Chapter Nineteen - A Little Promise

Life...

Is so full of fucken surprises.

I found myself sitting in my bed and staring blankly at the wall in front of me. I felt so empty, so numb and lost.

My ears suddenly felt so hot and my whole body felt ice cold. I had no fucken idea what was happening to me but it made me sick... it made me feel nauseous.. like I was going to vomit all the food I had last night.

So he was dead...

Dead..!

I knew I always used to say he can go die for all I cared... but now that he was dead I felt odd.. I felt...nothing.

I thought if something like this was to happen while I was still breathing maybe I'd feel okay, maybe I'd feel glad and be happy that a person who's caused me so much pain finally doesnt exist anymore. I thought I'd be okay with it and finally breathe now that he was no more. But the more my mom's words sank in was the more I got confused... It was the more I remembered one little birdy that was going to suffer from all this.

My sister... her father was dead... I knew how s