I didn't feel like going to school.
Not after what I felt when I kissed Aiden's neck. It wasn't just an attraction-it was something deeper. Sharper. A hunger I'd never known before. If I hadn't stopped myself, I would've gone further. And it wouldn't have just been about a kiss. It would've been about blood. The thought unsettled me. Not because I was afraid of what I could've done, but because a part of me wanted to. I stayed in bed, staring at the ceiling, trying to breathe through it. Trying to feel normal. But normal was slipping. Whatever was changing in me, it wasn't slowing down. And Aiden was a huge part of it. I finally threw the blanket off and swung my legs over the side of the bed. The apartment was cold and quiet-it always was. I went into the bathroom, splashed cold water on my face, and stared at myself in the mirror. My pupils looked wrong-too wide. My skin wasn't the normal pale, it looked sickly. There was a tension curled inside me that I couldn't shake. I stepped out of my room and followed the faint sound of a page turning. Mom was in the kitchen, perched at the counter with a book in one hand and a glass in the other. Thick, dark liquid swirled lazily inside. Her eyes lifted when she heard me. "Morning," she said, though morning didn't mean much to us. I nodded and moved to the fridge. The cold air hit my face as I scanned the shelves-just blood bags, stacked neatly. "I haven't done a grocery run for you yet, hon," she added without looking up. I closed the fridge with a soft click. My stomach tightened, not from craving pancakes or juice this time. She looked up, her gaze sharp. "You don't look good, Noah." Before I could brush it off, she stood and crossed the room, gently tilting my chin up with her fingers. Her eyes scanned my face, slow and knowing. "You need to feed," she said quietly. "And I don't mean pasta or Coke. I mean really feed." I pulled away, just enough to break the contact. "I'm fine. I got until eighteen anyway." "You're not. Your eyes are dull, and your pulse is off. I can hear it from here." "I said I'm fine." Her look deepened. "You've been holding back. I told you, when the urges start, you need to tell me." I looked away. Aiden's face flashed in my mind. The pulse in his neck. The heat under my lips. "You've never fed, Noah. Not even a drop. That's not strength, that's dangerous." She held my shoulders with both hands. "You turn eighteen in three months; animal blood will hold you until then; it's better than starving yourself." I crossed my arms. "I'm not drinking from some deer in the woods." "Then what? Starve until the transition? Wait until the thirst breaks you?" Her voice wasn't angry, just tired. "That's not how this works. You don't get to choose not to be what you are." "I've made it this far." She shook her head slowly. "Barely. And now it's starting to show." I didn't reply. I couldn't. Because she was right. I could feel it every time I got close to Aiden-and I wasn't sure how much longer I could resist it. I headed for the door, and Mom didn't stop me. She just sighed and went back to her book. The moment I stepped outside, the air was crisp, brushing against my skin like a quiet warning. The streets were quiet. I took the long route toward nowhere, hands in my pockets, eyes scanning the empty sidewalk. I didn't know where I was going-but I just walked. Eventually, I came across a small coffee shop tucked between a dusty bookstore and a tattoo parlor. A chalkboard sign out front read something cheesy about espresso and second chances. I paused. It wasn't blood, but it was something. The bell over the door gave a soft chime as I stepped in. Warmth wrapped around me instantly-coffee, sugar, and the faintest trace of human pulse. Not loud enough to be dangerous. And immediately, I felt him before I saw him. My gaze followed the pull of instinct. He sat near the window, a black hat casting a shadow over his face. It was The Regent. "New school, and already skipping," he said, voice calm but amused. I didn't answer. "Isn't it a little early to be tired of high school?" he added. "Especially for a vampire who's going to repeat it more times than they can count." My eyes widened-he'd said it loud enough for others to hear. He caught my reaction and scoffed lightly. "Relax. Everyone here is one of us. You'd know that if you were fully transitioned." I let out a quiet breath and slid into the seat across from him. "Is this your place?" I asked, glancing around the cozy shop. He nodded. "Yeah. Vampires only really drink three things, blood, alcohol, and coffee. I figured I'd give them a place to enjoy at least one of those in peace. And talk." We both chuckled at that, in easy sync. Then he removed his hat, his tone shifting. "That hunger you're feeling? The obsession? It's normal before your first feed," he said, eyes steady. "But dangerous. Especially when it's directed at a human." I wasn't even surprised that he could read me so easily. After all, he was Sebastian's father. He stood, slipping his hat back on with practiced ease. "Come with me," he requested in a calm voice. "I'll show you something." I hesitated, just for a second, then followed. We stepped out together and strolled till we were off the main path that even led there. We reached a narrow trail cutting behind the buildings-quiet, tucked away, and shadowed by tall trees. That's when he turned to me, a crooked smile playing on his lips. "We race from here." I barely had time to process the words before he took off, vanishing in a blur of motion. For a second, I just stood there, stunned by the sheer speed of him. Then instinct kicked in. I ran. The trees whipped past as I pushed myself harder, faster than I'd ever moved before-faster than any one human could. My feet barely touched the ground. The wind tore at me. Still, I couldn't see him. He was far ahead. It didn't feel like just a race. It felt like a reminder of how new I was, how weak I still was as a vampire. When I finally caught up, he was already waiting-leaning against a tree like he hadn't even broken a sweat. "Not bad," he remarked. I tried not to show how breathless I was. "You put all the young ones through this?" He grinned. "Only the promising ones." "Is this another way to the House of Silence?" I examined. We were deep in the woods now, surrounded by nothing but bushes and towering trees. He stopped walking. "It's not," he replied. "You need something first. This is the best spot to find rabbits and deer." I stared at him, not sure I liked where it was going. "You brought me out here to hunt?" His expression softened, but his voice stayed firm. "You don't have to like where it's going. But if you don't settle yourself with blood soon, you could lose control." I swallowed hard. "Isn't there another way?" A rustle in the bush made me flinch. He turned toward it, eyes narrowing. "Let your instincts kick in. Trust me, once it starts, your body will know what to do," he said, stepping back to let me stand on my own. "Go on. Close your eyes. Listen," he coaxed. I did. For the first time, I heard the forest in layers-the heartbeat of a deer, the rustle of something small, life pulsing all around me. My breath hitched. Something in me shifted. The hunt had begun.By morning I could still smell it-the blood, the forest, the heat of the chase. I hadn't left the woods until late last night. The moment I started, I couldn't stop. The first bite was clumsy and hesitant. The deer had thrashed under me, wild and terrified until my grip tightened, instinct surging. It was like falling into the water. Warm. Deep. Endless. The taste overwhelmed me-rich and electric. Every nerve lit up like it had been asleep until that moment. I didn't remember letting go. I just remembered standing over their bodies, shaking, blood on my lips. I sucked two whole deer dry. I thought I'd feel disgusted. Guilty. But I didn't. What I felt was... alive. More than that-powerful. Like my bones had finally remembered what they were made for. What terrified me most was knowing that it was nothing compared to human blood. And that scared me more than anything. Because if animal blood could do this, what would human blood feel like? What would Aiden
I didn't feel like going to school. Not after what I felt when I kissed Aiden's neck. It wasn't just an attraction-it was something deeper. Sharper. A hunger I'd never known before. If I hadn't stopped myself, I would've gone further. And it wouldn't have just been about a kiss. It would've been about blood. The thought unsettled me. Not because I was afraid of what I could've done, but because a part of me wanted to. I stayed in bed, staring at the ceiling, trying to breathe through it. Trying to feel normal. But normal was slipping. Whatever was changing in me, it wasn't slowing down. And Aiden was a huge part of it. I finally threw the blanket off and swung my legs over the side of the bed. The apartment was cold and quiet-it always was. I went into the bathroom, splashed cold water on my face, and stared at myself in the mirror. My pupils looked wrong-too wide. My skin wasn't the normal pale, it looked sickly. There was a tension curled inside me that I couldn't
The hours after a party you've thrown are always the worst. The music was gone, the lights off, and all left were empty cups scattered on the counters. The smell of spilled alcohol lingered in the air. Pieces of conversations and laughter still clinging to the walls. A few stragglers stumbled towards the door-barefoot, missing jackets, half-drunk goodbyes. I stepped out into the backyard, scanning the shadows to see if anyone was still lingering. The grass was damp with dew, and the silence after the party felt almost too quiet. Footsteps crunched softly beside me-measured, familiar. Sebastian. "You scared me, man," I said, giving him a light push on the arm, more instinct than thought. "I figured you left. After Noah." He didn't smile. Just looked out across the empty yard, jaw tense. "Yeah. I came back to get my phone," he said. "But then I saw you come out here looking like someone dropped your soul on the floor." I let out a quiet laugh, though it didn't quite r
Sebastian parked at the edge of the drive.Inside, the place was even bigger. High ceilings, clean floors, warm lights. Too many people, but it worked.“You good?” he asked.I nodded. “Yeah. Just… wow.”He smiled. “It’s a big place, yeah?”I noticed some familiar faces I’d seen from classes.A couple of students nodded at Sebastian. One of them raised a red cup and called out, “Glad you made it, man!”They looked me over with curious, amused expressions. I heard one whisper to the other.Sebastian’s fast…. He’s gotten the new girl.”“I won’t lie. She’s hot…” the other replied.I bit back a smile. Typical. Sebastian caught my expression and rolled his eyes with a scoff.“They’re not lying though,” he muttered, then nudged me gently with his elbow. “Stay here. I’m gonna grab you something to drink.”Before I could protest, he was already slipping into the crowd, weaving between people with practiced ease.Left alone, I exhaled, trying not to look as out of place as I felt.The room puls
After a few classes, lunch finally came, and I still hadn’t seen Sebastian.The cafeteria buzzed with low chatter and the clatter of trays, but I moved through it like a ghost. I wasn’t hungry.I spotted an empty table near the window and sat alone, pulling out a book I had no intention of reading. I could feel eyes on me and hear whispers just low enough to ignore.Then, I felt it—a shift in the air.Someone sat down across from me.I looked up.Sebastian.He set his tray down across from me, moving with that same smooth, confident ease, as if the noise and chaos of the lunchroom didn’t touch him.“You don’t mind, do you?” he asked, already sitting.I shook my head. “No. It’s fine.”He didn’t bother with the food. Just sat there, watching me with that unreadable expression he always wore.“I didn’t see you in the last class,” I said, trying to sound casual.He smirked.Skipped it. Too many windows. Too much sun.”Of course. Vampire problems.He studied me for a moment, head tilted sl
I couldn’t stop thinking about what Sebastian said on our ride back home after the greeting had ended.Not the part about blood—that was expected. I’d grown up knowing it was coming.It was the way he said it. Like he’d already seen what came after and knew I wouldn’t be the same.I hadn’t lived through anything wild yet—not like the turned ones, who had no choice but to feed within hours of being made or die.For them, the thirst came like fire—sudden, violent, impossible to ignore.But for us, the born ones, it was quieter. Slower. A hunger that waited beneath the surface, patient and polite… until it wasn’t.I used to think that made us better. More civilized.Now, I wasn’t so sure.Sebastian told me he would be there for me when the time came.He said it casually like it was nothing. But something in his voice made it feel like a promise.I barely knew him. And yet, in a way I couldn’t explain, I trusted him more than I should have.Maybe it was the honesty in his eyes. Or maybe i