There's distance between us. I made sure that there would be one because I needed to gather my thoughts. The information I've just received feels like a set back to be honest. I've been under the impression that only a few months remained before we had to negotiate something.It hadn't been easy, trying to gather all I can to cover the loan that now I was under, a loan from William. William is pretty understanding but that doesn't mean it has not been uncomfortable, knowing that I owe him so much money. It is true that he played a dirty trick into making me sign that marriage contract, under influence but still, he did help me out and paid the debt that hung heavily over my shoulders.Now I don't have to worry about the house loan but paying him back. I'm not the proudest in the way everything was solved, but what choice did I have?I tried everything I could to gather the money together, while also struggling with witnessing my mother deteriorating health. That period of my life fe
A deal that existed between William and I, has found itself a witness. I have no clue as to who this might be that sent that envelope, but whoever it is, must want something.There's a price for everything.There should be a price for silence, right?' You know money talks.' My consciousness says, which doesn't sit well with me.' I can't have more money problems than the one I currently have.' A huge debt already hangs over my head and I have not found a way out. I need to figure out my next steps, to finally be free and move on with my life.Being in debt is one of the most weight bearing things to experience. It surely is a relief to know that everything with the house loan is settled, but now I have to deal with the fact that I owe William Myers a whole lot of money. If mom ever found out…..‘ No, mom can't ever find out about this, well until I sort out everything.’ " I can't believe this marriage will last this long. A whole year." I hear William say from beside me." Same,
Did I hear right or am I imagining things?" Mr Shard-----" " A towel, please Rosa." He says, cutting me off.Huh?I glance to Rosa and watch her quickly leave the room." Lets take care of you first before we talk, okay?" " O-okay?" I nod instead, not knowing a better response.Rosa( who happens to be the housekeeper), returns before I know it.I hold out my hand to receive the towel so I can dry off myself, but Mr Shard ignores that and starts drying up my hair, yet again taking me by surprise. 'You're letting him get away with a little too much now.' My consciousness says, making me realize this situation mih'There might not be much meaning into it, but I can't ignore the fact that I'm married. Let me atleast honour that, my parents would atleast expect this from me because marriage is marriage at he end of the day.' " Mr Shard." My hand on his, stops him. " I think we can talk now." I make sure to not break eye contact, even though his intense gaze makes me a little nervous,
" I'm being watched!" The words blurt out of me. My cheeks warm up due to my little outburst. My eyes drop to my feet then, while I mentally scold myself for not wording my words right.' How will I make sense if I act in such a way? I need to get a hold of myself, seriously.'" Milla." I turn to him.He gestures for me to take a seat on the couch, which I do before he joins me seconds later." I need an explanation." He tells me.I nod, letting out a sigh. ' Do better Milla, do better.' I scold myself." So, earlier today, I received a mail and it is the main reason why I decided to make contact." Or else I might still be a coward and not even attempt to make contact."This mail you mention, is it the reason why you believe you are being watched?"" Yes, because of what was in it.""What was in it?" This next part makes me nervous to even mention, but I know that I will have to do it if I want answers from his side."A set of pictures, the kind that would destroy everything." I fi
" You stopped me from seeing that man again." He says, breaking the silence that had taken over the trip back home.What's done is done now." I had to."" Will your response be the same, whenever something concerns that man?"" What do you mean will my response be the same?"" You're protecting him." He sounds accusing.And jealous." I am not protecting him." " Yes you are, you jump to the defence on his behalf like he means something to you."" That is not true." I shake my head." I find that hard to believe." "Well, it's not like you would believe anything I say anyway." I comment.My head whips in his direction when he suddenly pulls over at the side of the road.It's late and he decides to do this. " No, no, no, William Myers, you better take me home right now." I demand.He is crazy if he thinks I have the time to be arguing with him so late. We've been gone for so long and I'm pretty sure my mother must be so worried.He turns his whole body towards me, where I am given his
To witness love and to experience love, is quite different.I played the role of a witness while my mother experienced love, one received from my father. He was simply a man in love, not with the idea of love, but with the woman who introduced him to love. I recall the days of admiring how beautiful and easy, they made everything seem. Everything felt right with them and I, a few times so, desired to be the one to experience such love. In unfortunate turn of events, tragedy decided to knock at our door. It claimed the life of my father, separating us and leaving us in the cold. My mother seemed lost without her other half.The desire to better relate to her pain had overwhelmed me, so much so, because all I wanted was to offer more support and be a reliable source of comfort for her. The unhealthy mindset I had then, in the early days of fresh and raw pain while mourning, was strong, I admit to this. What amazed me through it all, was the way my mother noticed where where I was ment
Moments come and moments go, which leave a person in their most vulnerable period. That was me, months passed.It hadn't been long since the passing of my father, when my mother fell ill and was admitted to the hospital. I felt alone, I was alone and everything seemed to be thrown at me.I've never felt so vulnerable and confused, being unable to take control of a situation. I felt small against a big mountain, that needed me to dig down deep within and search for strength. No matter what, I never gave up. I never wanted to because giving up at that time, meant that everything would be over.Unfortunately, while I had battles to conquer, there was a witness. I don't know how, but William Myers became a witness and that alone became dangerous. The danger was not with him witnessing everything but with him involving himself in my life, when I clearly asked hikm to stay away.Now things have gotten complicated.Till today, I wish he was never present in that period of my life.Now I'm s
~ Flashback~~' I want you to stay away from Will.' I blink at her, not sure if I heard right.' Mam?' ' I want you to stay away from my son, Milla. This, whatever it is that is between you two, it must end, today.' ' I don't understand.' I shake my head.' Okay.' She breathes out, before continuing, ' Look, my Will is a good boy, with good manners and is very friendly with everyone, but it doesn't mean that everyone must grow too familiar with him now. ' All I can do is silently look at her as I try to understand what she is trying to say here. Does she have a problem with me and Will hanging out?Or is she implying that I am a bad influence in his life?' This friendship, if you'd like to call it that, needs to end today. I wish to not see you around my home anymore.' ' Did I do something wrong, mam?' I ask, feeling really bad now.I am pretty sure that I never bothered the family, I've never asked for anything and rarely set my foot at the Myer household. Will and I have see