The door opened and Ben threw himself on us.
- Your bones hurt, you skinny guy. - I complained.
- What are you talking about and why are you here without me? They can't keep secrets from Benjamin. He lay on my other side.
- We're not telling our secrets, Ben. Salma is saying she's going to get rich and make money without doing anything.
He raised his head and looked at our friend:
- Are you going to try your luck at the lottery?
I started to laugh:
- I asked the same thing.
- That's not it. - She smiled mysteriously.
- Don't be silly, Salma. – I warned.
- Nonsense? Isn't sex wonderful? Have you ever thought about making money and having sex at the same time?
- Are you going to become a call girl, a sex worker or something? Ben sat on the bed. – Tell me everything, friend... Do you have a vacancy for me?
- You fools. - I complained.
- Not exactly. Once it works, I'll let you know. After all, it won't be very easy.
- Need help from these crazy friends of yours? – Ben asked.
- Maybe you need... After a while.
- You can count on me. The two clapped their hands together.
She looked at me:
- Missing you, Baby.
- I don't agree with things that can be bad...
- Don't trust your friend?
- Sometimes no. – I confessed.
- Said Santa Barbara. - Ben laughed.
- Yes, I am a saint... In view of you, I am Santa Bárbara.
- You lost your virginity before me. – Salma remembered.
- As if it matters... I'm a virgin from the back. – I confessed.
- Well, I lost my virginity on the back side, so I don't say anything. Ben started to laugh.
- I've tried both things... I'm not a virgin of any hole. - Salma laughed.
- Perverted! – I joked.
- I would like to be paid to have sex. – Ben confessed. – Imagine giving all the time and still receiving for it.
- And get a dirty customer and have to give an oral? – Salma thought about the possibility. “Don't worry, I'm not selling my body. - Laughed. - But I would pay for a good oral, the kind you enjoy without even touching the man's cock.
- Oral is better than the sex act itself. – Ben said seriously.
- Receive or do? I asked curiously.
- Receive, of course. Or do you find it more pleasurable to do than to receive?
I didn't say anything and they both looked at me. After a few minutes of silence, Ben asked again:
- And then, Baby? Receive or do?
- I... I don't understand much about “receive”.
Salma got up from her pillow and sat on the bed, staring at me:
- No... You're not going to try to convince us that in eight years of having sex with Jardel he never gave you a good oral.
- Once... So I don't know if it was done well or not. – I confessed.
- Holy shit I gave birth. Ben lifted me by the arms, making me sit up. – Look into my eyes and say that in 27 years of life you have never come with an oral.
- No. I said, embarrassed.
- That's the craziest and most absurd thing I've ever heard about sex in my life. - Salma wrinkled her forehead. “And it happened to my best friend. Fuck, you need to do this.
- I... I don't like to do it with women, Babi... Otherwise, I would fall for you and make you come, my friend. Ben wailed, looking heartbroken for me.
- Did Jardel have a problem? – Salma was curious.
- Of course not... Besides the fact that you only want his pleasure. In the beginning there were some cool and different things... I think there was love... I can't explain it.
- Sex doesn't have to be just love... As long as it's pleasurable. That's the most important. Most of the men I've had sex with have been without love... Just out of lust. And it was perfect. – Salma said.
- Babi, you need to have sex with a real man... Who values you, who does an unforgettable oral on you... - Ben began.
- The ones you shudder and see all the stars in the sky before you go back. – Salma completed. “You're almost in your thirties, Babi. And two years is enough to mourn a person who didn't deserve a day. You need to get laid, friend... Urgently. And having other experiences... Besides Jardel's asshole.
- By the way, you're almost a virgin again. Two years without having sex is to take the same black stripe. I'm sorry about you ... But get laid, friend. Or my name is not Benjamin.
- And have only one man in your life? You are beautiful, Baby. You need to have as many experiences as possible.
- I don't want to have every possible experience. I think an oral is a good size. - I spoke.
The two lay down and I did the same. We were silent for a while and started to laugh.
- What crazy talk. - I spoke.
- Babi, you're a virgin, friend! - Ben said seriously, while trying to catch his breath after laughing so hard.
- Even my vibrator would bring you more pleasure than Jardel. And best of all, he is faithful. – She continued laughing.
The three of us slept in my bed that night, completely tired from chatting and laughing. And I was excited to know what it was like to come in oral sex.
My sex life with Jardel was definitely a failure, as was our troubled and long-lasting relationship.
I woke up to the cell phone ringing. It was Daniel. I left the room so as not to wake up Salma, who was still sleeping.
- Good morning, Daniel.
- So, how was the interview, Babi?
- Did not work. The owner of the restaurant did not go.
- But they didn't reschedule?
- Yes... For today. I'll try to go. - I lied, sure I wouldn't come back.
- That's great. I pray to get it right.
We were silent for a while, until I asked:
- Working?
- Ever. I heard him laugh on the other end of the line.
- Did you sleep on your night off, at least?
- Of course. Sleep is for the weak. – he joked. “So, as you go on the interview again tonight, you won't be able to have dinner with me.
- Not even.
- How about lunch? I'd have dinner with you, as I'm not working in Babylon tonight. But apparently it won't work...
- Daniel, no... I'm grateful for your job indication, but I don't want to get involved... And it's out of the question to deceive you.
- It's just a lunch with friends.
- We are not friends.
- Oh my gosh... You just broke my heart into a thousand pieces.
- Better that way, believe me.
- No... It's not better this way. Can't you at least try to give me a chance, Babi?
- You said yourself that you have someone... So I don't understand why all this.
- I don't have anyone... I was just afraid that you would run away from me. However... It's running away just the same.
- It's not running away... I had a long-lasting relationship... And although it's over, I'm still not completely healed. I don't want to hurt anyone like they did to me.
- That's running away, yes.
- Daniel...
- Okay, I won't disturb you, Babi. Good luck with the interview today.
Before I could say anything, he hung up. Maybe he really was interested in me. But these past two years, all I've done is push away any possible relationship, knowing I wasn't ready.
Daniel was a kind, charismatic man and I didn't want to hurt him. He'd better give up, because really my heart wasn't completely healed yet. And it wasn't because of the loss... It was because of the way he was being destroyed little by little, breaking apart piece by piece, so tiny that I could hardly be sure if he would go back to the way he was before.
Ben came out of the bathroom, wrapped in a towel, his hair wet.
- Didn't have time to dry your hair? I asked, entering the bathroom.
- Either the hair or the body, since I only had one towel... I preferred not to show my beautiful body around. You will fall in love.
- Open this fucking window. This looks like a sauna. I've told you a thousand times. - I said opening the window and letting the steam dissipate a little.
He returned:
- You are very mean to me and I shouldn't, but I will help you. Because I'm a good friend.
- Will you give me an unlimited credit card with a ticket to Florida?
- Friend, Bon Jovi is married and all he's going to get in Florida is a big kick in the ass, given by his wife. What I have is a measly vacancy for marketing.
- Hmm, it's worth it, in my case. Then I get the card and go to Florida to steal my man from his wife. – I joked.
- I received a vacancy in my virtual box and opened it. Casually I saw that a vacancy had opened for Marketing at “Perrone”.
- Perrone wines, you mean?
- Yea.
- Our! I got emotional. It's nothing compared to North B. But it would be a good start.
- Then get ready because the interviews start now at 10 am.
- Why didn't you tell me before, the fuck?
- Because you slept with an angel.
- Ben, you have a screw loose.
- And an extra dick, friend... Unfortunately.
I quickly went to the shower. After the interview disaster the night before and being made a fool of, luck finally seemed to smile on me.
As I remembered the episode in the restaurant's bathroom, the eyes of Heitor Casanova watching me in the mirror came to my mind. I didn't even like to think about that cocksucker.
I had a coffee while putting on an interview outfit: below-the-knee dress, blazer and pumps. If it went wrong, next time I would wear ripped jeans and sneakers.
As I rushed down the stairs, I asked:
- God, I never asked you for anything... On the contrary, I even wanted to return everything you've given me so far. I even returned Jardel. And you took my mother without asking. Then you owe me a... Make me get this job! I promise to be an even better person than I already am. Okay, I may not be such a good person. But I'm a human being and I make fucking mistakes...
A couple was walking up and I stopped talking, smiling, as if they were imagining someone talking to themselves as they walked down the stairs.
- Good Morning! – I greeted.
- Good Morning! – the two replied, continuing to climb.
I even forgot about God when I got to the door and opened it, right into the hot sun of that day.
I walked about twenty minutes until I reached the headquarters of the “Perrone Vinhos” branch. It was a five-story building, recently built. The company until then only existed in the country of origin and Noriah Norte received the first branch, which generated a lot of jobs.
I presented myself at the reception on the first floor and was directed to the fifth, in a brand new elevator that worked perfectly.
As soon as I landed, I looked for the room where I was sent. I imagined a huge line of people looking for the space, but to my surprise when I opened the glass door, there were only two men waiting on the sofas clinking, new and well maintained.
The place was huge and had two desks, sitting behind a custom-made counter made of a material I'd never seen before.
- I came for the interview. - I explained, showing the badge.
- Could you wait a moment? Mr. Perrone will attend first to the two other candidates, who arrived first. – One of them explained politely.
Not candidates, competitors for me. And how could she be interviewed by Mr. Perrone himself? I already felt butterflies in my stomach. What was happening? I haven't read anything about companies not having Human Resources anymore and the owners or CEO's themselves participating in the selection process for jobs in their companies.
I sat up and soon my feet began to tinkle on the floor, showing my anxiety.
I noticed the two men looking at my pumps making an insistent noise and said:
- Sorry... I suffer from anxiety. - He smiled shyly.
- And who doesn't suffer nowadays, right? – said one of them.
Soon the youngest was called. Anyway, a hope that maybe it won't take so long.
But it was not the case. Each of them took more than forty minutes with the CEO. So when the second one came out, I was happy, already feeling my heart beating wildly, knowing it would be my turn.
Soon the secretary called, escorting me to the doorway.
As soon as I walked in, I saw the CEO sitting behind a huge table, with everything in glass behind him, showing part of the floor of the gigantic and imposing front building of North B., the largest liquor company in the country.
- Please sit. – He said, smiling gently. - I'm Sebastian Perrone. He stood up, squeezing my hand.
My God... If there is a more beautiful man, I don't know.
- Barbara Novaes.He wore a white shirt. The blazer was over the back of the chair. He was blond, fair-skinned and well -bearded , which made him incredibly seductive. His eyes were blue and his gaze was deep.- I read your resume.- I am happy to know.- You still haven't worked in large companies, have you?- No not yet. But it's what I want most.- I'll ask you some questions. Can you answer me honestly?- Certainly.- What do you know about Perrone?- Want sincerity?- Please...- Practically nothing. Unless you're new to Noriah North and you're a branch.- What do you know about wines?- Which are very good... And one of my favorite drinks. But after the flavored draft beer I tasted last week, it's no longer number one on my list.- Flavored draft beer is not even close to what we manufacture. - He smiled.- I know... I'm sorry.- I asked for sincerity. If you must know, we're doing fine. So far no one has been so sincere.Excellent. For a moment I thought I had ruined everything
- He's a piece of bad way. I looked at Ben, trying not to stare at the unknown.- And you're very decided, friend. - He laughed. – Maybe your oral sex is there… You don't know, do you?I sighed:- Having sex with a stranger?- I want? Do an interview first? Don't be covered up, Babi. You are no longer a child. And listen to what I say: sex is sex.- You know I only did that with Jardel... And I'm almost a virgin from so long without doing it after he died. So if I say I'm not insecure, I'd be lying. I don't even know about the art of conquest anymore.- Nothing has changed, friend. You look at him, he at you... And if he doesn't come, you go to him.- Well, in my day the woman didn't go to the man.- Past, baby. It doesn't exist anymore. Those interested to play. If you don't go, there are others who will... Even I would go to that horny if I wasn't your best friend. Ben looked at him and blew him a kiss.The man smiled and raised his glass again.I looked away from his, which was pra
Without purse, money, cell phone, credit card that I didn't even use and with my dignity and self-esteem on the sole of my foot, I walked for 45 minutes until I got home.I don't even know how I got up the stairs, because I took a step forward and two steps back, trying to throw myself down the step, hoping to die in a fall of less than a meter.I opened the door and fell onto the couch. Salma still looked awful and pale. Ben didn't know what a bad mood, sadness or depression was. His face was always one of joy and even when the worst happened, he laughed at himself and carried on as if nothing had happened. I wish I had an ounce of his self-confidence.They were having breakfast. Salma was still wearing her dressing gown, as if she hadn't spent the night with it.- So how was it? Did he do oral? – Ben asked.- Did you come? - Salma widened her eyes, curious.- Did you need a spoon? - Ben got up.- I came... Maybe five times... I came like I had never come before. - I spoke.- Do you
I got up early the next morning to go to Perrone to look for Sebastian. I needed the employment card he'd given me.When I got to the bathroom, Salma was vomiting. I held her hair, trying to help.As soon as she got it all out, I asked:- You're going to the doctor today, aren't you?- Yes... I said yes. – Confirmed.- I'm worried about you.- It's all right... Just a virus. - She went back to the room.I took a quick shower and grabbed a bag, just out of habit, because I didn't have anything to put in it. It had been stolen by an idiot my friends had hired.I opened the door to Salma's room and said:- If you need anything, don't call me. I'm without a cell phone and I don't even know how much I'll have one again. Let Ben know.- OK. - She went back to sleep.I closed the door and when I arrived in the living room, Ben was sitting on the couch, tidy.- Where you go? I asked.- With you.- Ben... You don't have to go with me.- Yes, I do. You don't have a cell phone and you don't have
- It's not a dream... Bon Jovi will play in Noriah North. I started jumping on the couch madly.The two looked at the television.It advertised a Bon Jovi concert in Noriah North that would take place in seven months. It said that people should hurry, as tickets could sell out soon.The two hugged me, pulling me off the couch:- Bon Jovi comes and we don't have a sofa? No way. - Salma complained, while fixing the fabric that was wrinkled.- Ben, give me your number, now.Yes, I memorized the number. I called immediately and asked for prices. I turned it off, disappointed, sitting down on the couch again.- What there was? It was not true? Did we have a vision, all at the same time? Bon Jovi died of old age? - Ben provoked me.- No... It wasn't a collective dream. But anyway, I'm not even going to get excited.- What the fuck happened? – Salma asked.- The ticket in the back, where you can only see it from the big screen, because it will be so far away that even an ant would be bigger,
I took the Bon Jovi concert ticket out of the envelope and screamed desperately. They both hugged me tightly and I couldn't resist tears.- You are the best friends anyone can have in life. And now I know that God took my mother away, but left angels in her place.- Ah, Babi, I have nothing of an angel. – Salma let go of us.- I'm a little angel... Beautiful and wonderful. Ben blinked his eyes repeatedly.- Guys... I'm going to the Bon Jovi concert. I screamed and jumped until I got tired, with the two of them looking at me like I wasn't a normal person.Ben's phone rang and I stood there, kissing the ticket over and over again.- If you drool over the paper, you won't go to the show. - Salma sat on the couch.- Next, friends: the Síndico asked to stop the screaming, or we will get a fine. – Ben said as he hung up the phone.- And I'm going to fine the landlord for not making the fucking elevator work. - I spoke. “I can't remember the last time I was so happy in my life. - I looked at
- Yes, it happened. You are drunk!- How do you know? I tried to formulate the sentence correctly.- Go take a cold shower and bed. Tomorrow there's selection at North B.- Like this?- I just found out here in Babylon, by my colleagues. They are hiring for several areas, but the focus is on Marketing, Advertising and this branch. A new drink will debut... And it's not beer. And it's supposed to be a hit in the market.- I'll... Take a shower... And... Watch three bachelors and a baby. This film is our face, Salma.- Go to the bath, Baby. You need to be at North B. tomorrow morning.- OK. Goodnight. I sang Karaoke... And I sing better than Ben.- Holy shit, go to sleep, Babi. Now.- I love you, Salma.- I love you too, you crazy.- What there was? Ben couldn't even open his eyes.- Salma said I have to shower.- Because?Everything turned and I was confused, saying:- Because of the smell of bleach. I think it makes her nauseous.- Will she want to sleep with you when she arrives? He
I stood there, not knowing what to say or do, as the secretary closed the door behind me. I looked back, terrified of being there alone with him.But there was me and Heitor Casanova again, face to face.- Please sit. - He curved his mouth in a half smile, in a mocking way, like every time I met him.It took me a while to do what he asked. I noticed that he was looking at my resume intently on the computer, not saying anything, making me even more nervous.Heitor Casanova did not please me at all as a person and at the same time I knew I was out of the job. But I couldn't deny how handsome and attractive he was. I could smell expensive perfume from where I was.He wore a suit and tie and his hair was neatly styled. He exuded masculinity through his pores. And my heart started to beat faster. I feared him and didn't even know why. The legs, I didn't even feel them anymore. They looked like jelly they were so soft. And if that wasn't enough, my foot started tapping the floor nervously,