Chapter 19

Lucan’s POV

Inside, I'm raging.

It is a good thing that my wolf is not talking to me. If we were still talking terms, he would have rubbed this in my face. He would have told me how weak I am.

My mother has just humiliated me in front of the most powerful alpha in the territory. She has brought unnecessary insults to me. How do I even go about this? I feel so confused! I feel so empty! I feel so weak! I feel like I am not worthy enough! What will I do? If my wolf was here, he would have told me what to do. Now I am lost. Ashamed of myself. I feel weak.. Alfonso has insulted me. He did not even flinch when he called my mother a whore. He has insulted me and my entire bloodline and I really want to kill him. But can I show it? I can't show it. I do not want him to take my anger the wrong way.

There are a lot of things I would lose if I lose my temper. I can't let Alfonso see how much this affects me. I am afraid that he will deal with me. Another thing is that I don’t want to give him that satisfaction of seeing me and Annoy.

"I apologize for my mother's behavior," I say, controlling all the emotions I can feel inside of me. "She is acting this way because of my stepfather’s death. It is getting to her”

Alfonso's eyes find mine, and I see amusement in them. "She wouldn’t be grieving if you didn’t kill him,” he seems to laugh at me. Mock my words and mannerisms

What he says catches me off guard. I want to deny it,, but the truth is written all over my face. It was like denying it when everybody knew.

“She was messing around when your ‘stepfather’ was alive too, right?

It takes all the willpower in me to prevent my fist from clenching hard so that he can see that I am angry. He is so proud and arrogant. He does not even consider other people’s feelings. Because he knows he is untouchable. Because he knows that he can’t take me down without trying, he is just spewing nonsense. One day I will defeat this idiot. That is the Promise I am looking to myself.

I really want to punch him in his face and put him in his place, but I know that would not be possible because of how strong he is compared to me. Now he is prying too much. But the worst part is that I have to answer every one of his questions because he is the great alpha king.

“She's always been... affectionate," I stutter slightly .

"Affectionate." Alfonso laughs like he has just found a new source of amusement."Are you blind or what, Lucan? Your mother is a desperate whore and you are calling it affection? You need to call her to order so she can stop disgracing you in front of your visitors.”

I feel so insulted, but I act as if everything is well. I force myself to nod. This is so humiliating. I have to ask every time like I agree with him. "Maybe you're right,” I say almost crunching my teeth

"I know I'm right." Fucking bastard! Look at the way he leans back in his chair. On his face is a satisfied smile. Such a proud bastard. He seems to be enjoying my mystery and it looks like he would not stop any of his weird questions now. "With everything happening. You cannot control your mother? What is an alpha if you cannot control these people? Apparently, my question is, what are you going to do about it?"

I don't answer immediately. What can I say? I have always known my mother to be how she is. I don’t know what to call her, but she needs help. I have always known her to throw herself at every powerful male who crosses our path. This behavior of hers has always brought shame to me for as long as I can remember. Even when my real father was alive, she did not spare him. Only that he was smart and he caught her every time . Sometimes I wonder if he died thinking of her in another man’s hands

"My mom does not affect this pack. I will make sure that my pack upholds her dignity,” I cannot help but feel like I am answering interview questions

"But her actions are affecting the pack already. She just came onto me from nowhere like a stray. That is not a good look for you. Is that how she behaves to other people that come here? She is practically uncontrollable," Alfonso's smile is taunting. I feel like he is choosing his words specifically towards me. I feel like he is bullying me. I feel like I am back to sixth grade when I had one particular boy who was older and stronger than me bully me constantly.

It all started after my mother tried to seduce my teacher so that I could get good grades and get a scholarship. The boy was not the only one who bullied me, a whole lot of people bullied me but his own was just very bad. I couldn’t do anything that time and I had sworn that nobody would ever bully me when I grew up. How time flies and now I feel like my younger self from sixth grade. I cannot even stand up to this man

"Because from what I can see it looks like this pack is led by a two time bastard who killed his father to take over the park and whose mother is a whore. That is a bad image,” he says again

I feel angry. His words I’m making me to almost lose my temper. But I cannot lose my temper with the alpha king.

"I understand your concerns," I say through gritted teeth. I pray to the woman goddess that I do not do anything foolish right now. "But I assure you, the pack is in capable hands."

"Well I don’t think so" Alfonso leans forward again, "Because I'm starting to wonder if this debt is ever going to be repaid. Your father, or your stepfather was very competent and it took him six years to pay half of the debt. The remaining half of the debt on your head. I wonder if you’re competent enough to pay me. You know the time frame for you to pay me is expiring. You have just three months left”

True. I don’t know how I am going to pay this debt that Holland had incurred before his passing. Maybe I should have made him pay the debt before I killed him. Now I have to do something. This is it. This is the moment I never saw coming. I have to ask him for a favor so that I can save my skin. I have to humble myself before this man who has just insulted my entire family- just because of debt Holland incurred and three months is such a short time to repay this debt. I might lose my pack if I don’t act fast

"I have a proposal," I say, hating myself. "I think it is the more reasonable way to go about things“

Alfonso's eyebrows rise slightly. "You want a favour?”

“Yes, I nod”

“I am listening."