I ran down the corridor at full speed. I felt how my blood boiled as my temples throbbed, as if my head was about to explode. Damn it, I thought.
I had never felt this much rage before. Well, probably I did. It was eleventh grade when Jessica, my bestie and later ex-bestie (yes, teenagers can be very dramatic about it), spilled a whole cup of blue, raspberry slushee onto my favorite Back-to-the-Future white t-shirt. According to her, accidentally. According to me, totally on purpose. I hated her because she knew it was the day Isaac had invited me to play Mario Bros on his newly purchased vintage video game console after school. I never forgave her for that. Isaac asked her out the next week.Mind back at the corridor, I rushed my pace and then quickly turned into the lab area. My destination was just a few feet ahead, I knew because I had already come here a couple of times. Or maybe just one. A nauseous feeling washed over me and suddenly the corridor seemed to narrow and lengthen before my eyes. The door appeared to be more and more distant and smaller, and a sensation of vertigo started to take control over my body.The words that I had just read minutes ago wandering again inside my head. Work together. Great collaboration. Oh, God.- Hey Julie! – I thought I heard a voice proceeding from a shadow that passed me by, which almost got me out of my absentmindedness. But I needed to be upset (you may call me masochist if you wish), because I was, I wanted and I deserved to be just mad, because... Argh! So I decided to ignore the voice (made a mental note, though, to apologize to the voice later, I am not that rude), and just continued walking as fast as I could.He had to be there, he got to be in there, as Juanita told me after I probably must have scared the hell out of her. God. I have to apologize to her for that, too. Juanita is so sweet. But now… dammit, dammit!I reached the lab’s door and took a deep breath. In short, it didn't help. At all. Taking a deep breath only made my blood pump faster to my brain and the newly arrived oxygen reactivate the necessary synapses for me to remember, again, everything that had just happened. The information that I had just received, and my brain was still processing and vehemently refusing to accept.I reached the door handle and tried one last time to dialogue with my cerebellum. It replied back with a resonant NO, decidedly crossed arms and tantrumed expression. My frontal lobe sighed in resignation and I finally opened the door. My eyes began looking for him. The countless hours I had invested into my Where's Wally book collection had finally paid off. In less than a millisecond I had already found him. Let's say that it was not such a difficult task, because his head stood out from the rest. That black hair revealed that the object of my deepest hatred was sitting there, with his back turned to me, giving his full attention to an oscilloscope while a beep was heard in the background.My feet began to move on their own and I had not realized how firm my steps were until several heads began turning their eyes towards me and drew expressions of horror on their faces, secretly wishing that a mythical monster just snatched them and eat their full bodies, or that some sort of alien abducted them in its spaceship to perform painful experiments on them. Because they knew that would be way less painful than being in that room at that exact moment. With him and me. Together.Like I said, all eyes were on me except his. Because his head never turned. He remained impassive, paying full attention to whatever the hell he was doing. Then I heard his voice, low and thick.- Hello, sunshine. What a pleasant surprise to see you down here. – He let out sarcastically, not even turning to look at me, but making it clear that he already knew that I was the one standing behind him. I felt how a thousand grunts stuck in my lungs, fighting to come out at the same time.- What the hell were you thinking?! – I let out with the voice that I thought no longer existed five minutes ago. My throat was totally closed and dry.- Huh. Bold question, Pinky. But, since you're asking... I WAS thinking that this circuit here is simply beautiful. - He made a painful pause. - Modesty aside, of course. But now, with you here, and panting, I AM thinking it would be considerate from me to tell you it is not adviseable to run on the labs.Ignore. - Why… did you do it?A frustrated sigh left his lungs. - More specific, Pinky. Why did I do what? As gifted as I am, I don't read minds yet. -- I. Am. Not. Working. With you.His back stiffened for a bit, then relaxed again. - Oh. That.- If you think that I am going to share some sort of space and time with you, you are very mistaken.- Well. You'll have to get used to it, Pinky. - I hated when he called me like that. I always had, ever since we entered college. According to what I have been told (oh, yeah, sweet mother of gossip, this is on you ), everything started one day that I got so much sun that my cheeks blushed for several days. And he found it hilarious. Fact is, it's something I can't help. My cheeks blushed for any reason. At that very moment, they must have been blushed with rage. And I am sure that he knew how much I hated that nickname. I hated blushing all the time, and I also hated that he called me that way. - Because now we have a long semester ahead of us -.I groaned so loudly that I could see someone recoiling at the back of the lab.- I don't know what your plans are with all… this. But that project is mine... - I may have abused a little bit of hand gestures on this one.- And you need me in it...- Of course not! Who do you think you are?- Your ass-saver.- No, you are not! I can work on that project perfectly without you.- No. You can't, and you know that. I can be of great help. You need me.His calmness drove me out of my wits. While I knew he was indeed the best in his field, I didn't have to admit it, at least not to his face. My dislike for him only grew more.- No, I don't! Did you hit hard on your head? May I remind you whose project is this? Who submitted the application and presented it to an entire committee, who was pleasantly surprised by the way?He turned in his swivel chair and faced me for the first time. His olive-colored eyes looked at me seriously, although they seemed to be having a little bit of fun. I was so angry, damn it! He leaned back in his chair and crossed his arms.- Calm down, Pinky, I'm not going to take credit for your work, if that's what's bothering you. This project is yours and you will continue to appear as the main researcher and I, I am going to help you so that your project is not a complete disaster.What the? Argh! My teeth clenched as I suppressed the urge to punch his perfectly structured nose. Shoving away his smug comment as fast as I could, I sighed in an attempt to gather myself. I got this. My narrowed eyes a painful death sentence, my gutural voice a confirmation to it.- Withdraw. Your application. Today.- Impossible.- Excuse me?- Two reasons. First one, I do not withdraw applications from projects. Everyone knows that’s a reputation killer. Never done that, never will. And second, it's a good project, Pinky, and I enjoy a challenge. You should already know that by now. – His last sentence wrapped in a brow lift. My patience was already hanging by a thread at that moment. That he liked challenges, I was already very well aware of, unfortunately. And I hated to know he was speaking true about his help. But still…- I don’t care about any of that. You ask out.- Uhm… nope. – He said as he wrinkled his nose and shook his head. My hands suddenly tingled, feeling the urge to strangle him, but I didn't want to wake up the next morning in jail when I had a damn project to work on. With him.- Then I'll ask out for you. - No, I would never do that to anyone, not even him, but I needed to scare the hell out of him somehow. Or at least I could try.- Really? Peters? – He said arching his eyebrows. Then clicked his tongue and shook his head in disapproval.Fuck. I hated to admit it, but he was right. If there was one thing that Professor Peters did not tolerate, it was students whining saying that they could not work together and asking for a different teammate. It had already happened to Susie last year when she had lazy Tom on her team. The professor argued that she should be able to work under any circumstances and that there was no other option but to deal with the flaws and virtues of her current teammates. True, but…- Very well then… - I said, staring at him, narrowing my eyes and pointing the index finger of my right hand at him. – You leave me no choice. You asked for it, Anderson. Get ready for the worst six months of your life. I’ll squeeze the brains out of you to the very last drop of it. If you think I will make life easy for you, you are so, very mistaken.I saw him hold back a laughter, as he dedicated me a condescending, deep look that caused me hateful thoughts and shivers at equal parts. Oh, I wanted to punch that perfectly symmetric face of him so so badly. He got up and leaned on the table, standing, facing me with his full six feet three. The distance between us reduced to just a couple of feet.- I wouldn't expect any less from you, Pinky.I pursed my lips and cursed to myself. Having done that, I turned in my heels and walked at giant steps towards the lab's exit.- Oh, and Pinky… - Stupid thick, baritone voice. I stopped just before stepping out and faced him over my shoulder. – About the draft... - Yeah, the stupid draft that professor Peters mentioned at the end of his bad-news-conveying e-mail and that he wanted to receive from us by the end of the week. - See you today at 6 in the library. Be on time. I don’t like to wait.I gripped the door handle, wishing it was a teene tiny version of his neck, and left without saying a word, breathing heavily and totally and utterly irritated.I left the lab, almost bumping a few shoulders on my way. I had to get out of there, I had to get some air. All the air on the planet maybe. Liam Anderson was my biggest nightmare. My biggest headache. The thought of having to spend the next six months of my life looking at his face every single day, or well, almost every single day, made me nauseous in ways I couldn't describe. His arrogance was unbearable. Ok, he was the best in robotics, but that didn't give him the right to stick his nose into other people's projects and…my phone bipped. Message. I came to a halt. It was from an unknown number. “Be on time, Pinky. This is my number. Save it.” What the...? How? Where did he get my…? Is he already bossing me around?“Who is this?” Yeah, I could play him. I don’t owe him any kindness and definitely not making his life any easier, he didn’t deserve any of it."Is there anyone else calling you Pinky and I didn’t know? My feelings are hurt here.”“Spare me… next time, e-mail me. No text
It was three in the afternoon, and I was waiting for Jeremy at the coffee shop. I needed to talk to him about the not-so-pleasant news. The truth was that when I developed the project idea, I had thought of him to help me with the robotics part of it. That’s why I asked him to submit his application, and he happily said he would. I saw him as he arrived with his usual, wide-open smile. Jeremy had dark brown hair and rather kind blue eyes, full of thick, thick lashes. I remember that we became friends in sophomore year, when we shared a class together. Since then, we had become great friends. Jeremy was every girl's dream. Intelligent, great sense of humor, very polite and handsome. We confided to each other all our adventures and tragedies in love. Just like Susie, he was also my confidant. They were both my best friends, and I suspected that they secretly liked each other, but they didn't want to admit it openly. - Hello, handsome. - Hi, Jules! - I hope you don’t mind… here. – I s
It was Wednesday evening, and my head was just fully engaged in the project. It had been five days since the first meeting with Liam and the draft that we created that day had already guaranteed at least a couple of super busy weeks on my schedule. No complaints. Please don’t get me wrong. I actually enjoyed it. A lot. Fact is I just couldn't deny that working in the peace and quiet of my apartment was sort of a godsend to me. The last three days had been rainy and even though this could have been distressful for someone who commuted using a bicycle or her own pair of feet, the corny side of me always appreciated the water pouring down the windows. Those little drumming droplets brought calmness and ease of spirit, and at the same time all sorts of inner inspiration. If all this was supplemented by a decent amount of caffeine and short breaks every once in a while, they helped me reach acceptable-to-good levels of brain performance. I looked at my desktop clock and realized that it w
I felt my body collapse. Vital signs such as breathing, blinking, thinking, froze for what I assumed were a few milliseconds. My lungs released all the air stocked in them, and they only recovered after my oxygen supplies dropped to precarious levels. Immediately after, I felt my heart pumping blood again, slowly yet determinedly. I could feel it moving through my veins and arteries, leaving tickling traces all the way through, and making all its way up to my face until it reached my cheeks. Oh yeah. My cheeks, ladies and gentlemen, were giving themselves quite a feast up there.- Look who I found on my way here... – Susie's eyes were still holding that look, brows lifting carefully, shy smile popping out. It was the kind of look she gave me last year after she unintendedly ate the entire box of Ferrero’s Jeremy had given me for Christmas.- Hey Julie, how are you doing? – Said Roger with a huge smile spread on his lips. He was a gentle guy and I never quite really understood why he wa
My phone rang, and I thanked to whichever laws of probability were favoring me at that precise moment.I took my phone from my purse and I saw Jeremy's name flashing on the screen. With all eyes on me, I excused myself and kindly asked Susie to let me pass through so I could take the call.- Jer…- Jules, please tell me you still have Swanson's book with you. The one you borrowed from the library, remember? – I could hear him typing on the keyboard.- Yes, I still have it. You need it? - I told him as I entered a vestibule with huge mirrors on the wall, a colorful four seats sofa and two doors on opposite sides, indicating the entrance to the toilets.- No, I just need... to know what it says, verbatim, one paragraph at page... forty-nine. I need to confirm something that I had written here. I'm not sure I took the correct notes.- Oh… I'm not at home now.- Oh.- Can I call you when I’m back home? A couple of hours maybe? - It’s alright. I’ll find my way, or we can check it later or
I left the vestibule with my mind totally adrift. Ignoring the remains of the tingling in my fingers, I continued walking through the tables. My eyes flew back to the large windows facing the street and I saw some people running, opening their umbrellas, or finding some shelter under the restaurant’s awning. The rain had ceased for a couple of hours but there it was again, unpredictable, just the way the whole evening had been. As I got closer to our table, I realized that Roger had moved to our couch and was sitting next to Susie, laughing at something on his cellphone. I hesitated for a second but then turned myself towards the empty couch.- Oh, sorry, Julie... – He said, standing up.- Hey, no. Please, stay there. I’ll sit here. – I said while sliding through the empty couch.- Are you sure?- Yes, of course.He nodded and sat back. - Liam just went to the… you know. – Roger pointed his index finger in the direction of the toilets to explain why his friend wasn't sitting at the ta
A small ray of sunlight made its way through the window and landed on my face. The warmth caused by it made me open my eyes, which I immediately closed again when it felt like the strike of a thousand knives. Argh. My head. It was throbbing. One stab, followed by a second one, and then a stronger one that lasted for a couple of seconds. Momentarily paralyzed by the hammering pain, I took my fingertips to my temples and massaged them in an attempt to relieve them. When I was finally done, my hand flew to the nightstand looking for my cell phone. I had a meeting with my counselor in the morning, so I needed to check what time it was. My fingers touched nothing but an empty surface, so I gave up and brought them back to my face, where they began massaging my eyes this time, encouraging them to wake up. Determined to find a clock or something, I raised my trunk and propped my elbows on the bed with my eyes narrowed yet wide enough to give me a reliable glimpse of the clock in the kitchen
It had almost been two weeks after the Margarita's episode. Since then, I had been unwaveringly working, day after day, in Peter’s project, reading materials and book chapters specialized in the subject. I had also met with Hilda twice and made some progress on the computing project as well. I had attended a few classes at the university, done sporadic visits to the library to check out or take a few books home, and made some space as well to have ridiculously brief yet invigorating coffee sessions with Susie or Jeremy, separately of course, to catch up on our lives. And I had dedicated the rest of the time to writing project reports, watching fifteen minutes of rom-coms or sit-coms at night, tidying my apartment up, and well yes, basic and necessary survival endeavours such as sleeping, bathing and eating froot loops. Susie still couldn't get over Jeremy seeing her totally plastered in tequila, and even though I swore to her that he would never dare to judge her (or anyone, but actua