I want my sister's lover

“You sister needs a dress and you have the money. Just give it to her so she can go get it.” My mother says standing at my door and I look at her in disbelief, I can’t believe she’s doing this to me right now.  I’m too tired to be having this conversation with her.“Okay, don’t give it to her. Lend it to me; I’ll pay you back the money when I have it.” She says knowing that she doesn’t have the money to pay me back and if I give her the money I will never get it back. She slowly walks into my room and closes the door. I didn’t invite her in but I guess this is her house. Never mind my privacy and needs. I sit up on my bed because any thoughts of taking a nap are down the drain. I know she won’t leave me alone until she gets what she wants.“Why does she have to have such an expensive dress? She can get a nice dress at a cheaper price.” I say and my mother sighs irritat

“Thank you so much for coming to do my hair at such short notice. I know I should have made an appointment and I promise this won’t happen again. I ‘m just so grateful you squeezed me in.” I hear Freddie’s mother say to someone in the other room. I half listen to her as I wait for Freddie to come back from the kitchen with a glass of water for me and a beer for him.He invited me over to his house to watch a game. I don’t even watch soccer like that but I was happy to receive his invitation. I needed to get out and breathe. I haven’t had a full conversation with another human being in over a week. I moved here a month ago and I don’t know anyone apart from him. I was losing my mind staring at the walls in my apartment.I tried going out and exploring the city but it didn’t work out. I couldn’t find anything that caught my attention for more than two seconds.The idea of moving to a new town, where I did

 I pull my car into my parent’s driveway and come to a stop. I feel my heart start beating fast; I haven’t been back here since I moved out of here. I stayed away for as long as I could and if it wasn’t for my mother cussing me out on the phone yesterday I wouldn’t be back here.My body is already on alert, I haven’t been here more than a minute and I’m already bracing for the worst. I didn’t realize how unsafe I felt here until this very moment. It makes me sad that my family home bring up so much fear and anxiety. This is no way for a child to live.“I’m just going in to hear her out and then I’m out. You can do this Adira.” I say to myself when I feel the panic set in. I really don’t want to be here. The little bit f peace I created for myself is not here, it’s in my apartment. So I need to get out of here as quickly as possible. “Let me drink some water

“If it isn’t my beautiful, talented, overachieving and untouchable big sister.” Chloe says standing behind me. I almost choke on my muffin at the sound of her voice. I didn’t hear her approach, I force my throat to work with me and not let this muffin kill me. “You summoned me and I am here.” she says when I look back at her.It takes a moment for my eyes to adjust to the evident baby bump she’s carrying. I didn’t imagine that her belly to be this big. She gained a lot of weight. Looking at her I’m sure I don’t want to have a baby.“I didn’t summon you, don’t be dramatic.” I say and she rolls her eyes at me. I shake my head at that; she needs to stop rolling her eyes. She’s too old to be doing that.“Mom told me what you said to her word for word.” She says looking at me with an accusatory stare. I look right back at her. She thinks I give a shit what she thinks

 “What do you have planned?” I ask Simon excited. We walk out of the coffee shop heading down the street to the city center. I take a deep breath in and let it out slowly, enjoying the night air. But I am especially enjoying walking with Simon. I enjoyed the last time we spent together, we sat on a wall and had dinner but I had a memorable time. He has a way of making the most mundane things enjoyable.“I have a few questions first.” He says making me smile.“You always have a question.” I say and he smiles at me shyly. My new favorite thing to see, he looks so cute when he smiles like that.“I don’t like to make assumptions. I like to make decisions based on facts and I really don’t want to make a fool of myself in front of you.” He says and I nod smiling.“What are your questions?” I ask as we cross a light.“Are you hungry?&rd