Luscio Costello my father once told me that I am mean when speaking. That I was not the child he used to comfort every night whenever I come out from my room, screaming and crying because I miss my parents. I become short-tempered, uninhibited, and straightforward. I think the reason why I become like that was because I learned that there was no need for me to show respect to my enemies and I couldn't trust anyone aside from the Costellos so it's better to treat them in the same way. My enemies done shameful things and yet they don't feel bad about it. While strangers and people I am just acquainted with are unpredictable. They are allowed to do things that they wanted, we are not in control of how they think and how they choose to treat us. Life forces people to act in a certain way to protect themselves, a defense mechanism to feel safe. This is what happening to me. The downfall I experienced, the tragedy I witnessed, and the trauma that still keep on haunting my sleep forces me
I was drag back to my reverie when the cold wind blows that seep through the bare skin of my shoulder and legs. I shiver a little because of it that made me hug myself. I bit my lower lip and look at my phone. I need to talk Enzo. I took a deep breath and dial Enzo's digit which he immediately answer in just one ring, as expected. "Hera," My gaze become dead with emotion. I am not Selena Asli Castania right now so I don't need to fake an emotion. "I need you to do something for me" I said in a flat tone. Enzo Stefano. He came from the Stefano Syndicate one of the trusted ally of Costello. He becomes my right hand the moment I become a Costello. I can say that in every mission that I did, he is my support system. He become my shadow, the one who protect me from behind. He is my comrade, a loyal and trusted comrade. I know that he will never betrayed me. "I'm all ears" he immediately response. I start to walk back in forth in a slow pace while watching the every step I take.
His warmth spread to my body and for some reason the tension inside me slowly subside. All I could feel is his arms wrap around me giving me a delusion that I am his damsel in distress and he is ready to save me from everyone.I squeeze my eye shut fisting my hands. I inhaled his manly scent and the lingering trace of aftershave that I find alluring. My mind is not working but on the back of it, I know what to do. I know what I must do and that is to push him away from me, keep the distance between us, not to get swayed with his strange behavior. But why can't I move my feet nor my hands? His hug is different. It stronger, tighter, and warmer than those I experience before. It feels so different, it's unfamiliar yet I am liking the feeling of it. What is happening to me?How come this man possess this kind of hug? He is Sain Czar Ildefonso. He is my enemy...I silently gritted my teeth and swallow the lump lodge in my throat while grasping the fabric of my dress tightly as if I'm as
"Selena, darling we need to talk"The first thing that came out from Sain's mouth as soon as the car halted in front of the main door of the mansion. His voice is calm yet lace of demanding tone as if he doesn't want me to say no and he's not giving me a choice to reject him either.But I didn't listen to him instead I open the door beside me. "I'm tired. I'm going inside" I said in a flat tone before getting off the car.I can't be Selena all the time. I should know how to be Herravie in some situation to make him realize that I am not one of those women who's willing to submit to him. It doesn't mean that I'm the one who insist this marriage then he can just treat me as if I'm some kind of a puppet who will do everything that he wanted and not allowed to complain although I feel bad about what he say and do.He manage to sway my emotion a while ago and I won't let that happen again. I don't know how does his embrace differ to the point that I get lost with it. I don't know how does
My defenses crumble one after another just like how a rocky ice melt under the heat from the sun. His lips is warm and soft against mine too much from my expectation. He is unexpectedly gentle, the way he moves his lips feels like I am some kind of a delicate glass that he needs to hold carefully or else I breakdown into pieces. The tender pleasure is too good to be true and it feels like this is my first time. I have been kissed before, not just once but countless of times but this is the first time I felt something like this. An emotion I couldn't name, a tingling sensation that makes me crave for more, ask for more because I want more of him. Oh no... This is not good, this is getting dangerous.I was about to push him away from me but Sain pulled away and took away his mouth from me which is surprisingly sweet and addictive. I breath heavily while looking at him with my slightly parted lips. I am still taken aback with his sudden kiss and my grip on the fabric of my clothes tight
What is happening? Why does it feels that the contract between us was the biggest mistake I ever did in my life? I feel manipulated. I feel controlled. I can't protest because I agree to it. Was this his plan? I look at Sain Czar Ildefonso. Is this his plan? His words 'I mean it the way it sound' suddenly become suspicious. Was I got fooled? "Mia Signora, are you alright?" I look at Pierro who seems notice the sudden change of my emotion despite the dimly lighted kitchen. He has a sharp eyes. I force a smile. "I am..." I lied. I'm not freaking fine. I wanted to kill someone right now, someone who worth the blood on my hands. "Don't look at her Gustave" Sain hissed dragging me back to my senses. "Shit" Pierro whisper and immediately look away while scratching the back of his head. "Don't get it wrong. I didn't look at her" he explain, sound a bit defensive and at the same time nervous. "I saw you dimwit" Sain growl lowly and hid me behind his back covering me with his tall
"Disturbing me at this hour, Licciardi?"There is a hint of restrain annoyance that can be heard in Sain Czar's voice. It's too visible to the point that he can't no longer hide it from Nicolai."This is urgent" Pierro interject.I could feel the sudden cold and menacing air that filled the whole room. The atmosphere changes and that gives me a goosebumps but I keep my eyes close pretending to be asleep but my ears are attentive to every words they say even to their every move. If I am not mistaken, Pierro and Nicolai is facing on my direction while Sain Czar's back is facing me. That is just how I picture out their seating arrangement base on the direction and sound of their voices. Sain is much more closer to me that's why I could clearly heard him even if he is whispering. While the two is sitting a little farther. "To the point you barge in my room while I am with my wife" Sain stated in a controlled tone."We didn't mean to disturb your peaceful sleep with your wife , but this
I woke up groaning because of the warmth that seeping on the bare skin of my face coming from the morning sun ray that had enter our room. My eyes automatically search the wall clock and found out that it is already seven o'clock in the morning. I shifted my gaze on the space beside me and I end up frowning when I didn't saw Sain. I roam my eyes around and try to listen if there is someone inside the shower but then the room is filled with deafening silent. I'm the only one here..."Did he woke up already?" I ask myself and slowly sit on the bed. I massage my head slightly when I felt a throbbing veins. My head is aching perhaps it was because I had a trouble sleeping because of Sain. I didn't have a peaceful and undisturbed night because I was bothered with everything that I heard. Sain's arm that wrap on my waist the whole night added a weight to my thoughts. I know it maybe lame for some but that kind of gesture from him bothers me. I felt like I only have a few hours of sleep.I