Chapter 48 - A different way

“What did you want to talk to me about?” I say to my father a long silence. He hasn’t said anything to me since I walked into the living room he’s sitting on his chair staring at the window. He might be comfortable with the silence, I’m not. It freaks me out; I don’t know what to do with myself. My mind keeps raising coming up with different reasons why he called me here. And most of them end with me dead in a ditch. That’s how deep my trust issues run.

 Even when I was a child I didn’t feel safe with my parents. I was filled with anxiety and fear every time I had to go somewhere with him. And unfortunately my mother wasn’t any different. My saving grace was getting older. Growing up gave me choices; I could decide where I wanted to go. I only went places with my father when it was necessary, other than that I stayed home.

Think about it now, it’s a little sad. How can a child not feel safe with her fathe