So close yet so far

Amanda’s POV

Every word I uttered to him are all lies, I did not mean every each of them but what can I do? I know I am mare omega and nothing but to imitate as his mate but I can let him to insult every inch of my dignity and feelings.

I need to stop myself and these feelings to grow that even when the marked are vanish, I still can stand without him.

I can feel dizzy again, this past few days my body become different. I want to sleep more and have no appetite at all, maybe this is the effect of the drugs I always take just to make sure I will not go to heat again in front of that Alpha.

I yawned again for the nth time, even the sun is already up; the weather is still cold and all the leaves of the tree are already fall.

Like the tree and the sun, things in my life is repeatedly itself. Once my first problem solves another one problem will arrive like how the sun will set and the moon will show up and another sun rise for another day and once my love faded another unrequited love