead tackling and tossing over each other. This left me, I didn’t mind this cold, it was manageable comparatively. I kept my hands in my pockets trying desperately to relax until finally we arrived.
The tower was just an old building from a different age. Maybe at one point it could have been a training facility teaching new recruits how to guard an outpost properly, now the local youth used it as a den of unsavory affairs most adults would have frowned upon. The large stoned building had an internal structure with a spiral staircase that reached all the way to the open aired top. When we entered we reached down gathering our stash of flashlights dispersing them amongst the group so no one tripped over the uneven cobblestone stairs. The kids who hung out here always kept the place stocked full of activities and provisions, it was a well kept secret of the town and before the eighteen year olds were sent off it was tradition to visit one final time. Tonight we were doing something that had never been done before, coming up here not just before Friday night but to send off a girl. Friday this place would be stuffed to the brim with after party kids ready to drink their troubles and smoke their worries away. Tonight I was going to keep my wits about me. Well, I thought, for the most part. When we got to the top of the tower Darla and Laurel wasted no time before passing around some small bottles of alcohol making sure to leave me with the larger one. “Whiskey?” I frowned, “Really?” “It’s supposed to keep you warm,” Darla shrugged. “That’s rum.” Laughed Cooper. “It’s both,” grumbled Rodrik who sniffed his bottle, “Whatever this was, it's sour.” “It’s for the toast!” Darla snapped and forced everyone into a tight circle, “Me first!” she raised her glass pointing to me, “Ashai, out of everyone, the fae better be scared they are sending you most. You’re one badass bitch and I’m going to miss you.” She paused and cleared her throat turning to a more somber tone, “I’ve known you far too long to not keep seeing you. Come back, and when you come back make sure you come back as more of a badass than ever before!” We clinked our glasses and I gave her a hug before taking a small sip, big mistake. It went down far too hard for my liking and I was not going to be able to do this with everyone. “Mine!” Cooper stepped forward blocking Rodrik, “You better be assigned to the same outpost as me. If you’re not I’m going to hunt you down and give you a stern talking to.” I stuck out my tongue and shook my head at him playfully. Before he continued, “We’re going to do this together. We’re all going to come back.” he looked over to Francis and nodded, “I promise you we’re going to get through this together.” We clinked once more and I smiled sweetly at him and then turned to Francis who nodded at us both. Thankfully it would seem he spoke for everyone except Rodrik who stepped forward next. “Ashai,” he spoke low and wrapped his arm around my shoulder pulling me close, “I never imagined you’d be leaving this way. Thank you for being a part of our lives. You and your family have been nothing but welcoming and-” he paused looking down. We all stayed quiet while he struggled back to his speech. It didn’t matter if he planned what he was saying or not I knew every word was spoken from the heart, “You’re going to go so far and please, come back.” Laurel decided to give him a reprieve shouting, “To Ashai!” We clinked one final time and finally my bottle was empty. We stayed out under the stars as long as we could stomach the cold. It wasn’t nearly long enough for me but I figured it was probably for the best. I would never have left his tower if it was up to me. I would have stayed well into the next day missing my appearance orders and I never would have thought back. My life was not long for this moment though. It felt wrong, every part of me wanted to stay but as the cold air whipped through the night it drove us all back below into the safety of the tower. “Want to head back?” Laurel offered first her teeth chattering, “I think we’ve made our point with your father.” I nodded and gave Rodrik’s hand one final squeeze, “I’m going to walk back home alone okay? I’ll be alright, I just really need some time alone.” They all nodded and a line formed behind Darla who forced her way to the front, “You’re going to write me every fucking day!” I nodded and gave her the tightest hug. “Every day!” she said once more. “Promise!” I laughed. Francis was next, “Train hard, if we cross paths in the service you’re going to need all the help you can get.” He rubbed his palm over the top of my head but I pushed past and embraced him just as tightly as Darla. “You train just as hard and we’ll see how good of a fight you can put up.” I fought back and Cooper jumped in to join our hug. “Don’t get all mushy! We’re going to be the most badass three in the service!” He beamed. When we parted Laurel stepped up and hugged me through her tears, struggling to speak, “We were supposed to stay here together. You’re not meant to leave.” “I’ll be back.” I smiled. She nodded, “Just like Darla you write me every day. “Promise!” Rodrik was last and I was thankful as everyone else had left the tower leaving us a moment alone. “I really don’t know what to say.” He kicked the ground, causing some pebbles to clink across the floor. “We never expected this.” “Apparently the best things that happen are the ones you least expect.” I tried to stay positive but being faced with the uncertain future, my mind raced with everything that could go wrong. “Be safe.” the words he finally settled on were less than stellar but I decided to remedy that. I jumped over to him, wrapping my arms around him and forcing my lips to his. When we parted I stepped back and offered my hand as a simple shake, “You’ve got to watch out for Darla and Laurel. I’m going to write you all as often as I can please make sure you do the same.” He nodded and took my hand. Leaving on a handshake seemed like the perfect conclusion to our relationship right now. The kiss was going to be on my mind until I got home but that hand shake feeling his warm hands against mine was going to stay with me through the chilly walk home. They left me in the best way. We had our fun and now it was time for me to continue on to the next phase in life. Tomorrow I wasn’t going to be Ashai Sumter, a stagnant school graduate with no direction. I was going to be the next generation of soldiers ready to defend my friends. Despite how much I hated being chosen I knew if I didn’t commit to this I wasn’t going to get far at all.“You accessed the bond, he felt you upset.” Helix whispered. “Move to the side!” Sage pushed her hands through the bars causing me to go backward, “Get away now!”Dimitris busted through the door nearly throwing it off the hinges as he zeroed in on Yvet, “You brought her down here!” He then turned to Sage, “What did you say to her?”“I’m waiting right here.” She stood back in her spot clicking her heels together.‘Get back upstairs!” He glared at me then Yvet and finally what I assumed was the invisible Helix behind me. “Fuck!” He yelled, “Yvet, take her to my room now!”She pulled me past him and I lost the stale scent. Helix had to have said something to him. Now he was fixated on Sage.“Fuck you,” hte guard snapped at me when we passed, “He’ll reprimand me because of you.”“You deserve far worse for how you’ve treated her!” I barked back and had to continue to be dragged out by Yvet, “Be happy it’s him and not me you have to deal with!”Validation sparked a smile in me as I saw th
The next day Helix came back with Yvet, I figured it was because they could better explain Helix if she was with him. He started in the typical fashion that many fae always did when talking down to changelings. I needed a history lesson, “Fae are taught by their parents about bonds and the difference between a mating bond and a non-mating bond. The first thing they are taught is that you are gaining power at the expense of opening yourself up to a great weakness. It can be devastating.”“If they’re opening themselves up to a weakness then why would anyone do it?” I laughed while picking at my breakfast. “You’re almost to the point of understanding.” he smiled. After breakfast we walked around the castle just to help stretch my legs. “I just don’t get it.” I sighed, “what am I doing wrong?” I hadn’t been able to feel anything about Dimitris, apparently that’s all I needed to do but nothing about what I was trying seemed to matter. I felt like all I was doing was thinking to myself, “
Days later and I was finally able to stop myself from crying. I felt like I had failed Dimitris in so many ways and there was no way I could ever repair it. Yvet and Helix stayed near me though I did notice for one hour every day Helix would disappear. How had I not seen this before? All those times I thought Dimitris was sleeping next to me he was just faking it? How could he not trust me to know this about him? “How’s it going?” Conrad and Hectyr were visiting me today, I was still on bedrest. Conrad seemed to be the one to visit the most today though he brought Hectyr who honestly the only connection I felt with him was our shared windtouched ability. “Heard you’re healing nicely.”I nodded looking down at my hands. My right one was still wrapped tightly. Everything about my right side, the side I had rested on Dimitris in that forest, was burned. I was told the only thing that saved my life was the fact I was a changeling. No human could have done it. “Hectyr’s here to try and h
“I strongly caution you against that.” Helix spoke now at full volume. “Are you going to try to stop me?” I growled and then flashed over to Yvet. “Or you?”Helix raised his hands, “For the record we both tried out hardest to stop you, but it seems you were too strong.”Yvet just rolled her eyes crossing her arms, “If she gets hurt you and I both know that defense will only get us so far.”I didn’t question it. I just pushed past both of them and sprinted down the hall. I knew where I was heading, the double doors to the forest, but what I was going to do to try and survive out there was still going to need to be a spur-of-the-moment thing. My feet stopped dead in their tracks though, as the rest of the Attason family were already there waiting for me. “There she is!” Anju smiled, nudging Conrad in the side to get him to also turn around. “Told you she wasn’t in danger out there.”I shrugged, “You thought that was me?” pointing out into the forest I dared to turn once more to see t
I smelled that same stale scent of Helix the rest of the afternoon while in the library. Dimitris had left. I knew it was just because he needed to return to court duties but I was taking a stand on this. I refused to leave this room and I had made it a point that I was not going to go to dinner. “You’re going to argue for him I guess?” My grumbling didn’t need to be vocalized; Helix was well aware of my distaste for the situation. “He asked me to stay to help you today.” Helix emerged from the corner in full view, “I protested, but he said he would be okay.”“Help me do what?” I snapped, but my anger was misplaced. “You need to learn to control your emotions and your thoughts through the bond. It is dangerous for him if you are not in control.” I hated how professional Helix sounded. It was like he didn’t have any emotion in his words or care for anyone else. Rolling my eyes I continued to try to dismiss the situation, “He can just close off the bond then. Seems like he’s good a
He shrugged not looking up from his book. It was held in just one of his hands while the other was tapping his forehead rhythmically.“Nothing to say to me then?” I glared throwing myself down in the center of my book towers. “What is there to say?” he mumbled back. “You cannot be queen Ashai. I’m not entertaining anything that might be circling in your head.”“Fine,” I huffed.“Fine.” He smiled back“You’ve been busy in here-”“Is that really what you want to talk about?” I snapped. He shrugged, “I figured talking about what happened at court today would be too fresh.”Deciding to play along I rolled my eyes, “Yes, I’ve been putting everything in chronological order. Trying to figure out your ages.”He shook his head, “Any closer to the great discovery?”“If there was,” I glared over from my book, “Don’t you think I’d have told you? At least one of us doesn’t keep secrets from the other.”“Fair enough my dear.” He returned to his own book. “Any questions about what you’ve managed