Fuck.
I won’t ever think of drinking again; I woke up with the sun’s intense rays, my head throbbing, and I couldn’t understand what was happening.
I tried to open my eyes; I was wasted; my god, when was the last time I got as wasted at this? Why did I even dr- memories flood seamlessly, like, it meant for me to remember.
Tears started to flow from my eyes; my heart sank, and my throat felt dry like I had been stabbed with thousands of knives; memories from what happened yesterday were as fresh as my flowers, but they poisoned the happiness I planted and took care for I don’t know how many years.
Jack, did he—did he cheat on me? Was I lied to? The Jack I loved for how many years, the man whom I thought would be my end game? Did he actually impregnate another woman, aside from me?
I stood up, setting aside the heaviness of my heart; I won’t let them; Jack was mine from the very beginning; I can accept the child; we can even adopt that child if he really wanted to keep it; that’s how much I love him, I will forgive him, and forget what he did; I can do that, we have to talk about it.
I didn’t bother to look myself in the mirror; I went straight downstairs; I saw my parents having their breakfast; seems like they were about to finish when they both stopped and looked at me.
Mom’s radiant smile is contagious enough to lessen the pain that is killing me right now, without them even knowing, “Sweetheart, we’re sorry, we didn’t wait for you to get up; your dad has been calling you; we assume that you’re too exhausted from your deadlines,”
“Have a seat, lovely,” my dad sweetly said and even got the chair for me, which I accepted; they were having eggs and bacon, with toast bread and coffee; dad loves mom’s coffee, “How was school? Too tiring, huh?”
I tried to shrug and act casually, and dad poured me milk from the carton while mom made me a slice of bread with strawberry jam and some eggs; I didn’t speak; I was just staring at them peacefully serving me.
“Mom, Dad,” I called them; they both stopped for a second and gave me a quick gaze, and continued doing their things like they were saying, that they were listening, “I’m planning on getting married, to Jack, of course,”
“Is there something wrong, sweety?” mom asked with her concerned voice; she put down the bread knife and gave her full attention to me, “Was there anything happening between you both? Are you..”
My forehead creased with her hanging sentence; I couldn’t comprehend what she wanted to say, and she actually cut herself; my eyes widened upon realizing, “Mom! Come on; I’m a virgin!” I exclaimed, “I mean, we’re at the right age, right? I’m a college graduating, and he’s about to finish his; I mean, we’re planning okay,”
“But, Ija, I don’t think marriage is that simple; yes, of course, marriage is one of the new chapters of your life, but don’t you think it’s too early for that? Why don’t you enjoy your singleness for a while, then? If you’re both ready to settle down, then go,” dad’s soothing voice made my heart calm; he really knows how to settle things accordingly.
I tried so hard to smile at the both of them, “When did I ever disappoint you guys?”
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“Hi, babe, I’m sorry, late. I didn’t read your message. Were you waiting?” I didn’t talk for a while; I was just staring at him, my Jack. An epitome of perfection for me. His clean looks, his warm smile, his aura, his presence, his voice; who would have thought that behind all of his sweet words and gesture, hiding a cheater? I never did.
“No, that’s okay; I know you’re too busy,” I even emphasize it, but he seems oblivious to what’s inside my head; maybe, he’s too confident that his secret will be forever safe; god must’ve been caring for me.
“I’m sorry, I’ll make it up to you; let’s have the whole day; sounds good?” he’s still trying to convince me; if I didn’t know he impregnated other women, I must have been swoon by his act.
“Babe,” he immediately turned his gaze to me, smiling, like he didn’t do anything wrong, “Why don’t we plan for our wedding, then get married before graduation?”
His smile vanished, and his eyes were both confused and shocked, “Why all of a sudden, babe? I mean, we have enough time, right,”
What, for your other women? “But, aren’t you the one who asked me first about marriage? I want to talk about it now; we have ample time to do it; let’s do it today since you’re making up to me, right?”
His forced smile and nod didn’t miss my eyes; I almost smirked, “Alright, if that’s what you want, let’s do it,”
I smiled sweetly, wow. I did not expect this kind of answer from him, so he is willing to continue with the wedding?
“So, I was thinking, let’s have our wedding before your birthday, how about 9th of august? The day before your birthday, so we can celebrate our honeymoon and your birthday?”
I saw a subtle changed of emotion that he eventually masked with a radiating smile—kung hindi ko lang alam at nadiskubre ang nangyayari, baka kinikilig pa rin ang singit ko sa ngiti na yan—but not today, satan.
“Hmm, I mean, babe; I love that you wanted us to celebrate two important even in our lives, but wouldn’t it be okay if we celebrate it on different and not a day space? Ayoko na mapagod ka, I want you to be the most beautiful and not a stressful even for you, it’s a once in a lifetime event, so I want it to be memorable, is that okay with you?”
May kung anong kumurot sa puso ko habang pinapakinggan ko ang sinasabi nya. Doubts starts to linger in my mind, asking a lot of questions on where did it go wrong, saan ako nagkulang, para gawin niya sakin to?
Hindi ba niya alam na hindi lang ako, kung hindi pati ang magulang nya, masasaktan kung sakali na malaman nila to? I bet they will do, in no time. Hindi niya maitatago ito, kahit pumunta pa siya sa ibang universe.
I knew and expecting that he would think of an escape to that day, because I have already did my investigation, and discovered that the due date of that woman is on August 10th—his birthday. His fucking birthday, which I always celebrated with him, and I always look forward to surprise him.
“Okay, let’s do it that way you want hon,” I said and tried to give her a knowing smile which he reciprocate with one.
You will really go this far, just to hide that bitch, huh, then, let’s do it, my way.
I won’t let you be happy with that woman, with your child, you have to choose, between your child or me, you can’t be selfish and keep the both of us.
Hindi ko alam kung ilang beses na ang buntong hininga na pinakawalan ko habang nakatingin sa bouquet na hawak ko, this are my favorite flower—tulips. I’m always happy when I see one, but not tonight.Tomorrow is our wedding, pero hindi pa rin siya tumatawag sa akin, I’m expecting him to cancel the wedding prior to the wedding, pero hindi ko alam kung bakit hanggang ngayon, ganito pa rin ang estado, na umaakto siya na akala mo, gusto niya talaga mag pakasal sa akin at wala siyang ginawang katarantaduhan.I was still holding the business card that Yana gave to me, I told her what happen, and she actually gave me this new business card containing the contact information of the company—obviously. Pero, sino ba naman ang tanga na gagamit nito.Napatigil ako sa pag iisip nang may kumatok sa pinto ko, narinig ko ang boses ni manag Salemn, “Nak, galing po dito si Aiden,” hindi ko alam, kahit nakakagago pakinggan, pero may kung anong tuwa sa dibdib ang naramdaman ko, bahagya akong napangiti da
“Congratulations on your big day, ma’am!” iyon ang bati sakin nang mga nasa loob ng room kung saan naka ready na ako dahil in 20 minutes ay mag sisimula na ang kasal.Kung hindi siguro nangyari ang lahat nang nangyari nang mga nakaraan, siguro abot abot na ang iyak at ngiti ko, pero hindi. Right now, I can feel my heart breaking into pieces, I can’t utter any words without breaking my voice.I felt my phone on my inner pocket vibrating. I immediately get it and saw that there is one message from unknown number.“Hello, this is hire me, group inc,” My heart beats so fast, “Your order with tracking number of 121615814916 has been delivered, we hope you enjoy your purchase. We will appreciate if you leave us a review, thank you!”“Ma’am,” may staff na pumasok, nakangiti sa akin, “Someone important might want to see you,” kumunot ang noo ko, pero maya maya ay parang may bumbilya na umilaw sa ulo ko.“Thanks,” I muttered, tumango naman siya at iniwan nang nakabukas ang pinto.As he stepped
“What do you want me to do, then?” Asked the man in front of me, wearing his plain shirt and ragged pants. Like he came from straight to a fashion show, while I, wearing my wedding gown, with my smudged mascara, “You want to hire me for your wedding today? Who wants a bride who looks like that beside him?”I gave him a death glare; I was still crying; this is so fucking ridiculous; how dare that worthless man brings this kind of embarrassment not just to me but to my whole family? I fucking hate him, yet love him.“Just save me from this huge fucking embarrassment, and I’ll pay you a good amount,” I sternly said, “We didn’t put names on our the invitation, it’s just the date of our wedding, and besides, few people knew that it’s our wedding, eighty percent of our guest was my parent’s business partner,”“So, I’m not just saving you, but your surname, your family must be that rich,” he mumbled; I looked at my wristwatch; I think he noticed that; I heard him sigh, “Alright, let’s just t
“Thank you, pres!” tumango lang ako habang tumatawa, we decided to celebrate our success event. Last year na naming bilang student supreme government, we are all graduating students, pero isinama na rin namin ang mga newly appointed personnel namin. “No worries, hey, Liza, kumain ka pa, don’t be shy! Bawal nahihiya dito!” I wanted all my members to enjoy my treated dinner. “Where’s Allan?” I was talking about our vice president, laging missing in action si tanga, nagkaroon lang ng girlfriend, hindi na naming matawagan agad. “Papunta na daw, hinatid lang daw girlfriend nya, pabebe nga, gusto pa sa tapat ng bahay, hinatid na nga, gusto pa car.” “Hay nako! Nakausap ko nga yon nung nakaraan, guys, bad breath! Paano hinahalikan ni Allan yon?!” “Fake naman mga stuffs nya, like, wala naman problema if hindi branded right, bakit need pag mag pretend like she’s rich kung hindi naman?” Naisipan ko nang pumagitna sa pag uusap nila, “Hey guys, stop it, ang salbahe ng bibig nyo ha! Stop bad m
“Okay, last shot! You’re both doing great.” I commended the couple I was taking photos. It’s for their prenup, they look really happy with every shot.Nang matapos kami sa prenup pictorial, we wrap up and bid their goodbyes. Halos tatlong araw din bago natapos ang photoshoot, well, it’s a quick job, advantage na rin sa amin na mga modela sila, hindi na kami nahirapan para turuan sila sa proper posing.“Lexus, oh my god, you’re a business and money savior!” Hanna’s voice echoed in the whole room, “Thank you! Thank you! I love you so much!” I chuckled, this girl.“You dimwit, kinuha mo ko sa kabilang photoshoot para dito? I can’t believe you.” She texted me three hours ago, saying she has a huge problem with her photoshoot right now, turns out, hindi sumipot ang hired photographer nila today.“Eh sorry naman, hindi ko naman kasi alam na talkshit kausap yung gungong na yon, nakakabanas kaya! Kala mo lang! nakakainis kaya talaga, hindi nakakatuwa.”I patted her head and just shrug, this g
“Hey, bitch, are you okay? Kanina ka pa tahimik? Sabi ko sayo diba, sumama ka sakin, wag ka na magtampo tanga.”Hindi pa rin ako nagsalita, hindi kayang i-absorb ng utak at katawan ko ang nakita ko, I did not made a scene, hindi ako nag iskandalo gaya ng mga dapat na ginawa ko. Ayos lang sana kung kilala ko, or nagsabi sya, or hindi sya nagsinungaling, pero lahat yon ginawa nya, sakin. Hindi ako naniniwala sa lahat ng naririnig ko, dahil wala naman silang ibedensya, sabi sabi lang yon, at hindi ako naniniwala lang sa ganon. I love and trust Aiden.“Hoy!” sigaw ni Yana, “Okay ka lang?”Tumango lang ako, “Yamers uwi na tayo, sakit talaga ng ulo ko.” Dahilan ko na lang, kahit sa totoo na lang, gusto ko na talaga pumalahaw ng iyak, how could he fucking do this to me, how could he fucking cheat on me?How could he do this?Sino yung babae na yon? Nabuntis nya ba yon? Sya ba tatay non? Pero ang laki na ng tyan nya. So he has been cheating on me for that long?Hindi pwedeng sinamahan nya la