Bas POV As I stepped out of the barn, I continued walking not daring to look back until I was far gone from her sight. When I could no longer feel her gaze behind my back I stop trying to process what just happened.Stupid, how could you let your guard down I tried to calm my racing heart, but thoughts of her widened eyes and hitched breath when I drew her close flooded my mind. Did she want me to kiss her? No, that couldn’t be right. The Rebecca I knew wouldn’t hesitate to pull a bullet through my heart. But then she confessed she couldn’t stop thinking about our kiss. Was she just trying to deceive me? I paced back and forth in the empty field, grappling with my conflicted thoughts. Why did she have this effect on me? Why couldn’t I control my feelings around her? Dammit!!!I shook my head, trying to dispel the unwelcome thoughts that refused to be silenced. This couldn’t be happening. There was no way I was going to make the same foolish mistake like Sam. I wasn’t weak or fooli
Becca POV As Bas drove, I couldn’t resist stealing glances at him. His knuckles white from gripping the wheel, a vein pulsating on his forehead, and his breaths coming out ragged, as if he were struggling to contain his anger.Flashes of him gripping Joe against the tree flooded my mind.Why was he so mad? Did he desperately want to kill me that the thought of someone else doing it made him get so angry like this?My mind raced with many possibilities. Confused on what to do.“Stop staring,” Bas muttered, his eyes fixed on the road ahead. I jerked slightly, caught off guard. “Wh-what?” I stammered, meeting his intense gaze.He turned to face me, his expression unreadable. “Why don’t you just say what’s on your mind?” he urged, before returning his attention to the road, his grip tightening on the steering wheel.There was no way I was going to tell him what’s going on in my mind. I didn’t trust him But you’re here with him and having no idea where his taking you too. A voice in with
Becca POVOne bed!They only had one bed in the room. What on earth were they thinking? My heart pounded faster as I stood in the empty room with Bas. Why was this happening to me?“You should probably clean up,” Bas suggested, his voice calm but his expression unreadable.“What?” I asked, confused. “The makeup on your face,” he replied calmly, his expression neutral. ”Oh, right,” I responded, feeling a bit flustered as I walked into the bathroom. With a sigh, I shut the door behind me, locking it with a click. Contemplating if I should leave but that was impossible the weather had changed and right now the rain was pouring heavily.As the could water flowed through my body I couldn't help but wander what Bas was doing right now? Was he nervous by the fact that we had to share a roomNoFrom how he acted earlier like he wasn't bothered I'm sure he couldn't care less.I grabbed my towel and hurriedly changed into the nightgown the Sisters had given me. Thankfully, it wasn’t t
Becca POVIf you had told me that one day I would be locked up in a room with Bas, our hands tangled, our breaths ragged, and our tongues battling in each other’s mouths, I would have called you a liar and probably despised you for life. But here I was, lips locked with Bas. My mind screamed at me to stop, to push him away and leave, but my body refused to listen. It was as if I were under some sort of spell, unable to resist his touch. Bas continued to kiss me, his lips pressed against mine with a newfound sense of urgency. I could feel the passion radiating off of him, as if he had been holding back for so long and was finally giving in to his desires. This was not like the last time we kissed in his apartment; it was more intense, like a flood breaking through a dam that had been holding it back for too long. His lips brushed against mine, teasing and tantalizing as he slowly grazed my lower lip with his teeth. A soft moan escaped me, and I melted into the kiss, our mouths explo
Becca POVI barely got any sleep last night. All I could think about was the way his eyes locked onto mine, his lips pressing against mine, and the sensation of his hands on my body. Ughh. Get your head out of the gutter, Rebecca. I scolded myself. How could things escalate so quickly in just a span of seconds?“Thanks so much for coming to visit,” the elderly Sister said with a smile.“Thank you for having us. I’m really glad I met such lovely people like you,” I replied with a smile“You’re always welcome here,”“And you keep an eye on Bas for me. He tends to be strong-headed, but he’s a softie within,” she added, her gaze flickering to Bas briefly. I couldn’t help but notice the unreadable expression on his face, his jaw set firmly. Something was definitely off. Turning back to the Sister, I mustered a small smile, hoping to mask my unease.“We should get going,” Bas said as he walked to the car.***The car ride was very quiet. Well, I didn’t expect us to be all laughing an
Bas POVI really wanted to look at her, into those beautiful hazel eyes. Even if it was just for a moment, I wanted to see her. But I couldn’t. I knew that if our eyes met, I would lose whatever little self-control I had left. Just like last night when I was I was torn between giving in to my desires and listening to the voice telling me to stop. I did the right thing by stopping but I won’t lie, part of me wished I didn’t listen to that voice telling me to stop. I wished I could’ve kept kissing her, exploring every inch of her, all night long. But that couldn’t happen. We couldn’t get attached. Our lives were fated for an unfortunate prophecy, and I couldn’t allow anything to stop that. It was crucial, and I couldn’t bear to watch my father disappointed again. But the mere thought of her lifeless body overwhelmed me, suffocating me with a pain I couldn't understand. It was as if the air had turned heavy, pressing down on my chest. Was it too late? When had I let my guards down and
It had been three days since Austin told me about Tom’s little secret, and throughout these days, I kept asking myself, maybe just maybe there was a reason. But no matter how much I tried to give him the benefit of the doubt, there were still some dots that didn’t fit in. Austin had suggested we go after him and confront him, but I suggested we wait. Confrontation could backfire, and the truth might remain buried. But deep down, I couldn’t fathom the fact that Tom would ever betray me. I know he won’t.“Are you just going to stand there or let me in?” Tom said, his grin stretching across his face. My hand tightened on the doorknob. When Tom wasn’t around, I felt more certain that he wouldn’t betray me. But now, standing before me, doubt crept in. What if he couldn’t be trusted? With a forced smile, I slowly opened the door, welcoming him inside.“Ugghhh, it’s so good to be back,” he sighed, sinking into the couch. I avoided his gaze as I headed to the kitchen, my mind racing with un
Becca POV“I can’t believe prom’s just a few days from now,” Lola exclaimed with a squeak as we strolled down the hallway.Her eyes sparkled with excitement, and she bounced on her toes, unable to contain her enthusiasm.“Guess who’s auditioning for prom queen – me! I can’t wait to rub it in Maddy’s face when Carter and I are crowned king and queen.”“Yeah, great,” I replied absentmindedly, my gaze wandering off into the distance. My shoulders slouched with uncertainty, and my brows furrowed as I got lost in my thoughts. Weeks had passed since the CCW, and here I was, more confused than ever. My plans of getting closer to Bas and using him to my advantage had failed miserably. He avoided me, and I didn’t have the courage to face him. And let’s not even talk about the book. I couldn’t even tell Ravi all that happened; how could I tell him about what happened with me and Bas?Lost in my thoughts, I didn’t realize Lola had stopped talking and was now staring at me intently. She studied