“We really should stop meeting like this.” Adira say standing behind me. I smile at the familiar soothing sound of her voice. I have dreams of her speaking to me in that beautiful; it’s a trip to have her standing so close to me and talking to me. My body came alive the moment she said her first word. It’s like my dreams are coming alive, her voice takes me t a different dimension. I love it.
“I know, it’s almost like one of use is stalking the other.” I say turning around to look at her. A smile spreads across my face when I see her beautiful face. She smiles back at me a different reaction from the girl I ran into at the coffee shop.
She’s so much more open today. She’s looking me in the eyes and she’s not holding herself back like she was. She seems more at ease today.
“It has to be you stalking me because I’m from here, you’re the new comer.” She says smiling.
“Oh, so it’s like that? Because I’m from out of town I’m the psych. Okay, I see what’s going on here.” I say and she laughs. I look at her mesmerized. Her laugh is better than her talking voice. She looks so much younger and less burdened when she laughs. It’s a joy to hear her laugh.
“Next in line.” An attendant at the food truck calls out and realize that I’m next up to place my order.
“What are you getting?” I say to her and she looks at me curiously. I take a step closer to the food truck waiting for her to step closer but she doesn’t. I look at her confused; I thought we had a moment just then. I thought we were making progress and she was getting comfortable with me. But I guess I read the whole situation wrong.
“You can go first.” She says and I raised my brows at her in question. What am I missing here? “I’m not letting you sneak pay for my food. I know what you did at the coffee shop.” She says and it dawns on me.
“That was my token of appreciation for letting me share a table with you.” I say smiling sweetly and she shakes her head no. I look at the food truck lady and I can tell she’s getting annoyed but she doesn’t want to be rude.
I order my food, pay and then step aside to let her do the same.
“You didn’t like that I paid for your coffee?” I ask her when we find a place to sit a few feet from the truck. I look at her beautiful face, trying to commit every detail to memory. I want to paint her so bad, I want to have her come to my studio and have her pose for me. I know we will create magic if she lets me do it.
“Not that I…” She says looking at me for a moment. “Yeah, I hated it.” She says looking at me waiting for a reaction.
“I’m sorry I made you feel that way, that wasn’t my intention. I was trying to be chivalrous and I wanted to return the kindness you extended to me.” I say trying to explain to her my intentions. I didn’t think it would be taken out of context.
“I appreciate the gesture. But I would also appreciate it if it didn’t happen again.” She says looking at me for confirmation that I won’t do it again.
“I have a question.” I say and she looks at me sideways nodding. “What happens if we by chance go on a date. Do I pay then?” I say and she looks at me curious. She looks away for a moment and I think she won’t answer but she looks back at me.
“If by chance we do go out on a date then we split the bill.” She says and I’m disappointed. I know the in thing today is for dates to split the bill but I wasn’t raised like that. My mother taught me differently and I find it difficult to do the fifty-fifty thing every time I take someone out.
I want to pay when we’re on a date, especially when I’m on a date with a girl I really like. And I really like this girl. I just want to treat her and show her I enjoy her company. Nothing suspect.
“I have to admit I struggle with that one.” I say choosing to be honest with her rather than lie and find myself in a weird situation.
“I have my own money, I don’t need you to pay for my food.” She says getting a little loud.
“And I don’t doubt that…” I say looking at her. I feel like I’m not getting my point across and I fear if this conversation goes any further, we will end up getting into an argument with her.
I can tell that this is something that is important to her. It’s really not worth getting into right now. “You know what? I get what you’re saying; I apologize for crossing a line. It will never happen again.” I say smiling at her so she knows that I mean no harm. She looks at me and she quickly looks away.
“I appreciate that.” She says mot looking at me anymore.
“So how is your night?” I ask wishing to get back to the banter we had a few minutes ago. I feel some type of way that she’s not looking at me and I can feel all of her walls coming up again. I should have just conceded her point and let the bill thing go.
“My night is going okay I guess. I’m starving, I’m tired and I really wish I was in bed right now. But other than that I’m good.” She says looking in the direction of the food truck.
“My night is going great, not that you asked.” I say and she looks at me.
“I didn’t but good to know. What’s so great about it?” She asks smiling at me.
“Well I got out of my apartment and went exploring. I met a lot of cool people and I got a lot of inspiration for my next piece. It was a really good day and on top of that I’m about to eat dinner. What more can a man ask for?” I say getting up when I’m called to come get my order.
“Are you always this happy?” She asks me a few minutes after we inhale our food. Neither of us spoke as we swallowed every last bite of the food. We were really hungry; now that my stomach is full I’m happy. And I have a sneaky feeling that Adira feels the same way, she looks full and happy.
“Of ‘course. Life is beautiful.” I say and she looks at me with a smile on her face but it’s not a joyous smile. It’s a I don’t get you smile. She looks like she’s having a discussion in her head trying to figure me out and she’s failing.
“Life is beautiful.” She repeats my words and she has this look of wonder on her face. But I see that sadness I heard in her voice the first time we crossed paths. It’s right there in her eyes, it’s so potent. I want to take it away and replace it with pure joy. I know I can do that for her, with her. She has a lot of joy inside her she just doesn’t let it out much.
“You don’t agree?” I ask curious to hear where that sadness is coming from.
“I think that the moon is beautiful. The way the stars share the sky, each one shining as bright as the next. There is so much beauty that splashes across the sky when the sunrises or sets. And I can definitely see beauty in flower blooming but I can’t say that life is beautiful.” She says looking at me sadly. This time she doesn’t look away, she looks at me straight in my eyes.
I think she’s doing it to prove her point that life is not that great. She’s trying to show me through the sadness in her eyes. Ana I appreciate her for letting me in like that. She’s giving me a challenge, she’s challenging me to show her the beauty of life and that’s a challenge I will gladly take on.
“The things you listed are the reason why life is beautiful.” I say and I can see that she doesn’t agree before she says a word.
“Those are things in nature.” She says looking at me closely.
“And you can’t separate one from the other. You and I are sitting here at this very moment because of nature and life. We wouldn’t exist without one or the other.” I say and she sighs looking at me.
“I think you and I view life differently. We won’t agree on anything.” She says looking at me like she just realized something she’s been wondering about for a long time. And she’s disappointed at the outcome.
“You know what? That’s okay too.” I say and she smiles.
“Because that’s the beauty of life. That what you were going to say right?” She says laughing and I nod vigorously. “You’re something else Simon.” She says looking up at the sky.
“If it isn’t my beautiful, talented, overachieving and untouchable big sister.” Chloe says standing behind me. I almost choke on my muffin at the sound of her voice. I didn’t hear her approach, I force my throat to work with me and not let this muffin kill me. “You summoned me and I am here.” she says when I look back at her.It takes a moment for my eyes to adjust to the evident baby bump she’s carrying. I didn’t imagine that her belly to be this big. She gained a lot of weight. Looking at her I’m sure I don’t want to have a baby.“I didn’t summon you, don’t be dramatic.” I say and she rolls her eyes at me. I shake my head at that; she needs to stop rolling her eyes. She’s too old to be doing that.“Mom told me what you said to her word for word.” She says looking at me with an accusatory stare. I look right back at her. She thinks I give a shit what she thinks
“Wow, you look amazing. I haven’t seen you in a long time.” Phil says walking toward my table, I look at him, wondering why he’s here. He has this huge smile on his face, once upon a time that smile made my heart skip a beat. I would do anything to have it directed at me. I look at his face trying to see if I still see him the same“What do you want Phil?” I ask realizing that his smile does nothing for me anymore. Instead I’m annoyed. I hate what he’s doing to my sister; no woman should go through pregnancy alone.“Oh, is that how you and I are greeting each other now?” He asks sitting down in the chair Chloe stormed out from.“Yeah, we don’t have to exchange any pleasantries. We can get right to the point.” I say looking him straight in the eyes.“Come on don’t be like that. You and I are friends. There was a time when we got along.” He says smiling at me.
“What do you have planned?” I ask Simon excited. We walk out of the coffee shop heading down the street to the city center. I take a deep breath in and let it out slowly, enjoying the night air. But I am especially enjoying walking with Simon.I enjoyed the last time we spent together, we sat on a wall and had dinner but I had a memorable time. He has a way of making the most mundane things enjoyable.“I have a few questions first.” He says making me smile.“You always have a question.” I say and he smiles at me shyly. My new favorite thing to see, he looks so cute when he smiles like that.“I don’t like to make assumptions. I like to make decisions based on facts and I really don’t want to make a fool of myself in front of you.” He says and I nod smiling.“What are your questions?” I ask as we cross a light.“Are you hungry?&rd
“What are we doing today?” Adira asks excitedly, smiling at me. We’re in an Uber on our way to our third date. We haven’t seen each other in a week, so I’m excited to be spending time with her. It’s always a fun time when we’re together. The more time I more time I spend with her, the harder I fall for her. I know this is sudden and unheard of but she got me. I am falling for her, I’m not someone that falls in love quickly but Adira is different. She got me at the first sound of her voice and she got me at the sound of her first laugh. She’s one of those people you meet once in a life time. And I need to make sure she falls for me too. I can’t let her slip through my fingers. I want her. I look at her in awe of her beauty. She’s one of the most beautiful people I have ever seen. She has the smoothest skin I’ve ever seen. Her eyes are a breathtaking brown, every time I look into them it feels like I’m staring at the sun. But instead of being
“I’ve been waiting for you for the past hour.” Chloe says looking at me with so much anger in her voice as I sit in a chair opposite her at the coffee shop. Its night time now and the coffee shop is a little empty. I look at her harboring my own anger. I don’t get why she called me, doesn’t she have a boyfriend?“I was busy.” I say looking at the bags at her feet. She has about five of them; she’s dressed in all types of different colors. She looks like she didn’t look in the mirror when she got dressed, nothing matches.“Well, I’ve been sitting here looking like a fool with all these bags.” She says and I feel my patience wearing thin. I’m not going to keep repeating myself with her.“I’m not the one that kicked you out, so why are you blaming me for your problems.” I say angrily and she has the nerve to look at me sad.“I didn’t mean you’re
“I don’t get why we had to wake up so early.” Chloe says complaining about the same thing for the 100th time this morning. It took half an hour to get her to get out of bed. I had to force her to go take a shower; she didn’t want to get out of bed at all.I had to use all types to get her to start moving. I don’t get why I should work so hard to get her to fix her life. I set up this interview, I begged the office she’s going to, to give her a chance. And she wants to make me look like a fool by showing up late. These people are doing this as a favor to me. I’m not going to let her ruin my good name with them.It’s a miracle they agreed to see her for an interview so soon.“I’m not going to explain to you again why it’s important to show up on time for an interview.” Say and she opens her mouth to say something else. I raise my hand to stop her before she starts
“Ugh!” Chloe says when she walks through the door. I turn away from the TV and look at her. She looks like she walked through an automatic carwash. Her clothes are all over the place, her clothes are dry but she looks wet at the same time. She looks at me and for a second and then she walks away.There’s only one reason she would be so pissed off is her no getting the job. I know how much a no, can ruin your whole day. But she shouldn’t feel bad, we’ll try again at her different company, most people don’t a job on the first try. What matters is that she keeps trying; I can’t fault her for that.“Shoes.” I say before she gets past the kitchen. She walks back to the front door and takes off her shoes. She keeps making weird sounds the whole time. I watch her throwing her body around as she gets out of her shoes.She’s trying to communicate to me but she’s not using her words. I won’t let
“How are you?” My mother says on the other end of the phone. I have her on speaker as I prepare my work room. I have five clients coming in today to do their hair. I’m going to have a long day today and I need to be prepared. First on the agenda is making sure this room is clean and organized.I always look forward to the days I can work from home. I can set up the mood and make sure both my clients and I are comfortable. I make sure the room is the right temperature, it smells good. And I need to make sure all my tools are available to me at all times.“I’m okay.” I say redoing the bed Chloe left all messed up. It looks like she just woke up and pulled the covers over the bed. The corners of the covers are hanging at awkward angles, the sheets underneath are wrinkled. I can’t have clients in here when it’s like this. I remember telling her to leave everything exactly as she found it. Al she has to do is pick