I knew Alice was going to be back today and I honestly was waiting for her, we had a lot to talk about. I got back home and went straight into my office to gather the files, she realizing I was back came to the office to see me. “How was your trip?”, I asked. “You mean our honeymoon that you ditched me for?”, she asked still sounding pissed. “Oh cmon, pretend like you didn’t have fun”. She rolled her eyes, “So when are we having our actual honeymoon?”, she asked. I chuckled,”Have a seat Alice, we have a lot to talk about “, I said calmly. she did so and I threw a bunch of papers of the table in front of her." First of all, our marriage is a contract agreement between your parents and I and honestly I don’t want to go into the details, so we need to set this ground rules. 1) I have no emotion attraction whatsoever to you, none at all, I will take care of you and cater for every single one of your needs and wants till the day we divorce or one of us dies, and I will also prote
CHARLIE * * "You're... you're trying to discover your sexuality in a strip club?", he asked honestly surprised. "Where else do you find half naked gay people to turn you on?", I asked giggling. "Are you drunk?", He asked.I shrugged. "Just a little bit", I said smiling. "Charlie, this is risky for you to be seen here and you know it more than I do". "I know I know, that's why I came alone, I even snuck out and used a cab". "What? what if someone had seen you or worse kidnap you? that's really dangerous ". I sighed and rubbed my temples, "I know, I know , I just... I needed to know what's wrong with me okay? I just needed to". "What's wrong with you?". "I can't stop thinking about you, I honestly can't okay, push me away as much as you want to, I honestly don't care but it doesn't change how I feel about you, it doesn't. And I don't know if I'm just attracted to you or I actually don't like women, and this might made me realize, I actually crave men more than I do with w
My hands were literally shaking, whenever i decided or choose to do something out of my daily routine, i dont know how to explain how it ends but I usually regret it. There was this Queer club that opened down town and I wanted to explore it, see if I really have a thing for men like that or it’s just all in my head. This is the riskiest thing I’ve ever done in my life. I couldn’t go with any security because I didn’t want this leaking out by accident, i even snuck out of my own house so no one would notice Im gone, i even had to use a cab to take me there. The thing I liked about there was, everyone wore as mask, unless you didn’t care to so, yeah I was safe. I got in and paid for a VVIP section where no one would be around, just me in my table away from everyone upstairs. The club had two sections, the Lesbians section and the Homosexuals section , I was taken to the gay section. They started with a strip show, and then they sent strippers to me, I had to get myself high beca
CHARLIE * * I headed down for breakfast and started eating, a couple minutes later Alice walked down and looked at me, with a shocking expression. “What?”, I asked wondering if there was something on my face. “Why are you fully dressed in a tux?”, she almost shrieked. “Uhm, what am I supposed to wear? A bikini or something?”. “Where are you going to?” “Work”, I said. She looked like she was going to cry “What about our honeymoon?!” “Oh Im not coming with you, there’s no way im staying off work for two weeks, but Dont worry Ive got you covered, I got you an all expenses paid trip to any country you want, and the best part is, you get to bring 5 friends, have a good time, a good girls trip and-“ “Charlie I don’t fucken understand you, it’s supposed be be a honeymoon, you and I and not some girls trip, what are you even saying?”. “Mr Hearth, the car is ready”, my driver told me. “Alright “, i said standing up. I went to Alice and kissed her forehead, “Have fun on your girl
CHARLIE * * * The person I hated the most was myself, I’ve never felt so stupid, everything that happened today felt like a shadow, i didn’t even realize it until the end of the day . I was just in the room but I wasn’t there. Everyone around me kept telling me to smile for the camera, I couldn’t even fake that one thing I do everyday. I was so drained. I didn’t see Mason throughout, I saw him briefly at the after party when he came to say hello to my mother. We exchanged glances briefly and he left. I don’t know if this is payback for what I did to him before but this broke me, completely, he said it was a fling and I shouldn’t throw away my future for just a fling, now I was going to live with that scar for the rest of my life. The wedding was over finally and it was time to go back home with Alice. My mother said we should spend the night at my house and then we can go for our honeymoon by tomorrow. I sighed. On our way back Alice kept on talking nonstop about the wed
When I woke up, I sat on the bed for a full hour and I told myself I wasn't going to marry Alice, I just couldn't.I'd rather get into a Lavender marriage instead because there's no going back.I'm fully gay, the way I felt with Mason last night I've never felt that way with a woman, it's embarrassing to say but I don't think I can be with a woman anymore.For the first time I'm not thinking about what my parents are going to say, or what the world is going to think I don't want to be with a woman, I want to be with Mason.I know I might sound insane because this is just a one night stand, a fling to him maybe but it's much more to me than that.He was so different with me last night, we were up for hours, talking and cuddling and kissing and I've never been so myself before, I don't know what to say but all the feelings I've buried for Mason was back.Younger me would be so Intrigued to find out I had sex with Mason!I've liked him since we were kids, at first I thought I just loved