LOGINJULIAN
I sat on the edge of the mattress in my flat, the adrenaline from the locker room had finally leveled out, leaving a cold, clean focus in my chest.
Rowan was a joke. The town’s hockey god, the pristine captain, was nothing but a submissive whore for the younger brother of the guy he had put in a cell. The way his body had given up, the way he had arched his hips into my hand while I squeezed his neck—it was pathetic.
Physical violence wasn't going to be enough to break him. If I just beat him to a bloody pulp, he’d look like a martyr to the scouts. To destroy a god, you had to make him ruin himself. You had to drag his dirty secrets into the light.
I pulled out my phone and unlocked it. I bypassed my primary contact list and opened the burner app.
Maya Ashcroft.
I pulled up her public university profile. She handled the student-athlete compliance tutoring logs at the athletic center, and her schedule was right there. Tuesday nights. Late shift at the campus library.
I typed out a quick, direct message to her account:
“Hey Maya, I’m Julian, the new transfer recruit on the hockey team. Coach Ted said you handle the athletic logs for English credits. I need to get my compliance hours sorted this week. Are you at the library tonight?”
I hit send. Five minutes passed before the screen lit up.
“Hi Julian! Yes, I’m working the desk until 9:00 PM. I have a private study room booked in the back stacks for athlete hours. Come on by.”
I tossed the phone onto the bed and stood up. The trap was set.
The next morning, the temperature inside the rink was freezing. Rowan arrived fifteen minutes late. He didn't say a word to Fred or Jamal, keeping his head down as he pulled his shoulder pads over his ears. He was pale, the skin under his eyes dark and bruised from a complete lack of sleep. His hands shook as he laced his skates.
I stood right across from him, buckling my helmet, letting my eyes burn into the top of his head until he finally looked up. When his bloodshot eyes met my mismatched ones, a visible tremor ran through his jaw.
"Line up on the blue line!" Coach Ted’s voice echoed off the plexiglass.
"Full-contact transition drills. Move!"
We skated out onto the ice. Rowan took his position at center for the scrimmage, his breathing already heavy. I skated up directly beside him, our shoulders slamming together as we waited for the coach to drop the puck.
"You look like hell, Captain, rough night?" I muttered, keeping my eyes fixed straight ahead on the referee.
"Shut your mouth, Julian," Rowan hissed, his knuckles turning white around his stick.
"I don't blame you," I said, letting out a low chuckle. "I wouldn't sleep either. Maya and I have an appointment tonight at the library. She was real eager to help me get my compliance hours sorted. She’s got a sweet voice, Rowan. Sounds just like you when you’re whimpering."
Rowan’s head snapped toward me, his face twisting into an expression of pure, unhinged rage. His chest heaved against his jersey.
"If you go near her, I swear to God—"
"What?" I interrupted, turning my head to look at him dead in the face.
"You'll do what? Cry? Get hard against my leg again? You don't dictate a damn thing anymore, Captain. I do."
The whistle blew. Rowan completely blew his assignment. Instead of chasing the puck, he lunged violently toward me, but I anticipated the move, easily spinning out of his reach. He stumbled blindly, crashing into the boards. Coach Ted blew his whistle again, a sharp, angry blast.
"Ashcroft! What the hell was that?!" the coach screamed from the bench. "Keep your head in the game or give me the jersey!"
Rowan didn't look at the coach. He just stood against the boards, his breathing ragged, his wild eyes tracking me as I skated back to the blue line with a lazy smirk.
By 8:30 PM, the campus library was completely dead. I walked inside, my soft-soled shoes making no sound on the carpeted floor. I found Maya at the front desk, looking exactly like her pictures—dark hair, soft eyes, entirely untouched by the rot her brother kept hidden.
"Julian?" she asked, her eyes widening slightly as she took in my height, my mismatched eyes, and the tattoos peeking out from my hoodie.
"In the flesh, Am I early?" I said, putting on a harmless, charming smile.
"No, perfect timing," she said, stepping out from behind the desk.
"The back study rooms are totally empty. Follow me." I walked behind her through the long rows of bookshelves, my eyes locked onto the back of her neck. We entered a small, isolated room with a glass wall and a heavy wooden table. She sat down, opening her logbook.
"So, what exactly do you need help with?" she asked. I sat down across from her, leaning back and crossing my legs. I didn't open a book.
"You look a lot like your brother, Maya."She froze, a small frown wrinkling her forehead.
"You know Rowan?"
"We're teammates," I replied smoothly. "Same locker room. He talks about you a lot. He's very protective of you."
"Yeah, he is," she said, a soft smile breaking across her face.
"Ever since we were younger, he thinks he has to carry the whole world. He's a good guy. The best." A bitter laugh nearly bubbled up my throat, but I kept my face perfectly composed.
"Sometimes people aren't who they pretend to be, Maya. Even the people we think we know best."
Before she could answer, the heavy glass door was violently rattled.
SLAM.
The door flew open, hitting the wall with a loud thud. Rowan stood in the doorway, his chest heaving, his face flushed red . He was still in his athletic sweatpants, a dark jacket thrown hastily over his shoulders. His eyes were wide, bloodshot, and feral.
JULIANMy teeth chattered against the freezing air of the arena, my feet tapping out a fast, erratic beat against the hard rubber mats while my eyes kept jumping back to the bright blue screen in Rowan’s hand.Shit.I was so fucking hyperaware of the way his pale face went completely dead blue right in front of my eyes, the color draining out of his split lips until he looked like a frozen corpse standing on the edge of the rink.He didn't move. He didn't even fucking breathe.My pulse was hammering like a jackhammer against my ribs, my whole frame thrumming with that dark, toxic high from earlier, the sore ache in my thighs and the throbbing burn at the base of my spine reminding me of every single second I had spent pinned down under Gideon’s heavy weight.I wanted Rowan to see it. I wanted him to smell the heavy cologne clinging to the threads of this stolen Western State hoodie and lose his fucking mind.I stepped straight over the wooden bench, crowding into his personal space un
JULIANMy teeth chattered against the cold tile of the bathroom floor, my feet tapping out a fast, erratic beat while my eyes kept jumping back to the clock on the nightstand.Shit…I was so fucking hyperaware of Gideon’s heavy gaze burning straight through my spine from the bed.I was stuck pulling my clothes back on in his suite while he laid there like he fucking owned the air in the room, watching every single sore, shuddering movement I made.My head was an absolute wreck…I hadn't fucked him.I didn't let him cross that final line, no matter how much his fingers had dug into my hips or how heavy his weight had pressed me into the mattress.He was sexy as hell and he knew it, carrying that raw, dangerous edge that made my pulse spike every time he leaned in close.I liked the thrill of it… I liked the slick taste of his mouth and the way his hands made my skin burn, but we hadn't fucked.Rowan didn't need to know that, though.Out of pure, poisonous spite, I was going to let Rowan
ROWAN.The glass-shattering crash of my phone exploding against the concrete locker room floor didn't do a single fucking thing to quiet the high, wet whimpers burning straight through my skull.Julian’s desperate gasps were still echoing inside my head... a nauseating loop of pure betrayal that made my stomach heave.I was down on my hands and knees in the cold filth of the skate-sharpening room, my chest expanding like a torn bellows as blood, sweat, and spit dripped off the tip of my nose onto the cement floor.“You’re a complete, unhinged fuck-up, Rowan,” a heavy, disgusted voice barked from the dark doorway.I whipped my head around, my vision swimming in pure, murder-level red as Miller, Miller’s alternate captain, and three senior defensemen stepped over the threshold, their broad shoulders blocking out the dim hallway light.Their faces were locked in absolute, unadulterated venom.“The guy is twenty-one fucking years old!” Miller slammed out, shoving his heavy gloved hands de
JULIAN.Gideon's heavy, callous-rough palm dug straight into the soft flesh above my hipbone, pinning me flush against the hotel suite door.My heart was hammering against my ribs like a trapped bird, the adrenaline from the locker room brawl still making my veins burn with pure, copper-tasting poison."You think this is a fucking game, you oversized golden-boy piece of trash?" I spat, twisting my neck around to glare up into his bruised face.Gideon didn't flinch, nor did his grip loosen for a single second.Instead, a slow, lazy smirk spread across his split lips, his golden-brown eyes heavy, dark, and utterly filthy as he looked down at my mouth."It's not a game, sweetheart," Gideon rasped, his voice dropping into a thick, syrupy register that made the hair on my arms stand up."It's an upgrade," he added, his free hand sliding smoothly down the front of my jeans, hooking two fingers into my belt loops, and yanking me backward into his hard chest.Before I could fire off another b
JULIAN.The heavy iron door of the skate-sharpening room burst wide open with a deafening metallic crash that rattled every pipe along the ceiling.“What the fuck is going on in here?!” a booming voice roared from the hallway.A wave of broad, padded bodies flooded into the narrow space... heavy gloved hands grabbing shoulders and physically tearing Rowan and Gideon apart by brute force.Rowan was snarling like a rabid, cornered dog, a thick smear of crimson dripping from his swollen lip down his throat... his dark eyes fixed dead on me as two senior defensemen pinned his arms behind his back.“What the fuck is wrong with you, Rowan?!” our linesman screamed, shoving Rowan back against the steel locker racks.“You’re beating up our own fucking rookie and their captain after the game?!” the defensemen yelled, holding him down.Rowan didn't have a single real explanation. He just glared through his dark, bloodshot eyes... his chest heaving under his torn shirt... his jaw clenched so vio
JULIAN.Rowan stood over me in the tight, oil-stained skate-sharpening room, his chest heaving under his gray compression shirt... his dark eyes bloodshot, feral, and unhinged.His mouth was smeared red with my blood. My ribs were screaming, throbbing in agony from where his knees had pinned me to the concrete seconds before. But right now, his entire focus wasn't on me... it was locked dead on the heavy, calloused hand wrapped tight around my bare waist.“I said remove your fucking hand from my rookie before I murder you in this room!” Rowan shrieked, his voice cracking with a terrifying, blood-curdling pitch that bounced off the steel equipment racks.The giant Western State captain didn't flinch. His grip only tightened, his thick fingers digging straight into my hip bone, locking me against his side like a shield.Before he could drop a response, the heavy iron door slammed wide open... crashing against the concrete wall with a deafening boom that rattled the fluorescent light tub







