I was introduced into this world on the eve of my mother's death. Through the many stories of my father, I learned what I could about the woman I loved but would never know. She was called Sakura after the season of the cherry blossoms. She was a petite, delicate woman of pale skin. In her joy and happiness, she would turn the gentle pink of the flowers of the season. My father was named Homura after the blaze one would see during his anger if it ever showed.
They fell in love when they met during the labor of the wheat fields. My father says the male and females worked the opposite sides of the field. When he saw her for the first time, he says he knew from a fire in his belly that this woman would someday be his bride. According to him my mother did not feel the same immediately but through his gifts she was warmed to his proposal. As they worked in those fields of wheat not a word could be said but many of the workers sang songs upon the breeze as a way to pass the time. Materials used were left in the field at the end of each day's work. So, my father would arrive to the fields early each day to leave a gift with her tools, whether it be a treat, a book, or a gem. With every gift that he left he would leave a sweet cherry blossom from the season with it. The first day he watched her as she picked up the parchment wrapped object that said her name. She looked around the fields to see who had left such a gift and when she met his eyes he waved. When she opened his gift, it brought a beautiful pink glow to the skin on her cheeks. It was a simple parchment that contained a short story of love in their native tongue. When she finished reading it, she raised her head and returned his wave. Then they continued working. He watched her each day as she received her gifts with a wave and eventually her blushes transformed to smiles. As a young man of twenty he did not have much patience. He begins with the parchment and the first flower on the first eve of Hanami when the cherry blossoms graced the world with their blooming presence. On the final when the season was at its end and the blossoms no longer kiss the sky but now kissed the dirt. He left her a gift like none other he had given before and with it he left a question. After weeks of leaving different parchments and desserts that he watched her enjoy. He decided he wanted her to have no one other than himself. This was always his favorite part of the story to tell. He watched her standing there and waited for the smile that would usually grace her face as she opened the present. Instead, he saw that pale pink glow fade from her face and saw her hands move out of sight. He bowed his head at what he thought of as her rejection and as he began to turn away, he heard the most beautiful sound. His head snapped up at the sound of twinkling bells ringing in joyous harmony upon the breeze. As he looked at the woman, he wanted for his bride she raised her hand in the air to show she now wore his ring. From across the field through the breeze that brought the sweet smell of the fleeting nature of life she spoke the first words ever said between them. "Shi de" (Yes) That day my parents gathered their payments from working in the fields of wheat and began to make the long journey to what would be my birthplace in Kyoto, Japan. After the journey of days and nights they fell in love with the temple Kiyomizu-Dera that was surrounded by the trees that birthed the blossoms which had come to mean so much. It was at the site of that three-story Buddhist temple that my father Homura learned of the blossom in the womb of Sakura. They found work in the paddy fields that lay in the distance of the temple as they awaited the birth of me. They were married in those fields by a priest who often visited. During their work they talked and shared the stories of old from when they were young. It was here in those patty fields they bonded between being two lost souls in the world with no other living family. The two became their own family as they waited for their new addition. The day of my birth was the eve before Hanami of the next year. The bulbs of the cherry blossoms again graced the trees but had yet to greet the world. My mother lay in a cave that opened to a view of the paddy fields in which they often worked. When she discovered that I would soon greet the day she made it to the cave calling for my father to follow. He braced her against a boulder that adorned the wall of the cave and held her hand as he spoke of her strength and his love. He held her as she pushed and gave her great comfort from the pain. As part of a distraction during a beat in time she told my father that should it be a boy they would name him Kaito after the ocean where they once lived. If it were a girl, her name would be Io after the Indian Ocean. After a few more pushes I met my parents for the first time in a screaming fury of a cry. My father says I was as red as a flame with hair as dark as night like my mother. They felt extreme joy in the moment and kissed as thanks to each other for the family they thought they would not have again. My father decided they should return to their hut, so he left my mother for a few moments to get help to get her home. He had no idea that when he returned, he would never see that beautiful pink glow of a cherry blossom grace my mother's face again. He did not know that he would not again hear the tinkling laughter of bells. He did not know that he was coming back to the cave to get his wife, but it would be for burial. His sorrow was so great that he could never tell the story of what he discovered when he got back to the cave or the journey of leaving it. The only memory he shared was that upon walking to the hut as he carried me, he saw the blooms of Hanami begin to open as a final goodbye from Sakura. And so, with the end of the love of his life he was given a token to show how that love would never end. It was a love that he hopes someday I will experience for myself.I have experienced a lot in the twenty-five years I have had on this earth. Everyone knows the day I was born. They know where I lived and what I looked like. My adoptive parents were visited for years so others could ask questions about me. Everyone in the world was curious about the baby girl who hatched out of an egg filmed live to the world. People knew my name but because most didn't talk to me directly, I was alone.On the night I was born the world was in a state of shock when so many children hatched from eggs all across the world. We were all different shapes and sizes. What made us stand out from the rest were the unique features that we had. For some of us it was the startling beauty of our eyes. For others was their size or abilities that could be seen right away. The thing that made me stand out was my hair. It was a deep coal black with unnatural red streaks.A week before my sixth birthday my whole life changed. The home of my adoptive parents caught fire. Somehow I was
As I come out of my memories from the past I find that I am still confused. I have more than paid my dues for the death of the boy that I love. The day I visited his mother at their estate I can still hardly remember after all this time. I remember telling her about the child as I fought the waves that had surrounded me in a deafening wave. The rest of that night as well as many nights are a blur to me now. "What am I supposed to do Draco? I do not know what your mother wants from me. I just want to rest and for this torment to end. I am so tired" I plead in the night to the statue of the boy I love. When I awoke the next morning after visiting his mother, I was in the middle of no where far from home. I laid naked in a field in extreme pain and disoriented. When I rose to stand I put my hands on my stomach only to find it flat. I cried as I realized that somehow I had lost my child. I wanted to return home, but I had no direction to where my home was. I remember walking for day
Ahead on the slowly inclining slope we here a voice raised in the air. As we take a pause listening the night goes quiet. The guards signal us with a raised fist in the air to hold our positions. After a few seconds, their hands lower and we take a few steps. "Somebody please. Somebody please help me. Oh god, please. Please help me" Someone screams. The old man must know the scream because once he hears it he begins to run up the slope faster than I have seen someone his age move. The guards quickly rush after him with Santo-San behind him as they go. As we hear the cave I can hear a girl crying and as we reach the caves entrance a horrible scream pierces the air. With the guards at the ready in front of us there is a pause at the entrance of the cave in the dim light. To my left a lantern barely flickers. As I approach the men in front of me to see what has them so captured. I see the girl holding something. As I my eye adjust from the moonlight to the dim light of the cave I r
The day four weeks ago still stays on repeat in my head. I have sat in his room since surrounded by all his things. In the evenings I sit in the sitting room and replay our conversations by the fire. I have cried at the pain I feel all this time. My boy is gone, and I have no one to blame for him leaving but myself. I have not spoken to anyone since that day. I live in the memories of my son. That day when Draco pushed me away after he found out the truth I had remained seated in my pride. I was hurt that he would speak to me, the woman who birthed him, in such a way. Normally, when he is hurt he runs to his tree to have some time to himself. I thought that he would go there to think and to get over what he had heard. As his ma I should have known that this time would be different. I had dismissed my lady maid as soon as Draco left the room so I could have time to think to myself. For a few moments I felt guilty at what I had done. That feeling was however fleeting and I soon ro
I have so many things running through my mind at the moment that I do not know how to feel. My world was rocked on its axis when I found out about his engagement. Now he has told me that the entire time he has been fighting against it, but his mother had her own agenda. For the moment, my anger breaks, and tears spring to my eyes. What could I have done to deserve such a fate? Why did it take him so long to come to me? I cant voice any of these questions as deep sobs are being wrenched from my throat at the pain I feel. I thought I had lost him. I never knew that something in this world could cause me so much pain. I feel Draco wrap his arms around me as I cry. Seeking comfort to my chaotic emotions I turn into his arms. I use him as my piece of solace as I try to let go of the pain. We sit down as he hums our song trying to soothe me further. Soon my tears dry up and all I sense is quiet. My heart is no longer kissing in my chest. For days I felt like my world was ending. I had
So many things in life can just never go the way that you want them to. It does not matter if you have been good person or how hard you tried. So many calls the events of life that happen with no regard fate. Well, if this is fate then I do not want any part of it. I want nothing more than to go against fate and go after what I want. I just do not have what it takes to hurt people. All I want in this life is love and even that has been denied to me. As I lay on my kang and ponder the way the world revolves I am filled with a sad melancholy of what has become my life. Today is my wedding day. I always imagined that on this day I would be filled with excitement to be pledging my life to another for eternity. It is sad to say but in this moment, I feel nothing. For the last view days, I have found that I am unable to dredge up any emotion. I am just being the good boy who listens and follows directions. Without her this is what my life has become. She left without a word. Just one sm