Funeral processions had gone by quickly since she was still quite young. Very few people came by as she didn’t have a lot of friends or family.
I couldn’t stay in the house after what I had seen and Becka’s parents had gladly housed me even though I had woken them up every night since that day.I’d made them promise not to tell Becka. I just couldn’t bring myself to tell any other person who hadn’t seen it happen.“Say hi to Becka for me and tell her to call home often. We haven’t seen her or heard from her in a while.”
David, Becka’s dad, hugged me as they called passengers for boarding.
I nodded at him and smiled at her mum. They waved me bye as I went towards the boarding area. I didn’t look back because I knew the emotions I’d read in their eyes and I didn’t want to see them.Despite their tasking jobs, they’d driven me up to the airport and waited till I got called in. I would forever be grateful for them.I took a deep breath As I boarded the plane, wondering how long it’d take me to return back home. If I ever would.
*
I crashed on the bed immediately we’d finished the tour and I had made it back to my room. I’d been given a room on campus and we were just 2 staying there.
I looked up from the bed and tried to look around the room, my boxes still intact and untouched.My roommate hadn’t come in yet so I was the only one there.I stood up despite feeling tired and opened my box. In 2 hours, I’d arranged my stuff on my side of the room. The walls were bare and I had no plans to redecorate. My clothes went to the small sized wardrobe, as many as it could fit.
I picked up my phone and called Becka to tell her I’d arrived. When she didn’t pick up, I slumped back on the bed, my hands stretched over my eyes. In no time, I was asleep.
The door unlocking jolted me out of my sleep. It was already day and I’d managed to sleep the entire night off.
A strawberry blonde haired girl came in with her box and a woman behind her.“Sorry for waking you up. I’m Ashley. This is my mum.” She waved, beaming at me with a smile that mirrored the sun.
Her eyes trailed over my face and then to my stomach where my gash was and her smile fell. She looked up at her mum who had a look of disdain on her face.
I picked up a shirt that was nearby and put on over my sports bra.“Hi. I’m Leah.” I faked a smile and appeared unfazed even though I was seething on the inside.
They both nodded as they brought up stuff from whatever vehicle had conveyed them.
Just when I thought they were done, more load arrived.‘Was there a war going on somewhere that I wasn’t aware of?’ I mused to myself.Ashley and her mum continued to make a lot of racket as she settled in. At some point their noise became much unbearable for me so I went out.
I walked round the campus to clear my head and tried Becka again. She was probably busy.
I followed the map in my hands and turned towards the admin building so I could get my class schedule. I knocked on the glass lightly to call the attention of the lady at the desk.“Hi. I was asked to come back today for my class schedule?” She nodded as she remembered my face.
“Leah, right?” She must’ve seen the surprise on my face as she laughed.
“Not many people have beautiful heterochromic eyes on this campus.” I blushed. I’d worn contacts over them most of my life but somehow I’d forgotten them back home. It wasn’t too obvious if you weren’t looking but people who did notice called me a freak. It was refreshing to find someone who thought they were beautiful.
“Thank you.” I smiled, my dimple probably showing. She beamed at me in return.
She searched on her computer for a few seconds and printed something out.“Here you go. I hope you find economics quite easy.” I looked at her with genuine interest as I collected the paper from her.“Last year, there was an issue with the lecturer and the school recorded it’s highest rate of failure. Although, I heard a new one has been brought in.”“Oh? So what happened with the students then?”
“The university asked them to retake it this year but it wouldn’t affect their GPA.” Of course UCB wouldn’t just give out marks to their students. I guess it was nice that they didn’t allow it to affect them much.
“Don’t worry. You’ll be fine. You’re here on scholarship, aren’t you?” I rubbed the back of my neck nervously, my cheeks tinged with slight embarrassment.
“I hope so.”
“Besides, rumours are, the new professor is fine AF.” Her eyes lit up with mischief. My nose wrinkled in disgust.“Ew! He’d be so old.”
“And?” She wiggled her eyebrows. I doubled over in laughter. This wasn’t appropriate conversation between student and staff. Maybe because she was so young and likeable but I didn’t mind it one bit.
“Oh my God! You remind me so much of a friend of mine. I’m pretty sure such kinds of relationship wouldn’t fly with school authority.” She sighed deeply.
“Sadly… Although, we live in quite a modern world. Why should there be a ban on student-staff relationships?” She was a part-time student so, she had enough time to work in the admin building.
“I dunno? Age difference? Preferential treatment? Distractions? Inapp…” I listed but she cut me off.
“I get it.” She rolled her eyes at me.
We talked some more and exchanged contacts. ‘Maybe things wouldn’t be so tough here.’
I thought to myself as I walked back to the hostel with a smile on my face. I’d made a friend.I could hear loud music from across the hall as I passed different doors.
“We’d barely resumed and we can’t even have peace of mind.” I muttered to myself angrily.
Confusion etched itself onto my face as I approached my door. The music was coming from my room.I opened my door to see Ashley half naked and writhing on the bed with some guy between her legs.
“What the actual fuck?” I shouted as I quickly averted my eyes which were now scarred for life.
They hadn’t heard me come in. They rushed to find their clothes which were strewn across the floor haphazardly.In what was likely to be record time, the guy had dressed up and was out of the room.
I rubbed my forehead as I could feel a headache coming and turned to Ashley.“I’m sorry. I didn’t think you’d be back so fast.” She said as she pulled on a top.
“I could hear the music from far down the hall. We could be reported for hall disturbance.”
Most people hadn’t resumed yet so, luckily most rooms on our floor were still empty.
Her face flushed with embarrassment as she kept her speaker in a drawer.“I don’t want issues with the hall monitors. That’s all.”
She nodded and apologised again. I sat down on my bed, feeling exhausted. I had classes the next day and I needed to be well rested. I also needed sleep to eradicate the image I’d seen earlier.
I shivered with disgust as I remembered again.*
Ashley was still asleep when I left for class. Getting to class wasn’t so difficult but finding a seat was.
The hall was almost filled to the brim and many people avoided the front seat. I didn’t like the front seat either and if I had known, I would’ve come earlier.I had forgotten people from the previous year were also in this class.I found a seat on the second row, putting me directly in the view of the podium.Chit-chat went on around the class as we waited for the lecturer to arrive.
“I heard he’s old.”“I heard he’s hot.”
I groaned inwardly as the girls beside me continued to talk about the lecturer, also putting me on edge to see what he looked like, if he was actually worthy of the buzz he was generating across the campus.
I brought out my pencil case and a note. I was about to take out my bottle of water when I heard short gasps from the beside me. I looked up at what had caused the commotion when my bottle fell from my hand causing a crash and water spilled everywhere.
The girls beside me screeched but my mind was on who stood before me, my jaw on the floor.
Snickers emanated all around me as his eyes narrowed and water continued to spill. “Are you just going to sit there and watch it spill over?” His tone hard and directed at me. It bounced me out of my stupefied state.I left the class to find a janitor who could direct me to the cleaning supplies room. Luckily, I found one with a mop stick. I had somehow managed to make a fool of myself in front of the entire class and also delayed the class by extra 20 minutes.By the time I had returned the mop and gotten back to my seat, he’d scribbled his name across the board and introduced himself. “My name is Jared. I will be your ECON101 lecturer for the semester. My door is always open to receive you should you have any questions.” How on earth had I managed to have the worst luck in the world? Ohio to California was as far away as far away got so, the chances that my one night stand stood in front of me as my Econs lecturer was already the world playing a huge joke on me. If at all fate
I snapped my head up.Had I heard right?Matt came in before I could confirm if he actually remembered me or not. He continued to list of requirements and rules for us without a mention of the previous incident and I forgot about it.If he was going to pretend he didn’t remember me, then I didn’t either. Why I felt disappointed, I couldn’t fathom.“...like one of those cool teachers.”“Hmm?” I had zoned out as Matt continued to drone off. Matt was cute in every sense. He looked like he played football in high school and was the probably the star player. I had a thing for shaggy blonde haired boys with baby blue eyes.“I said Jared is quite young. He’s so cool.” So guys also worshipped the ground where he walked. I rolled my eyes and snorted.“You don’t think so.” He said as a matter-of-fact.“I mean, I think it’s amazing that he’s got degrees so young. I just don’t see the hype.” He looked at me disbelievingly.“What? He’s overrated.” I lied through my teeth.“Yeah right.”We continue
“The demand affects the supply and that is why…” Jared droned off. Since 9am that I’d been in the class, the ladies behind me wouldn’t shut up and I could barely hear a word he’d been saying. “I think he just looked at me.” One of them giggled. “I think so too.” I looked to the back and set a glare on both of them. “Can you guys please keep quiet?” Their faces turned menacing. “What is going on?” I cringed in embarrassment as Jared’s voice reached my ears. “Nothing.” I muttered. His eyes narrowed at me. “You can’t disturb my class and not explain why.” My face tinged red in anger. I wanted to chuck something at his head. The girls behind me snickered in derision. “I’m sorry sir.” He paid me no mind as we continued the class. Every single second I spent in Jared’s class only made me hate him more. He was as difficult as he looked. I was stupid for thinking just because we’d met before, he’d be lenient with me. “I fucking hate him.” Matt chuckled beside me as we returned from hi
I decided against going into the class as I stood in front of the door.“God… I cannot face this man today.” I muttered to myself.“Are you going into my class or are you leaving? Which is it?” A voice that haunted my dreams reverberated behind me. I closed my eyes and counted to 5 in my head before I faced him. Feeling the contact irritate my eyes, I struggled to resist the urge to rub them.Why did he have to be so good-looking? I wanted so much to bash his head in so I didn’t have to be reminded everyday of how handsome he looked. I forced a smile on my face and batted my lashes at him, trying to see if he’d cave.“Sorry Mr Jared. Your classes are on of my best ones here on campus. I wouldn’t miss it for a thing.”If he knew that I was mocking him, he didn’t show it. Instead he brushed past me and muttered something I never thought he would under his breath.“And I’m the asshole.”I could swear his eyes found mine every minute and narrowed imperceptibly at me. Just when I thought I
“I swear, anyone who chucks a ball of paper at me again will…”“What will you do? Hmm?” Someone from the back yelled. I’d had enough of the insults, sneers, derisive comments and physical attacks. I stood up to address the issue when Jared walked in.“Everyone settled down.” Jared’s deep voice interrupted me, calming the atmosphere with his presence.I bit my tongue and swallowed whatever I was going to utter.“Sir, the assignment was not our fault. If anything, it’s water bottle girl’s assignment that shouldn’t be accepted.” I’d decided to name the girls always behind me, for God knows what reason, GG (gossip girl) 1 and 2. I wasn’t interested in learning their names. GG1 had spoken.“I think the whole class agrees on the fact that we don’t want her as our representative anymore.” Her voice seeping with vitriol. I had cost them part of their CA and I wasn’t surprised they’d wanted that. I understood how they felt and I would accept that. What I couldn’t take was the constant assault.
Jared lifted me up and let go of my body as if it burned him to stay in close proximity with me.“Are you okay?” Alyssa’s panicked tone sliced through the awkward air.“Yeah.” My voice sounded mangled and I cleared my throat, avoiding Jared’s eyes. I adjusted my shirt where it had ridden up and my skin felt warm to touch. I hoped it wasn’t obvious how tensed and embarrassed I felt.“I’ll see you around.” Jared finally spoke up, facing Alyssa. She blushed in return as he left, leaving just Alyssa and me in the hallway.“Now that is some cake.” I turned to look at her, shock marring my features.She giggled, covering her mouth in what? Embarrassment? She probably had forgotten that I was there with her.“I cannot believe you.” I shook my head and walked beside her as we exited the building.She wasn’t wrong though. Jared had it and my ears burned with the knowledge that I’d just checked his ass out.I would be lying if I said I hadn’t felt shivers all over. My skin still burned from his
I gambled on my thoughts and sent a risky text. I knew I’d never have the confidence to face him in person because even after sorting out my feelings I still felt confused.Call me stupid but something in me held onto the glimmer of hope that maybe he actually wanted something with me and I wasn’t being delusional.“Can we talk?” I placed my phone on my bed face down and squeezed my fist and biting my lip nervously. Was he going to reply? What was he going to reply?My phone chimed with a message and my heart skipped a beat. I blew out a breath and picked up my phone.“Why?” I squinted at my phone, trying to see if I’d missed the rest of his message.“What do you mean why? We need to talk.” I seethed as I battled with my keyboard.“I don’t think there’s anything we should talk about.” I could almost see his eyebrows drop in a frown. I scoffed. Apparently, only me thought there was this weird energy between us and it just made things incredibly awkward between us.“Okay, maybe it’s jus
“are you okay?” Ashley asked as she noticed my somewhat puffy eyes the next morning. I knew fake concern when I saw it. Ashley was just looking for gossip.I returned a fake smile and nodded, my voice taking on a happy tone.“Yeah.”Ashley was one of those girls I strongly avoided in school or just around me. They were like piranhas, guzzling till whatever was left of someone was a pool of their own blood and they moved on to the next victim like it was nothing.I’d slept with my contacts on, making my eye itchy. I knew how dangerous it was to leave them on for the longest times but I couldn’t even bring myself to care when I’d bawled my eyes out. I felt something shift within me.I’d seen enough of people assuming the worst of me, making me feel like I wasn’t enough. I took out my contacts and threw them in the trash. I was done trying to cover up all my flaws but I took it a step at a time. I still felt insecure about my scars because of the history behind them but I could start som