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CHAPTER ONE
ONE DRUNKEN MISTAKE Dylan grasped Lucas's hair, his fingers digging through the strands and he pressed his lips against his. His heart hammered loudly in his chest and his dick hardened in his pants, pressing against the jeans fabric. “I've loved you for so long," he whispered between kisses as his hand traveled into Lucas's trousers, cupping his rising cock. “I know I sound stupid, and I know I'm drunk…" Lucas pulled him forward and kissed him before he could finish. He ran his hand over Dylan's bare back as he played with his tongue. Dylan pulled back, laughing nervously as his cheeks reddened. He stared at Lucas, his face half-hidden by the darkness. “And I know we've been best friends forever, and I might be ruining everything with my choice." His smile trembled. “But I can't keep on pretending I am not in love with–” "Stop talking, Dy,” Lucas cut in with a smirk. He grabbed Dylan and pinned him to the bed before pulling the sheets over them. "We’ll talk confessions later. Right now, I want you." Before Dylan could speak, Lucas zipped down his pants, pulled out his cock and slowly pushed it into his mouth. The ecstasy from the booze mixed with the sudden excitement, pulling Dylan into a world of his own as he let out a moan and his eyes rolled upwards Then, he couldn't tell if it was the alcohol or if it had really happened, he heard the door creak. "Oh, come on," a voice groaned from the doorway–Lucas's voice. "If you're gonna hook up with a girl, at least use your own room." It was gone as fast as it came. Dylan, still moaning, lifted his head, dazed. "Did you say something, Lucas?" Lucas lifted his eyes to the door as something flickered across his face. But it was gone before Dylan could read it. "Forget it," he said, smiling. “Now where were we?" Dylan pushed Lucas’s face deeper as he closed his eyes again, never once looking toward the door. But he should have. Maybe then, he might have realized… he kissed the wrong twin. __________ SIX HOURS EARLIER... The Hayes mansion pulsed with music. Students crowded every corner of the enormous house with red cups in their hands. Some played around the beer pong table while others danced with their partners. A couple slipped into one of the rooms and a minute later, their moans carried over the bass. This was normal whenever the Hayes twins' parents left on one of their usual ‘sabbaticals’. No one really knew what it meant. But the wealthy couple announced it, the mansion became the biggest party house in Brookridge. Dylan Carter took a long swig from his fourth beer, too drunk to notice the taste. "Dylan!" He lifted his eyes at the call of his name and found Luca Hayes standing across the room with a grin, saying something over the music. Dylan frowned. "What?!" he shouted. “I can't hear what you're saying!" Lucas tried repeating himself, but the bass swallowed every word. Seeing Dylan's confused expression, he laughed, pointed behind him and disappeared into the crowd. Dylan stared for a moment before returning his attention back to the empty bottle. For ten years, he and Lucas had been inseparable. Best friends since the third grade; everyone expected them to stay close long after graduation. But somewhere along the way, Dylan had ruined it. He fell for his best friend. Dylan has spent years pretending those feelings weren't there, like he wasn't hopelessly in love with Lucas. But now, it was becoming too hard to ignore. And that was why he was getting drunk tonight. He was going to tell Lucas the truth and he definitely wasn't going to do it sober. Before he could change his mind, Dylan tossed the empty bottle into the trashcan before stumbling toward the beer pong table. “Hey, Nathan," he called, his voice slurring slightly. "Have you seen Lucas?” Nathan barely looked up from the cups lined across the table. "I think he went upstairs to his room." He tossed the ball and it bounced straight into the cup. The room exploded with cheers as Nathan threw both fists into the air. Dylan walked away from the table, pushing through the sea of students as he headed toward the stairs. Each step felt lighter than the last as the alcohol settled deeper into the system. Climbing onto the second floor, he turned and walked past Logan Hayes’s bedroom, barely noticing the slightly open door. His attention remained fixed on Lucas's room farther down the hallway. He reached the door and pushed it open. The lights were off and the room was dark, with only the glow from a phone illuminating the figure sitting against the headboard. "Lucas?" Dylan called as he shut the door behind him. “Hey, man." The figure didn't respond. And that should've been enough to make him switch on the light. But instead, he crossed the room and grabbed Lucas lightly by the shoulder. "Lucas,” he called again. “Dylan?" the boy muttered as he finally looked up. “Whoa. You sound drunk." Dylan didn't smile. He grabbed the phone from Lucas's hand and tossed it onto the bed. "I need to tell you something," he said, his expression turning serious. “I… I don't know how you're going to take it. I've tried saying this shit a hundred times and every time I chickened out.” Lucas smiled as he watched him. "You can talk to me.” Dylan nodded as he took in a shaky breath. “I like you," he whispered, laughing weakly. “No–I love you, Lucas. I've loved you for years and I know you probably don't feel the same. But I couldn't keep lying anymore." He bit his lips, his pulse thundering in his ears as he searched Lucas's face. "So… what do you think?" Lucas remained silent for a moment, his brown eyes wide with shock. But before he could attempt to answer, Dylan grabbed him by the collar of his shirt and kissed him. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry,” he apologized immediately as he pulled back. "I'll… I'll go now–” Lucas cupped his cheeks and leaned forward before silencing him with a kiss. Warmth rushed through Dylan so suddenly his knees almost gave out. Everything he'd imagined for years suddenly felt possible. _____________ Outside, Lucas Hayes smiled and waved at his mother's face on his phone. “So you two made it?” he asked. "We did," Mrs. Hayes replied as she turned the camera to what looked like a hotel lobby. “Your father's gone to find the beach." Lucas laughed. “Yeah, that's dad." "Behave while we're gone,” Mrs. Hayes said, turning the view back to her, "and keep an eye on Logan." She sighed dramatically. “You know how your twin can be." Lucas smiled. "Yeah, I'll keep him in check." "Good." His mother smiled warmly, pressing a hand to her lips. "We love you boys." "Love you too, mum." The call ended. Lucas sighed as he slipped his phone into his pocket and headed back inside. He laughed, waved and declined a kiss from Hannah before turning to the beer pong table. "Nathan!" he shouted, tapping the boy on the shoulder. “Have you seen Dylan?” Nathan frowned, looking up briefly. "He was just looking for you. I think he's upstairs.” Lucas thanked him and headed upstairs. He walked down the quiet hallway and pushed open the door to his bedroom first. He stopped in his tracks. The bed was moving and a head briefly appeared above the blankets. Blonde messy hair, pierced ears. Logan. "Oh, come on," Lucas muttered as he immediately looked away. "If you're gonna hook up with a girl, at least use your own room.” Covering his eyes with one hand, he cursed and shut the door without another thought. Of course his brother wouldn't use his room. “Fucking idiot," he muttered under his breath as he turned back down the hallway. But before he could get to the next room… CRASH! Glass shattered downstairs and the music screeched to a stop. "What the hell?!" Lucas shouted. Abandoning his search for Dylan, he hurried back toward the staircase. "Hey! Who touched that vase?”Ethan shot up so quickly that his chair scraped against the floor. "What happened?"'We have the results,' he said, pausing in front of him.My heart shot. Blake hadn't returned, and I was in front of the doctor by myself. "What did you discover?"The doctor fixed his eyes. "However, there's a complication."Ethan's stomach sank. "What kind?""We think Jake has injured one of the large blood vessels in his chest."Ethan looked at him. It made no sense to him. "The accident?""Most likely.""But he was stable.""He was," the doctor said, nodding. "We think the wound was bleeding all this time, and the scan you had before might not have shown it."Ethan's face turned pale. "Can you stop this?""Possibly."He was unimpressed by the word. "What?"The doctor took a deep breath. "Jake needs surgery.""Now?" Ethan asked, his voice cracking."Immediately.""How dangerous is it?"Ethan hadn't even been able to speak; the doctor hadn't spoken either, and that had told Ethan more than he could h
The following forty minutes dragged on in a fog. A nurse eventually ushered Ethan and Blake further down the hall so that the doctors could do what they needed to do, then she drew the curtains tight around Jake's room. Ethan could not see his brother any longer, and that was almost more miserable than watching. Ethan sank down in a plastic chair with his elbows resting on his knees, his fingers interlocked so tightly that his knuckles ached. Blake sat next to him. Neither of them made a sound.The hospital had fallen silent once more. The alarms had ceased and the shouting had long since ceased, but Ethan couldn't settle down. Every time footsteps drew near, his head shot up, and every time they passed, his stomach clenched painfully more."Let's call your parents," Blake finally said in a soft voice.Ethan shut his eyes. He had tried not to think about it for hours, because the second you did, it became true. "Yeah.""Do you want me to do it?""No." Ethan drew his phone from his p
CODINGEthan followed the doctor back to the room where Jake still snoozed in bed. He sat in the chair next to the bed and this time, when the monitor caught his eye, his gaze lazily swept across to where Jake lay. The boy who had spent years instructing him how not to do everything, driving him nuts, frightening the crap out of him and well, humiliating him too. But the boy who'd stood by him in ways Ethan hadn't yet figured out. Who made him afraid to be himself. Hard to imagine losing him now.Ethan touched Jake's hand softly, and Jake's hand twitched. Ethan held his breath; Jake's eyes fluttered."You still here?" Jake croaked out.Ethan blinked quickly. "Yeah. " he chuckled."You're supposed to be home.""So are you.""Technically, no." Jake looked around at the rails of the bed and the hoses.Ethan chuckled, and Jake groaned, rubbing his hand against his side. "Please don't make me laugh.""Sorry."Jake closed his eyes for a moment, then continued to speak with his eyes closed
WHAT DYLAN DECIDEDThe gentle sound of the rain tapping against the attic window somehow seeped into his dreams, the sound pulling him from his sleep. For a long time, he lay perfectly still, gazing upwards, and allowed the gray of the morning to envelope him. And then reality hit him in the image of Lucas's disappointed look on the porch, his hollow words through the door, and his brother counting cash among carefully arranged packages.Fuck. He had not slept well. And he probably won't be able to sleep anytime soon. So he decided to take that as his cue to get up. Slowly, he climbed down from the attic to stretch his cramped muscles. Staying awake in this cramped space for two nights in a row had been quite exhausting. On the way towards the bathroom, he took a good look at himself in the mirror. There was the faint yellow bruise on his jaw, dark circles under his eyes and that unique, haunted expression of someone who had seen the things he could not unsee in the past seventy-two
SECOND PLACE Lucas trudged back toward the main street that led to his house, backpack straps cutting into his shoulders, trying to organize everything about the conversation he'd just had with Dylan at his front door - and coming up blank. Something about it had been off today - not the words, which, each individually, had seemed totally reasonable, but the way in which Dylan had said them - too fast, too rehearsed, too… practiced, like someone performing lines he'd memorized in the mirror. When he reached the corner, he fished out his phone and scrolled to Logan's contact. Hit dial. It rang three times before his brother answered, sounding haphazard and sleepy through the line. "What?""Are you going to school today?" Lucas asked. He glanced back toward Dylan's house, then slowly made his way down the street toward Brookwoods High. "Nope.""Great."Lucas sighed and rubbed his forehead, frustrated. "Can you at least come pick me up? I was going to walk with Dylan but… that's n
THE DOOR HE HAD TO CLOSE The knock sounded again; sharper this time. Three quick raps, then a pause. Two more. A rhythm that started down the scale – a little polite, a little courteous – that somehow made it worse. Dylan felt his entire body turn stiff. "You know who that is?"he whispered, just barely moving his lips, eyes immediately darting to his brother, sitting across the living room. "No," Rocky whispered, already hauling himself up off the couch, grimacing fiercely as he moved to tug at his bandaged arm. He reached under the cushions next to him and pulled out a gun that Dylan hadn't even known was there, curling his fingers around the grip with practiced precision. "Go to your room. Now.""What?""Dylan."Rocky's voice was low and urgent, his eyes hard. "I need you upstairs."Dylan opened his mouth to protest again but, suddenly, there was another knock; a third knock, and there was something about the particular cadence of that knock – rapid, familiar, impatient in







