Deep breath. In, and out.
I looked at myself in the mirror in my bedroom, trying to figure out if I looked good or like a child playing dress up.
My dad had bought me a special dress for today, a soft white one that stopped above my knees. I had on a pair of white sandals and had even painted my toenails a soft pink color. My white blonde hair was smooth and brushed, over and over again out of pure nervousness. I had put on a small amount of makeup, a little mascara around my light green eyes and some lip gloss. But I didn’t have much to put on in the first place, so this was as good as it was getting.
“Here goes nothing.” I mutter to myself, turning away from the mirror finally to grab my duffle bag off my bed and head out.
My heart was in my throat as I made my way down the hallway for maybe the last time. I glanced at the pictures on the walls, swallowing the lump in my throat at the pictures with my mom in them.
She looked so young, happy, and healthy.
Not like she was now.
“Hey, kiddo.” My dad is waiting for me at the end of the hallway, in the living room. He stands up from the couch and grabs my bag from my hand. “You look real nice.” He says, his voice sounding sad as he looks me up and down.
“Thanks dad.” I say, returning his mood with a shaky smile of my own. My eyes darted over him, trying to soak in every detail. I knew I would be conjuring up images of him and my home when I was struggling in a few weeks.
“Now remember, if this doesn’t work out, you can always come right back home.” He says firmly, putting a hand on my shoulder and squeezing.
“I know dad.” I gave him a real smile this time, because I knew he wasn’t lying. I was lucky to have such loving parents, even if I’d only had both of them for some of my life.
“Come on. I heard a car pull up outside a few minutes ago. They’re probably waiting on you.” I nod and let him wrap his arm around my shoulder to lead me outside. I knew this was killing him, I could feel it in the tight way he held me; like he didn’t want to let me leave. I’m sure this whole thing was a giant hit on his pride as a man and a dad.
But we also both knew we didn’t have much of an option at this point.
“Angel Hawthorne?” Sure enough, there’s a black SUV with a man in a suit standing outside of it waiting on me.
I nod, turning to give my dad a hug and take my bag from him.
“Be good, be smart.” He whispers in my ear before letting go. I nod and turn to leave.
The man in the suit opens the backseat door for me and I nod gratefully, tossing my bag in first and sliding in after it. I look at my dad out the window as the man climbs in the driver's seat and starts the car up.
I wave at him as we drive away, hoping to the gods this was the right decision.
Two years ago my mother was diagnosed with a disease known as Moon Sickness. It’s very rare and we know little about it, as there are only around a hundred reported cases.
We have no idea how you get it, what causes it, how to cure it. It strips you of your wolf and leaves the shell behind empty and useless, barely even alive.
Doctors have been stumped for months, only just keeping her alive. Last month, a woman approached me while I was working at my part time job.
She said her name was Leslie Anders and she was with a very powerful group of people who may have an in on how to cure this thing. She said it’d cost money, but she had a way I could get it.
By going on a dating show.
At first I thought she’d been joking. How was that going to help my situation? I’d asked. Then she explained, the winning couple of the show gets a five hundred thousand dollar prize, and with even just half of that, I could pay to get my mother into the trials for this new treatment.
I’d asked of course, why approach me? I’m no one. My family makes just enough money to have what we need and a few things we want here and there. We have no power, no status, no connections.
She explained she was one of the producers for the show and that viewers were complaining about the lack of varied classes in the contestants, making complaints against the line up being filled with only important, rich names.
To appease the audience, every year they’d make sure to pick a male and a female from the lower class. But the last couple years they haven’t had many worthy candidates because there was a trend of the lower class couple never even making it past the first round. If you knew you weren't even going to make it past the first round, why would you even bother entering?
She explained she’d been visiting someone at the hospital my mother was being cared for in and had seen me. She asked about me and got my information from one of the nurses. She was basically saying she liked the way I looked, and thought I’d be the perfect pretty, poor girl for her show. For a while it had just irritated me. She didn’t even know me, what right did she have to be snooping around in my life?
But in the end I’d caved, and here I was, being driven to the set where the show would be filmed this year.
Apparently it was in some grand lake house a few hours away. I’d been emailed some pictures and it had made my dad choke on his coffee when he’d seen it. Multiple stories, tons of windows and balconies, sitting on a hill with a giant lake behind it. It was surrounded by giant pine trees, seemingly isolated in its elegance.
I leaned my head against the window as we drove, closing my eyes. I hadn’t been able to sleep last night and it was catching up to me.
When I woke up, I’d be in the belly of the beast.
That was torture. Pure and utter torture. Having to watch Angel flirt and blink those big pretty eyes up at another man made me want to rage out and tear that asshole's throat out. Every laugh he got out of her because of another dumbass joke made me tremble with anger. Every charming smile, every flirty comment he made at her made me hate him more and more. Couldn’t he see she didn’t really like him? Her smile was fake, forced for the cameras probably. When he’d scoot his hand that was resting on the picnic blanket closer to hers, she would move away. The way she was acting, the way she was smiling, it was nothing like she’d been doing when she was with me.That thought was basically the only thing keeping me from totally crashing out at this point. Still. I wanted to be the one taking her on a picnic, making her laugh and sitting leg to leg with her. I know I just met the girl, but something about her was making me very protective of her, and I was having a hard time fighting it
“So, what did you think of Quinton? We all know you two have already gotten to know each other a little, but come on, spill! How was your date?” I smile tightly at the camera aimed right at me, doing my best not to fidget with my hands in my lap. The lights shining on me were bright and actually kind of hot. They were making the back of my neck bead with sweat the longer I had to sit under them.“Well I like Quinton just fine. He’s very nice.” “Could you see yourself falling in love with him?” I blink a little at the question Laura hurled at me next. Who thought about that kind of thing after one date? Definitely not me. I wanted to wrinkle my nose and ask her if she was insane, but I reminded myself of where I was and what I was doing. I am on a dating show, I’m supposed to be enjoying these dates, I’m supposed to be excited about the chance to fall in love. Or at least, I’m supposed to pretend that way, for the sake of the show.“Well, I think it’s still a little too soon to start
“Okay, so you guys are going to sit down there, have your date. I want lots of smiles, lots of laughs, yeah?” Quinton and I both nod along with Laura as she instructs us on what to do for our date. We’d driven about an hour out to go to a different forest, one with “better” looking trees, Laura had informed us. The entire drive over Laura was telling us what kinds of things we should talk about if things got quiet, how we shouldn’t kiss on this date in front of the cameras even if we really, really, wanted to. I wonder if that has been a problem so far, because she mentioned it like five times.We’d walked through said trees and to a cliffside. The crew hovering around had gotten to work right away on laying out a blanket and a picnic on it. It looked very nice, very romantic. There was a wooden board with cheese and sliced meats on it, crackers and fruits. There were smaller plates with small sandwiches on them, and thing glasses with bubbling liquid in them. If someone was going to
The next couple of days trickle by without incident. Emily gets through her dates, and now we’ve moved onto Violet. The others hung out quite a bit, went on some hikes, cooked out, sat around the lake, things like that. At first I tried to join in with them, but I always found myself feeling a bit left out. I’d gone with them the day after we’d played games outside. We’d all gone on a hike once we were all awake. But as we started making our way up the trail that winds through the trees, I found myself hanging back behind everyone as they all paired off.Victor seemed to be ignoring me, he hadn't looked at me once since August had walked in on us. I don’t know why exactly he was angry, but figured he’d tell me about it at some point. He paired off with Violet, and they walked side by side almost the whole time. They seemed to get along quite well. They were all smiles as they talked, and he didn’t look at me once.Quinton and Jason had gotten wrapped up in talking about all the dif
“No! You didn’t say Uno!” I jump up out of my seat, a grin on my face as I point my finger at Victor. “What?! I did too!” He insisted, grinning and shaking his head. “I didn’t hear it.” Jason shrugs, giving a lazy smile as he fans himself with his cards.“Oh come on.” Victor groans, burying his face in his hands, but even as he does so, he’s smiling. We’d ended up sitting on the back patio all night playing games. We’d even grilled, made hamburgers and hotdogs. We’d been sipping on these super tasty lemonade drinks that had alcohol in them. I was four deep, and maybe feeling a little fuzzy because of them. I’d never actually drank before. Hell, I’d never had a night like this before at all. It had been a bit awkward at first, especially with the obvious tension between Quinton and Victor, but eventually that had faded and we’d all just started laughing and having fun together. I never thought I would be in a situation like this, getting to hang out with people my own age and have
Even after Angel was gone, my nose was still filled with her scent. Vanilla, fresh baked cookies, sunshine. It was like it had soaked into my pores throughout our day together, making it impossible to get her off my mind.I had parked the car us workers used when we needed to drive a cast member somewhere and was making my way back up to the secondary house where the on-site staff lived. There were only ten of us, sharing five rooms, two people in each one. We didn’t interact much outside of work, mostly all just tucked away in our beds and texted with family or scrolled through social media. Everyone except me was here for one reason: the paycheck. Being a worker on this show may be slightly degrading, but everyone here was very well compensated for their time. I actually had to pay off another worker for my spot here in the end, otherwise I wouldn’t have been able to get in undercover, that was how good the check was. I wasn’t sure why it was so high, maybe it was difficult to get