LOGINJULIAN
I sat on the edge of the mattress in my flat, the adrenaline from the locker room had finally leveled out, leaving a cold, clean focus in my chest.
Rowan was a joke. The town’s hockey god, the pristine captain, was nothing but a submissive whore for the younger brother of the guy he had put in a cell. The way his body had given up, the way he had arched his hips into my hand while I squeezed his neck—it was pathetic.
Physical violence wasn't going to be enough to break him. If I just beat him to a bloody pulp, he’d look like a martyr to the scouts. To destroy a god, you had to make him ruin himself. You had to drag his dirty secrets into the light.
I pulled out my phone and unlocked it. I bypassed my primary contact list and opened the burner app.
Maya Ashcroft.
I pulled up her public university profile. She handled the student-athlete compliance tutoring logs at the athletic center, and her schedule was right there. Tuesday nights. Late shift at the campus library.
I typed out a quick, direct message to her account:
“Hey Maya, I’m Julian, the new transfer recruit on the hockey team. Coach Ted said you handle the athletic logs for English credits. I need to get my compliance hours sorted this week. Are you at the library tonight?”
I hit send. Five minutes passed before the screen lit up.
“Hi Julian! Yes, I’m working the desk until 9:00 PM. I have a private study room booked in the back stacks for athlete hours. Come on by.”
I tossed the phone onto the bed and stood up. The trap was set.
The next morning, the temperature inside the rink was freezing. Rowan arrived fifteen minutes late. He didn't say a word to Fred or Jamal, keeping his head down as he pulled his shoulder pads over his ears. He was pale, the skin under his eyes dark and bruised from a complete lack of sleep. His hands shook as he laced his skates.
I stood right across from him, buckling my helmet, letting my eyes burn into the top of his head until he finally looked up. When his bloodshot eyes met my mismatched ones, a visible tremor ran through his jaw.
"Line up on the blue line!" Coach Ted’s voice echoed off the plexiglass.
"Full-contact transition drills. Move!"
We skated out onto the ice. Rowan took his position at center for the scrimmage, his breathing already heavy. I skated up directly beside him, our shoulders slamming together as we waited for the coach to drop the puck.
"You look like hell, Captain, rough night?" I muttered, keeping my eyes fixed straight ahead on the referee.
"Shut your mouth, Julian," Rowan hissed, his knuckles turning white around his stick.
"I don't blame you," I said, letting out a low chuckle. "I wouldn't sleep either. Maya and I have an appointment tonight at the library. She was real eager to help me get my compliance hours sorted. She’s got a sweet voice, Rowan. Sounds just like you when you’re whimpering."
Rowan’s head snapped toward me, his face twisting into an expression of pure, unhinged rage. His chest heaved against his jersey.
"If you go near her, I swear to God—"
"What?" I interrupted, turning my head to look at him dead in the face.
"You'll do what? Cry? Get hard against my leg again? You don't dictate a damn thing anymore, Captain. I do."
The whistle blew. Rowan completely blew his assignment. Instead of chasing the puck, he lunged violently toward me, but I anticipated the move, easily spinning out of his reach. He stumbled blindly, crashing into the boards. Coach Ted blew his whistle again, a sharp, angry blast.
"Ashcroft! What the hell was that?!" the coach screamed from the bench. "Keep your head in the game or give me the jersey!"
Rowan didn't look at the coach. He just stood against the boards, his breathing ragged, his wild eyes tracking me as I skated back to the blue line with a lazy smirk.
By 8:30 PM, the campus library was completely dead. I walked inside, my soft-soled shoes making no sound on the carpeted floor. I found Maya at the front desk, looking exactly like her pictures—dark hair, soft eyes, entirely untouched by the rot her brother kept hidden.
"Julian?" she asked, her eyes widening slightly as she took in my height, my mismatched eyes, and the tattoos peeking out from my hoodie.
"In the flesh, Am I early?" I said, putting on a harmless, charming smile.
"No, perfect timing," she said, stepping out from behind the desk.
"The back study rooms are totally empty. Follow me." I walked behind her through the long rows of bookshelves, my eyes locked onto the back of her neck. We entered a small, isolated room with a glass wall and a heavy wooden table. She sat down, opening her logbook.
"So, what exactly do you need help with?" she asked. I sat down across from her, leaning back and crossing my legs. I didn't open a book.
"You look a lot like your brother, Maya."She froze, a small frown wrinkling her forehead.
"You know Rowan?"
"We're teammates," I replied smoothly. "Same locker room. He talks about you a lot. He's very protective of you."
"Yeah, he is," she said, a soft smile breaking across her face.
"Ever since we were younger, he thinks he has to carry the whole world. He's a good guy. The best." A bitter laugh nearly bubbled up my throat, but I kept my face perfectly composed.
"Sometimes people aren't who they pretend to be, Maya. Even the people we think we know best."
Before she could answer, the heavy glass door was violently rattled.
SLAM.
The door flew open, hitting the wall with a loud thud. Rowan stood in the doorway, his chest heaving, his face flushed red . He was still in his athletic sweatpants, a dark jacket thrown hastily over his shoulders. His eyes were wide, bloodshot, and feral.
ROWAN.Morning hit like an iron pipe across the side of my skull...I woke up with the harsh autumn sunlight blinding me through the unshaded window... every single joint in my body stiff as lead...I tried to roll onto my left side to reach for my phone on the nightstand...The second my torso twisted... a jagged bolt of agony ripped straight through my right groin... The Grade 2 tear didn't just hurt... it locked my entire lower half into a rigid... breathless spasm that left me pinned flat on my back... gasping uselessly at the ceiling...I couldn't move... I couldn't pull the heavy duvet up... I couldn't even swing my legs over the edge of the mattress... My hip was a swollen... inflamed wreck... locked solid from the cold downpour the night before...The bedroom door creaked open...Julian walked in... fully dressed in his black gym gear... a heavy ice wrap slung over his broad shoulder and a legal pad clutched in his hand... He looked infuriatingly sharp... his dark eyes blown w
ROWAN.The hardwood floor was freezing beneath my face... my cheek pressed flat against the damp, muddy boards as the sound of my own ragged breathing echoed off the dark entryway walls...I couldn't move my right leg... Not an inch...The moment I tried to shift my weight to push myself up, a sickening spike of agony tore straight through my groin, locking my entire torso into a rigid, breathless spasm..."Get the fuck off me..." I wheezed out against the floor, my voice weak, gravelly, stripped of every ounce of authority...Julian didn't answer with words... He just reached down, his split, bloody hands hauling me up by the collar of my soaked hoodie... dragging my heavy 210-pound frame across the floorboards toward the master bathroom at the end of the hall... My dead leg dragged uselessly over the runner rug, leaving a trail of filthy rainwater and thick brown mud behind us..."Let go, you crazy bastard!" I snarled, clawing at his wrists with my numb fingers... "I can walk on my
ROWAN.The truck engine cut out... leaving nothing but the deafening roar of rain slamming down against the metal roof...The cab was suffocating... hot... smelling like stale leather, sweat, and copper...I didn't wait for Julian... I grabbed the door handle with both hands, popped the heavy latch, and shoved myself out into the pitch-black downpour...The instant my feet hit the wet driveway, the freezing rain cut through my hoodie like a fucking razor... Cold...violent... relentless...I took one single step forward...My right leg gave out completely...The cold air had locked my torn hip flexor into a stiff, frozen knot... The muscle didn't just give up... it snapped inward like an overstretched rubber band, driving a blinding bolt of raw agony straight through my groin into my spine...My knee buckled...I hit the mud hard... my full 210-pound weight crashing down into the frigid, slick earth... my right thigh slamming straight into the sharp gravel..."Fuck!" I screamed... the
JULIAN.Christian didn't say a fucking word...He just popped the door handle, stepped out into the pouring rain, and shoved his hands deep into his leather coat pockets... heading fast toward his own sports car parked three rows over... He didn't look back at Rowan... He didn't look back at me... He just left... his red taillights flashing once through the downpour before he pulled out of the arena lot and vanished into the dark...I threw my truck into park... left the engine idling loud... and kicked my door wide open into the freezing mud..."Get your fucking ass in the truck, Rowan!" I screamed into the rain...Rowan didn't move an inch... He was standing twenty feet away under the flickering yellow light of the arena overhang... his dark hoodie completely soaked... water running down his pale cheeks in thick, dirty streams...His right hand was clutched tight around the strap of his gym bag... his knuckles white... his jaw locked so hard the muscles in his neck were shaking...He
JULIANThe engine of my truck was idle, the heavy V8 thrumming through the floorboards while rain hammered the windshield in massive, sheets. The parking lot at the back of the arena was dead. Pitch black except for the dull orange glow of the streetlamp overhead.Christian sat in the passenger seat, his leather jacket unzipped, his chest moving in fast, quiet breaths. The air inside the cab smelled like stale rain, faint copper, expensive cologne, and dark, heavy heat.Christian went down and didn't come up for air.He got my jeans shoved down past my hips and dragged my dick with one hand and had his mouth on me before I'd finished breathing out. No teasing, no buildup—just wet heat closing over the head of my cock and his tongue working the underside in fast, sloppy strokes, and my whole body jolted like I'd grabbed a live wire.His spit was everywhere already. He was messy with it, sloppy, letting it run down over his knuckles and drip onto my thigh, and every time he pulled up he
JULIAN.My chest felt like a fucking engine burning pure gasoline with zero oil, metal grinding against metal until the whole machine was ready to blow.My head slammed hard to the left—a fast, ugly jerk tearing at the tendons in my neck as Coach Ted’s office door swung open, the heavy brass knob smashing into the drywall.I walked out first into the long, dark rubber tunnel leading back to the varsity locker room. My split, taped knuckles were throbbing in time with the violent, sickening pulse behind my eyes. Blood was stiff, black, and dried under my fingernails—his blood, my blood, smeared all over the chest of my dirty white away jersey like a fresh kill.I should have felt like a god. I had just taken the only early-entry NHL draft spot in the entire fucking program. I had just put my heavy boot straight on the neck of the varsity captain and stripped his whole life down to a mandatory two-month benching.He called you a disease. He called you pathetic. He told you he didn't nee







