MY SECRET MATE

ELENA’S POV

“Please father, please, I am begging you don’t do this to me”, I begged my father as he threw my clothes in a small bag.

“I promise that I will be good”, I begged, as if I was being thrown out for my bad behavior when I was really a good child. I always followed my parents' rules and accepted everything that they decided for me, but this was one thing that I simply refused to accept.

“Elena, you have to do this. You have to do this for your family. Don’t be selfish, think of your little sister. Would you rather she did this for you?” he asked, pointing at my twelve-year-old little sister, and I shook my head. I would never want her to suffer the same fate as mine. However, that didn't mean that I thought what was happening to me was fair. That didn't mean that I thought I deserved to be sold off to a man older than me.

“ Then accept this, everyone in this family has a responsibility and this is yours” he declared, and he packed the few items that were remaining in my closet. "your mother and I have been making sacrifices for you ever since you were born, it's your turn now," he said and I couldn't believe that my own father was selling me off as payment for the fact that he raised me, he might not have put it like that but that was exactly how it sounded to me.

“I will work to pay him off please father”, I begged once more as he threw my clothes out of the room. Was he really kicking me out of his house? This wasn't the way that I had imagined it would be for me when I finally left my home. It felt like my own father was kicking me out of this house instead of sending me to a man who was supposed to be my mate.

“ Come on Elena, you have always known that one day you will come of age and you will have to move into your mate’s house,” my mother said in her calming voice, but there was nothing calming about this situation. I couldn't believe they were trying to brainwash me into believing that that man was my mate.

“He is not my mate” I exclaimed.

“And how do you know that?” my father asked me.

“I don’t feel him, I am not feeling him. When he looks at me I feel nothing, when he touches me I feel nothing but disgust and he is old” I said, it wasn’t the first time that I would be meeting my supposed mate because he had been a frequent visitor to the house ever since I turned eighteen. Each time he came here he would get very appropriate with me and my parents let him do as he pleased. Maybe I should have been grateful that he was taking me away from this toxic household. But then again, what if things were going to be worse for me over there?

“Are you questioning the ways of the moon goddess?” my mother asked and I knew what that meant I knew what she was trying to say to me. In this house, questioning the moon goddess was forbidden, and because of that, I was often lied to under the guise of my parents being guided by the moon goddess. I wasn’t allowed to question or challenge anything, I was just expected to accept every decision they made with no questions.

“But mom..’ I was cut off by a slap from my father and that was his way of telling me to shut the fuck up because I was getting on his nerves with all my whining.

I understood why they were doing this, but I just thought that it was unfair that I was the one who had to pay for their recklessness. Why had they taken a loan from that horrible alpha, knowing that he was ruthless when it came to collections? My suspicion was that he had only borrowed them the money as a way for him to get his hands on me. I just couldn’t believe that my own parents were this stupid and that they had fallen for his tricks soo easily.

Alpha Lukas was the cruelest alpha that I had ever heard of, he didn’t care about anyone except himself and his subjects were as good as his slaves. I was certain that I was also about to go into his pack to serve him as one of his slaves. He didn't want a partner but an enslaved person, a sex slave even someone that would give him sex whenever he wanted it. However, my fate was sealed and there was nothing that I could do to change it now, he was on his way to get me and there was nothing that was going to change that for me. The only thing I had to do was accept that this was the destiny that my own parents had deemed fit for me.

After my father was done throwing my things out of the room, I threw myself on the bed and sobbed on my pillows. This was the last time that I was ever going to be in this house. I hoped that I wouldn't live beyond tonight to that my suffering wouldn't be prolonged, but I knew that was highly unlikely. I was even disgusted by the fact that I would be spending the night in the same bed with that horrible old man. At eighteen, being with a man that was twelve years older than me was what disgusted me the most. Couldn’t he at least wait until I got to my twenty-first birthday?

I was startled by my mother, who walked into the room as if she was scared that my father would see her. I couldn’t believe that she wanted me to live the same life that she was living with my own father. She was terrified of my father and everyone had to tiptoe around him because we were all just too afraid to make him angry. She knew how I hated the life that we were leaving here and yet she was selling me off to be a sex slave in another pack.

“Elena, your mate is here,” she said as she walked into the room and I hated how they all insisted on putting the words mate and Lukas in the same sentence.

“He is not my mate,” I said with a shaky voice.

“ Listen to me you are no longer a baby now. This is all a part of adulthood and you need to take it like a grown-up. My parents chose your father for me this is just how things are done here, especially if a girl passes the age of sixteen without a mate. You need to understand that this is for your own good, Elena, no one would want you if you are old. Just be grateful that alpha Lukas chose you” she said and I wiped my tears.

“ He chose me because you owed him, you allowed yourself to be entrapped by him and now I have to pay the price for that” I snapped

“I just came here to let you know that he is here. The fact that he came to fetch you himself means that he is excited to have you in his home. You are lucky, your father never fetched me” she said and I rolled my eyes, I couldn’t believe she was comparing her situation to mine and even claiming that I was lucky. How was I lucky in all of this?

“How am I lucky?” I asked her “you are selling me to pay off your debt, so how am I, lucky mum?” I demanded.

“ This is the advice that I will give you as your mother,” she said as she cleared her throat and swallowed the tears that were forming in her eyes.

“Never talk back to him, always give him what he wants, then he will not have the need to take it by force,” she said and I shot up to my feet and shook my head. I had heard enough of this and I just wanted to leave now. Delaying this was not going to help me in any way and it was best if I just got it over and done with before alpha Lukas came in here and dragged me outside himself.

“Aren't you even going to give me a hug goodbye?” she asked me and I simply stormed out of the room. I wouldn't have to say goodbye to her if they hadn't made mistakes only to force me to pay for those mistakes. When I got downstairs, I found alpha Lukas sitting on the couch and tapping his feet on the floor. The impatience was written all over his face and I knew that my nightmare had just begun. I wished there was somewhere that I could run to so that I could hide. I would accept anything and even death at this point as opposed to leaving with this perverted old man. Thirty was just too old for me.

“Here she is” my father said as he got up with a nervous smile and he tried to hold my hand so that he could hand me over to alpha Lukas as if to say that he had his permission to take me and do whatever he wanted with me. I moved away from my father and went straight to alpha Lukas and sat next to him.

If looks had meant anything to me, then I would have been impressed by this man because he wasn’t bad looking. As a matter of fact, alpha Lukas was what every other female wolf wished for, with his silver hair and icy blue eyes. He had perfectly tan skin and a stern look that sat permanently on his face. He was always neatly dressed and you could never catch him unkept on any occasion. In the few times that he had been to our pack, he had always caught the attention of many females. Females that I was certain wished were in my shoes right now.

I am sure one would wonder why my own alpha allowed this to happen to me, why my own alpha would allow my parents to sell me off like this? The answer to these questions was quite simple. We didn’t have an alpha in our pack. I saw we didn’t have an alpha, not because there was none at all, but rather because the alpha that we had couldn’t be bothered by the problems that his subjects faced. Even if he had objected to what was happening right now, it wasn’t like there was anything that he could do. He was as good as a rogue compared to alpha Lukas and if he had tried to stand up for me he would have ended up endangering the rest of the pack. I didn’t like the situation I was in, but I knew that I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if someone else was to die because of me.

“It seems she is already ready to come home with me,” Alpha Lukas said in a raspy voice while he looked at me up and down as if he was undressing me with his eyes. The man had no shame. We had not even left my parent's home and yet he was already making his intentions for me very clear to them.

”Our family appreciates this opportunity from you alpha,” my father said, acting like a complete loser. What opportunity was he talking about? What kind of man thanked another man for buying his daughter only to make her his sex slave? I had so much resentment towards my father because of this decision and even more so for my mother for allowing it to happen to me.

“ Don't mention it, I like helping, and besides you are helping me by handing her over to me because she will give me plenty of children” he said, looking at me hungrily. I could see that he just wished he could consume me right now and if it wasn’t for my parents I was certain that my clothes would be flying all over the room and I would be begging for my virginity.

“ Here are her clothes,” my father said handing my little bag to one of the guards, and that sent a shooting pain straight to my heart. The sight of that bag just made me want to break down but I refused to because I didn’t want this man to see me in my weakness. That tiny bag was literally my whole life packed in a matter of minutes. Aside from that bag, I had nothing else…

“ Keep those clothes, no woman of mine will wear rags” alpha Lukas declared as he stared at me once more and I wasn’t sure if he expected me to rejoice and be glad upon hearing that information.

“But what will she wear?” my father asked suddenly, seeming concerned about my well-being, Well it was too late for that because my life had already been turned upside down and a little bag of clothes was not going to fix the damage that had already been done

“ She might as well walk naked” alpha Lukas said as his hands moved from my thighs and onto my bare shoulders. He stopped talking and licked his lips as he stared at my perky and untouched breasts.

“ The things that we will be doing will require no clothes,” he said with a smirk, and then shot up to his feet. Until now, I hadnt realized just how tall the man was. I had to look up when I looked at him and this either meant that I was too short or he was too tall. But it was his length that made most women go crazy over him, it was his muscles that all the ladies wanted a piece of and I wished I could share him with them.

I had heard that the man was a womanizer and I prayed that he would soon bring in another woman who would keep him away from me and distracted, but something told me that I was in for a very big surprise.