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People always assumed men like me were brooding psychopaths who skulked around in dim corners and growled threats.
Please.
I liked good food, good music, and good jokes.
I liked speedboats, bad action movies, and tequila with lime instead of salt.
My security teams liked to pretend I had no personality, but that was because they were too terrified to laugh when I said something funny. Dangerous didn’t have to mean joyless.
I just happened to be very competent at things most people preferred not to think about. Smuggling, distribution, weapons calibration, the sort of business that made politicians pretend not to know me while still asking for favors.
To most of the world, I was Christof Gustavo. CEO of Gustavo Technology, philanthropist, Manhattan’s favorite tech golden boy. The man who built an empire of innovation and wealth. Only a handful of people knew the truth. The tech company was real, the billions were real, the influence was real. And the blood on my hands was real too.
But I wasn’t some grim-faced tyrant. Hell, half the time, I was told by my second in command, Huncho, that I behaved more like a tech bro with too much money and not enough hobbies than a powerful mafia boss.
I met Pepa at Esteban Navarro’s compound last year. One stifling afternoon, all heat and cigar smoke and the metallic scent of weapons oil. I was there to finalize a shipment route with her father, Esteban. He was a middle man in my sort of business. Aiding discreet, high profile individuals who needed my contraband. One of the few men in this business who understood that respect was more valuable than fear.
I hadn’t been in a dark mood at all. After finalizing, I had been joking with Esteban about how his men kept missing the same spot on their perimeter sweep.
Then Pepa walked in.
She didn’t stiffen or stutter or avoid eye contact the way most people do when they know my background. Instead, she looked at me like she was already in on the joke. She was beautiful, sexy as hell with full lips, brown eyes, round hips, and big boobs.
“My father says you could dismantle a rifle blindfolded,” she said, arms folded, chin raised. “And also that you’re quite annoying.”
I snorted. “Both true.”
That made her laugh, and it was a sound I wasn’t expecting. Warm, bright, nothing like the cold-edged world her father and I lived in.
Esteban groaned. “Pepa, please. Don’t encourage him.”
“Why not?” she said, looking right at me. “He seems fun.”
Fun.
When people used words like terrifying, calculating, or Christof-will-end-you, she called me fun. I still don’t know why the words hit so precisely. Maybe because she meant them, maybe because she saw right through me.
I leaned back in my chair, smirked, and said, “Careful, Pepa. Call me fun again and I might start thinking you’re flirting.”
She smiled like she’d been waiting for that line all day.
“Maybe I am.”
And that was how my relationship with Pepa began. It wasn’t obsession, not fate. Just… chemistry. Easy, electric, obvious.
I claimed her because she made life lighter in a world where things could get heavy. She could stand next to the fire without shrinking back, she saw me, not the empire, not the reputation, me. And didn’t flinch.
Was I dangerous? Yes.
Did she care? Not even slightly.
And somehow, that made her the most dangerous one of all.
The girl, Tanisha…I had no idea what her surname was. She’d been working for me for months before I even learned her first name. HR sent me her file, and I skimmed it the same way I skimmed half the paperwork that crossed my desk. Efficiently, selectively, and only for what mattered.
Experience? Fine.
Competence? Solid.
Salary expectations? A measly sum, which I tripled after she proved to be effective.
I didn’t hire assistants to bond with them, I hired them to keep my life functioning with as little disruption as possible. A good assistant was like high-speed WiFi, essential, invisible, and only noticeable when something went wrong. I didn’t make a habit of studying the staff unless they gave me a reason.
Tanisha never did.
Well, except when Pepa got involved.
Pepa had this habit of treating her like a personal errand sprite, the kind you summon by snapping your fingers. Half the time I didn’t even know what Pepa had asked for until Tanisha showed up carrying it, sweaty, exhausted, looking like she’d sprinted across Manhattan and back.
Pepa found it entertaining, I found Pepa entertaining, which meant, by default, Tanisha became part of the entertainment. Not in a cruel way, just in the “this is absurd, and I can’t believe she actually did that” way. Every time Pepa sent her on some ridiculous mission, I’d get these little flashes of amusement watching Tanisha appear at the door, latte or face mist or limited-edition macaron box in hand, breathing like she’d escaped a hostage situation.
Sometimes I caught Tanisha stiffening when Pepa spoke to her, like she was fighting the urge to throw something. I’d hide a smirk behind my hand or turn away so she didn’t see it. She was so easy to rattle that it was almost… comedic.
Beyond that, Tanisha was invisible to me. If she walked into the room, I acknowledged the task she’d completed, not the person doing it. It wasn’t coldness, it was efficiency. The same way I didn’t thank my phone for ringing when I needed it to. She had no idea who I was outside the office, and that’s how it would remain.
TANISHAWe started packing when the the sun had dropped low enough to bleed copper across the water.The river was a mess of broken light, flickering every time the boat caught a swell. The temperature had dipped, too. I felt the chill deep in my marrow as I reeled in my line, focusing hard so I wouldn't repeat the disaster where I nearly hooked my own shoulder.“Careful,” Roman said.“I’m practically moving in reverse.”He stepped past me, moving with a heavy, certain kind of balance, snapping the rods into their racks. The boat rocked under his weight. I white-knuckled the railing until he reached for the cooler, the lid shutting with a solid, final thud.The air on the deck was thick, smelling faintly of river water, metal, and fresh fish. My sweatshirt sleeves were pushed halfway up my forearms, and despite washing my hands twice already, they still carried traces of bait and cold lake water.River water.Whatever.Same difference.I crouched beside the tackle box near my feet, s
TANISHA I sat across from him near the center of the boat while he opened a bottle of water and handed it to me.The plastic felt cold against my fingers.“So how did you even learn this?” I asked.Roman leaned back against the seat, sunlight catching briefly against his watch.“Self taught.”I blinked. “Seriously?”“Yes.”“That’s actually impressive.”His shoulder lifted faintly.“I wanted to learn so I did.”I nodded before taking another drink.The river moved steadily around us, soft waves rocking the boat beneath our feet. Overhead, gulls circled lazily against the pale afternoon sky.“How often do you come out here?” I asked.“Not very often.”“Too busy terrifying the corporate world?”Roman looked at me calmly. “I terrify people instead. Not as time consuming as the corporate world.”I let out a breathy laugh, shaking my head at the joke.Roman smiled fully, enough that something unfamiliar tugged unexpectedly low in my stomach. His eyes crinkled slightly at the corners whenev
TANISHASome of my weekends belonged to Roman now. Which still sounded ridiculous in my head sometimes. Months ago, I would have puked at the thought of sacrificing my sacred weekends to willingly participate in obscure activities with one of the most unreadable men I had ever met.Yet somehow, here I was. On a fishing boat, holding a fishing rod, in the middle of the Hudson River. The breeze across the river was sharp enough to pull a few strands loose from my bun.Sunlight flashed sharply across the surface of the river every time the boat shifted, bright enough to force me to squint occasionally. Somewhere farther across the water, another boat drifted slowly past, small against the endless stretch of blue-gray river and tree-lined banks.I stared down at the rod in my hand, then at Roman. The back at the rod.“This still feels unconventional to me,” I said.Roman sat across from me near the stern, one arm resting loosely against his knee while he adjusted something on his reel. T
TANISHAPepa stepping out of the office with a stiff spine and murder in her eyes was my signal that it was finally safe to go back in.The sharp rhythm of her heels carried across the lobby as she walked to the elevators, cream-colored wool brushing against her knees with each stride.Her eyes landed on me. If she looks could terminate lives, mine would’ve been ended immediately.I responded to her death stare by smiling and waving at her. The elevator doors slid shut in front of her. Only then did she break her stare.And the second she was out of sight, the laugh I had been holding burst out of me.I bent forward slightly, pressing my fingers against my mouth as it escaped anyway. My shoulders shook once. Then again.Oh my God. The way her smile had frozen and shattered once she saw my desk had to have been the most interesting part of my day. She had turned red so quickly, like someone had thrown gasoline onto her nervous system.And honestly? After the amount of nonsense she put
CHRISTOFThe office was quiet enough for me to hear the faint scrape of paper against Tanisha’s desk every time she turned a page.The sun had dropped low enough to turn the glass beside her into a dark polarizing filter. Outside, Manhattan was just a blur of neon and and stop-and-go traffic, thirty stories down. The executive floor eased into a slower pace after six. Most departments had already emptied out, leaving the expansive space cloaked in a deeper silence. Tanisha sat at her desk, reviewing legal documents, one leg crossed beneath the other. Her attention fixed on the file in front of her. The sleeve of her blouse had slipped slightly down her wrist. She pushed it back absentmindedly without looking up.The air conditioning hummed softly overhead. It was too cold. I noticed it in the way her fingers curled briefly before flattening against the paper again. A small movement, repeated enough over the last few days for me to recognize it now.She rubbed her thumb once agai
TANISHAThe fourth day was somehow worse than the first. And I had a feeling each day was going to continue getting worse. I had started timing his private calls out of frustration.Twelve minutes, twenty-three, seven. One had lasted forty-one minutes and I was forced to stand outside the office long enough to possibly witness the collapse of my lower back.At the moment, I was at nineteen minutes and counting. I stood outside the office holding my tablet against my chest while the frosted glass doors remained firmly shut behind me.Again.The executive floor stretched long and polished beneath the afternoon light pouring through the windows. Reflections moved faintly across the marble floors each time someone walked past. A phone rang somewhere in the distance before abruptly stopping. The scent of coffee drifted from the break room nearby, warm and bitter against the colder air circulating through the building.Meanwhile, I had been temporarily evicted from the office I now apparen
TANISHAThe door shut behind me, sealing me inside his office like a verdict. Christof didn’t bother sitting. He stood near the window instead, hands in his pockets, posture deceptively relaxed.He turned slowly. His flared nostrils, and cold eyes, were the only indications that he was upset.“Tell
Even Christof paused, brows lifting a fraction. Pepa? Requesting leftovers? In her thousand-dollar dress?She fluttered her lashes at him like she needed permission to breathe. “I’m starving,” she added brightly, “and I just adored the salmon. Didn’t you?”I pressed my lips into a fine line. What g
TANISHAI stepped off the elevator, heels clicking against marble, and walked straight to my desk, everything was exactly as it should be. Phones rang softly, screens glowed, people moved with purpose. Except it wasn’t. Christof’s whereabout was unknown to me.I had pulled up to his house thirty mi
CHRISTOFIt felt like I was explaining colors to a blind person. Why was I even explaining so much, I’m pretty sure she knew how a date went. And with this new feisty personality she had just revealed, she would be able to handle herself around Roman.Her jaw tightened. She stared past me, at the w







