How do you snag up an alpha?

We reached the school grounds, and he parked his car in the only empty spot, which looked like it was waiting for him. 

He switched the music off and turned to face me. “Cupcake, will you be okay?”

I rolled my eyes at the same question father always asked each time he dropped me off. It had been this way since I differentiated into an omega. They were worried the others would bully me. 

Oh, spare me that. I can handle myself quite all alright. I didn't tell him that though because I needed to maintain my innocent, harmless look as an omega. 

“Yeah, I'm good.” I grinned, to ease his concern, even though I wanted to get as far away from the car as I could. Enveloped by his scent that was muddying my thoughts, I couldn't think straight as he stared at me, golden blue eyes almost melting me. “Thanks for the ride,” I said to him as I removed my seatbelt and reached for the door handle. 

“Cupcake.”

I stopped and looked up at him, eyebrows raised.

“Aren't you forgetting something?”

“Something?” I frowned. “At home? I doubt. Everything is in my backpack, my assignment and —”

“This.” He tapped his right cheek, and I rolled my eyes. 

“You want a kiss? What are you? A kid?”

“You always do that every morning, cupcake. Here, I have it ready for you.” He used his tongue to poke his inner right cheek to make it prominent. 

“That was before high school,” I pointed out. I had only kissed him on the cheeks thrice after I started high school, and that was way before I found out about my affections for him. Now, with that, and being an omega, I hesitated.

 “Come on now, darling. Kiss your brother, he's dying for it.”

“What a baby,” I muttered, leaning close only to freeze. Nearer to him, I caught the whiff of his manly scent. There was something about his natural scent that made me want to hug him and rub my nose all over him. He smelled like cedar wood and bergamot, the scents woven together to create the smell of the wild, a smell I loved too much.

I blinked, realizing I had stopped. I closed the space between us, ignoring my racing heart, and planted a kiss on his cheek. 

His cheek felt cool on my lips, and I lingered longer before I sat back in the seat and watched him, heart racing like a truck on a highway. He hadn't made a move at all. It was as if he were frozen in time, and for a second, I imagined getting pinned down on the car seat as he attacked my mouth…

The picture was so vivid, I let out a gasp, more on the intensity than the shock of having such an imagination, with my brother, nonetheless. 

That seemed to snap him out of whatever thoughts he was having.

 “Cupcake?” 

“See you after school!” I got out of the car so fast, you would think legions of demons were hot on my heels.

I didn't return his scream of 'I love you' as I hurried towards the entrance without looking back, afraid he would see the colour on my cheeks and know the thoughts going through my mind. 

I was overwhelmed by the image I saw after I kissed him like he wanted. My heart had raced, and I had just dreamt about being kissed senseless by him, of getting my neck squeezed so tight as he fucked me. Of getting marked by him.

Even as a virgin, I had this vivid imagination that shocked me, almost destroying my innocent character. 

Inside, I leaned on the wall to recollect my thoughts, to cool from what just happened, even though I knew there was no cooling it. Not when I would see the object of my fantasy at home when I return. 

Despite being in his final year of college, Lucas lives with us. When I asked, he claimed there wouldn't be anyone to take care of me if he left, and that means I would be stuck with him forever. 

Did it scare me? Of course, not. It sent a delicious thrill through me, enough to let me know how fucked I was for thinking about my brother in a not-so-platonic way. 

I realized I was in trouble, a deep one. My feelings were forbidden, and I dared not think of what Jay would do if he ever learned of it. Would he look at me in disgust, or would he tell me I was confusing brotherly affections for feelings? Even if he wasn't disgusted enough to cut off connections with me, I knew Dad would. 

Yet, I was determined, to taste the forbidden fruit. At least, once. Jay can hate me after that. I will just take that one night to escort me through the lonely nights. But if I got lucky enough to make him mark me, or get pregnant for him, that would be enough ti tie him to me, forever.

....

I had to calm down before joining the others, even though my heart wanted to go to the man who made it beat faster than it had ever been. Debra was going through an anime catalogue when I sat next to her. She looked up, acknowledged me with a nod, and resumed what she was doing.

I pursed my lips. “Good morning to you, too, bestie.”

That got her attention. She closed the catalogue with a sigh and turned to face me. “What's up?”

I placed my backpack in the holder. “Nothing much, just pissed my bestie prefers her anime to me.”

She rolled her eyes. “Oh, come on, baby. You know that's not true. I just wanted to check the release date of my favourite anime, that's all. You know there's no way I can prefer that to you, right?”

That's a lie. This wasn't even the first time she had done this; however, I let it slide. “Yeah, yeah. Whatever you say.”

This time, she didn't just close the catalogue. She dropped it on the desk so she could focus fully on me. “Now, what's going on? Still hung up on your secondary gender?”

It had been a week since I differentiated into an omega, and Debra, like my family, has been super worried about me. They thought I would either do something rash, or get bullied by the alphas.

“As if.” I reached for the catalogue and flipped through it fast before turning to her, eyes sparkling as I leaned down to whisper, “How do you snag up an alpha?”