Kabanata 67

Indie Emerson

I used to have a dull life, tranquility was so hard to achieve because of the gloomy past and voices of the demons in my head. Insecurities, overthinking, low self-image; all of it ruined everything. I should not be easily readable, I don't want people to know how vulnerable and weak I am.

When the girl that I love, Ingrid, died everything was messed up. Harsh words here and there. Unfair treatment. They were like a jumble of problems that never vanished, it'd stay in your mind forever.

And getting married was the least thing I want to do after what happened to Shane and I, and let me include Diesel, para akong nakulong sa pag-iisip na lahat ng lalaki ay gano'n din ang gagawin sa akin, that they would take advantage of me because I'm like this and I don't deserve to be treated well. And I deserve the bare minimum.

Life with the Emerson family was something I didn't expect, because I'm pretty confident about experiencing a happy life until my last breath, not like th