CHAPTER 19 SaudadeSaudade- the feeling of longing for something or someone who you love which is lostOrigin: Portuguese19NICK'S POVEIGHT YEARS AGO"Is this how you do it?" I asked.Catherine looks over at me while I was chopping the spices she needs for the spicy spaghetti she's teaching me. She laughs and stands behind my back as she pressed her front on me."Love, that's too small..." she giggles."Is it?" I pulled my head up to her."But don't worry. It'll work out just fine later I guess." She leans over and kissed my cheeks while her blond hair falls to my left shoulder.I smile at her.She keeps kissing my cheek while her arms were holding around my chest. Her breasts pressed against my back. Catherine was teaching me how to cook and even though I hate cooking, she forced me to and since I love her so much, I allowed myself to learn. At least if we'll go to college, I'm ready to make meals for her if she comes home late.Catherine walks back to the burner with the chopping
CHAPTER 20 AistraAistraTranslation: infatuationOrigin: Lithuanian20SAVANNAH'S POVI missed my first class today but it was alright because it was worth it anyways and I'm still not over the fact that I just allowed myself to let Nick have sex with me as much as he and I wants to. My brother will kill me if he'll know about this and I'm doing it with a frat guy. I haven't seen Nick around the campus too after he dropped me and Tracy off the dorm a while ago.My mind was floating the whole day. I was thinking about Nick and when we will be finally doing it. I was physically present in my classes but I was mentally absent because I'm imagining Nick and how kissed me that night. I could still feel his lips and I always smile at myself when I remember how it tasted. He was such a great kisser.I walked out of my class and I was thankful that the day was over. I'm tired and I haven't had enough sleep because we left too early a while ago. The only problem I have right now is I need to
CHAPTER 21 NuminousNuminous- awed yet attracted; the powerful personal feeling of being overwhelmed and inspiredOrigin: Latin21It was already midnight, almost one in the morning and I think Tracy is still at the frat party. She hasn't come back yet and I won't be worried because I'm sure Nick is there with her. While as for myself, I'm busy reading this book and I'm already half way through after Nick borrowed it a while ago. The only light in my room was coming from the lampshade on my study table and this novel assigned to me is actually pretty good, despite the old English words used on this but it's amazing. I wish I could become one of New York's bestselling authors someday. All of a sudden my phone lights up right next to me and I quickly grabbed it.A message from an unregistered number: Where are you?Who's this? I replied.Nick.My heart raced and hands went cold as ice in a nanosecond. It's Nick.How did you get my number? -SavannahRobert. -NickRobert?? Who is Robert?
CHAPTER 22 ZugzwangZugzwang- a situation where every possible move or decision is a bad one; one that will result in a damage or lossOrigin: German22He licks his lips."Kiss me Nick." It's a plea.Nick quickly crashes onto my lips without hesitations, invading all of my mouth and starts kissing me. I'm lost every time he kisses me. I'm lost every time he touches my body. I lose the ability to control my body when he takes over me. My limbs weaken when he brushes his hands on me. My hands now busy unbuttoning his pants and our kiss becomes more deeper.Hard."Hmm, pepperoni." He teased.I smiled at him before he kissed me back. He is smiling too, I feel his smile in between our kiss. He slowly pulls my shirt off from my head and slips my shorts together with my underwear off my legs. He unclasps my bra right away and he's such an expert to that. It's was even less than a second."Wow." He complimented while his eyes were busy looking at my breasts after he took off my bra. He grop
CHAPTER 23 Idée Fixe Idée Fixe- an idea that dominates one's mind especially for a prolonged period; obsessionOrigin: French23"Please tell me you'll come?"Here comes Tracy again, begging me to go along with her and her friends. I love Tracy but I don't love... I don't like, at least, most of her friends. It's a mutual feeling though and whenever Penny is around, all she'll ever do is to retaliate me. She gets to my nerve like I how I get into hers. She hates the way I dress. She hates every thing I do. She hates me being around the same place that she's around. She hates me. She loathes my entire being.Penny is just so hateful. And I'm sure as hell that she's just jealous of me because I am way better than her. She looks like a prostitute with those kind of clothes on her. And I look like the kind of woman that men respects more.And if it's not only Tracy's birthday this Saturday I wouldn't wanna go. But since she's turning twenty and I'm her roommate, and she begs a lot then
CHAPTER 24 SehnsuchtSehnsucht- a painful desire for something or for someone particularly if there's no hope to attain the desire or when its attainment is uncertain; wistful longingOrigin: German24It was still drizzling outside but not as heavy as a while ago and it was right on time when Nick and Alec were done eating dinner. I was just quiet the entire time when the two of them were eating and Aries were talking to them too, joining Nick and Alec's conversation. They were talking about the foods that Tracy likes and the things they need to prepare for her. Nick's hand has finally left my thigh and I was just finishing on my glass of water."We better go before the rain pours hard down again." Alec says.The four of us starts standing up, Nick stands while finishing his glass of orange juice as I stood right next to him."I'll just drive Savannah back to her dorm then I'll catch up with you guys on buying the foods for Saturday and--" Aries said."I'll drive her." Nick cut him
CHAPTER 25 Koi No YokanKoi No Yokan- the sense one can have upon first meeting another person that the two of them are going to fall in love: refers to the knowledge that a future love is inevitable; Premonition Of LoveOrigin: Japanese25"Be careful when you're with him...""Be careful when you're with him...""Be careful when you're with him...."Why?Why would I be careful when I'm with him? Why should I be careful around Nick? What's with Nick that I need to be careful for? He seems nice sometimes, sweet and thoughtful though he's lacking of kindness, sympathy and sensitivity.My professor complimented me about my research. He said he was impressed by my work and I even went well on my oral exam too. I answered great. I was so glad about the result. The book? It was already passed on time. I owe Nick big time for his huge help. Well, I went gift shopping all by myself because it would be awkward having two frat guys with me. Following me around and I'm sure as hell Nick and Ari
CHAPTER 26 AppetencyAppetency- a strong desireOrigin: English26I stared at myself in front of the mirror wearing this white bikini with this red cover up. Tracy barged into the bathroom all of a sudden and I quickly covered my body with the cover up. She stares at me on the mirror and starts smiling."I have a big stomach from that cheesecake and a few barbecues." I joked.Tracy laughs, "Are you kidding me? Look at mine as well."She starts walking towards where I was standing and stands behind me. Tracy starts untanglng my braided hair. "Let your hair down. It'll make those boys drool. Well, except for my baby Clyde."I smiled.She puts some parts of my wavy hair over my chest and pulls me facing towards her."Penny is wearing this ugly bikini so strut your ass. Don't cover it." She tries to open the cover up and I let her see."Gosh Savannah your boobs are big! I mean it shows over your blouses but when it's bare like this, it's... Wow."I blushed. "Okay. Okay. Don't go lesbo o