RILEYHe has a fierce grip around my waist. Like he is scared that he could look and not find me here anymore. So he is holding me firm, so that I cannot run away.Does he not know that the things he had just revealed to me had hurt my heart and had given my mind a stronger will to be that one person that will be there for him?I want to always hold him.I want to give him peace.I want to be the arms he will return t after a hectic day as King.Can I be his everything?I am being unnecessary?He had said it himself that once he saw me, I became the highlight of his days, and he became my shadow.I have a lot of questions in my mind, hovering about that revelation.Like, why hadnt he let himself known to me? Maybe if I had found him too earlier, a lot of changes would have happened in our lives.He had been my shadow? Was he the presence I always felt around, and the eyes I always felt watching me?Okay, that should be quite creepy.Then why is my heart, earnestly wishing that it was
RYANShe had kissed me.She is still kissing me.I am torturing myself.My Lycan is so very ready to chew my head off.She is in my arms, and she seems eager. Though I am not sure she knows what is running through my mind, by her actions.I should pull her closer to me. We are already in my room. I should take her to my bed. Have her in my arms, and maybe mark her.But I can’t. I just cannot. I can’t bear to deceive her. And me not telling her about a lot of things she ought to know about, to me is a deceit.But, as much as I will never really admit it, I am scared.I had hesitated in telling her just one thing and she had run.And I have spent days without having her close. Heavens.It has been a torture.One even worse than that which that man used to put me through.These few days without her has thought me a few things. One of which is that, it is better to never have, than to have and to loss. I had survived days without going to see her when she was still in that pack, though
RILEYI am still frozen.I had expected him to come get me from Stefani’s room sooner than he planned. I had thought he would be pissed that I am attending this meeting and, maybe tell Carl to come get me.Not for once, in my wildest imagination did I think he would come all the way here. By himself.The meeting is being held at the right row in the hall, and I have my back facing the wall. His voice had come from my right, and I am yet to turn to look at his face, but I would know this voice anywhere.And before I can gather courage to turn and look at that face I have spent sleepless nights thinking about, every other person begins to react.Clara jumps to her feet, the jolt of her body almost making her breast spill from her low-cut blue dress. And as if put on a sheep following their shepherd mode, the other ladies in the hall, jump to their feet, and turn to face me.“Oh my goodness. My King, to what do we own such surprising visit?”Silence.“Beta Philemon.” Brown eyed blonde’s
RILEY“I don’t know how I feel about this.” I complain.“why?” Stefani asks without even looking at me.“My lady do you feel sick?”Martha asks, throwing all concern into that question.“I feel like we might get into trouble.” I explain.I do not know how Stefani had talked me ino dressing up in my simplest gown and pulled me to the entrance of the hall, which all three of us are standing in front of now.She had suggested we come for the maiden’s meeting.I had forgotten that Stefani liked adventures. She likes to push buttons to know what will happen if she does this, and what could occur if she does that.My brain, heart and mind had screamed ‘no’ when she had mentioned coming here, yesterday.I am yet to recover from the pained look Ryan never stopped sending my way when I didn’t go up to sit beside him on the Council space, and I don’t know, but I feel like this move of mine would annoy him the more.Stefani had somehow read my mind on the reason for my refusal.Then she asked me
RYANSometimes, I wish I could do more.Not just me, but everyone that had grown with this childish dream of being a super person with super powers.Being a Lycan comes with being endowed with various enhancement of my senses. I can hear what is said from a mile away. And that is why I can hear every word coming out of my girl’s mouth. How sassy she had sounded when she spoke to Clara.My smelling ability is next to none. And that is why I caught the whiff of her scent once she stepped into this space. My sight is excellent, even in the dark. That is the exact reason why I was able to see her in the midst of this multitude. She shines, even in the crowd.My taste is quite selective, and that is why since it been long I held her and kissed her, every food coming into my mouth, tastes nothing but bland.My touch, her touch. Her in my arms, sizzling connection.But I want more.I want to be able to connect thoughts with her.That should be happening by now, if only I had made her total
RILEY It has been, two days and two nights since I spoke to Ryan. Two days and two nights of staying indoors with Stefani. Two days and two nights since I carried this guilt of talking to him like that. I could read his face. The expression of hurt on his face still hunts me. He looked like he wanted to tell me everything, but there was something in it that was so embarrassing to spill. It had hurt me that he feels he could be embarrassed with me. Well, that had just been a mere hurt, till I coiled back in here with my bundle, and Stefani had looked at me with that stern mother hen look of hers, then asked me; “If the tables were turned, would you do same for him?” It had shocked me about how intuitive she can be, because even till now, I haven’t told her a thing about what is going on between myself and Ryan, so how can she just analyze everything and give me such feedback. But she wasn’t wrong though. If the tables were turned… like had it been Ryan hasn’t been a pryi