I almost brought my guards down before Nathan. I’m hoping he didn’t notice how teary my eyes got. I’m not going to allow any other person to treat me the way I have once been treated in. I’m not going to let anybody make me question my self-esteem. It took me a while to build up my confidence and I won’t let anyone bring it to the ground.
Work is going to distract me from any negative thoughts. I need to finish the project I’m currently working on. I put on some music and open my laptop. Although I want to specialise in security software programming, I tend to accept easy projects from time to time, because I still need experience on various fields.
I’m currently working on developing a website for a startup; an easy task compared to many things I have done before, but as long as it brings me money, why don't I experiment with other topics?
I don’t know how long I have been working, but the ache in my back tells me that I need to take a break. I stretch my ar
Published on December 14th, 2021
Nathan’s birthday is in five days, and I want to celebrate this occasion with him; however, neither do I know if he likes big or small gatherings, nor do I know what to get him. During the past few weeks, Nathan and I have grown closer and I’m enjoying this new friendship with him. However, we don't get close enough to know anything special about him. I do know he loves horror movies, navy is his favourite shade of blue, he loves his job so much and he's a huge fan of Imagine Dragon, yet all of this isn't enough to know what to give him.I never thought I would be able to get along with Nathan, but apparently we have a lot of things in common. I too like Imagine Dragons. We both like Italian food and horror movies. Also the two of us would rather eat caramelised popcorn than the salty one. Oh, neither of us enjoy soda drinks!I want to get him something special, but he has everything. A watch would be pointless. He has thousands of them. He probably doesn’t need cologne or perfumes. I’
“Wake up birthday boy!” I jump on Nathan’s bed. Today is his birthday and I’ve got it all planned. I’m going to make his twenty-eighth birthday a memorable one. I’m a huge fan of Nathan’s room. I usually find beige and brown a boring combination that people resort to when they want to play it safe in interior designing, but Nathan’s interior designing is a genius. With the perfect lighting behind the bed, the café coloured detailed wallpaper, and the matching carpet, everything looks great. I also love how the bed is placed against a wall built away from the main wall, making Nathan have access to his closet from both sides. “Why are you waking me up early on my birthday, Len?” His morning voice is husky and attractive. “Because today I’m going to prove to you that I’m the bestest friend you have ever had,” I proudly say, raising one arm dramatically in the air. He is still giving me his back, so he can’t see that I’m holding the fancy champagne bottle in my
“Promise me you’re not going to chicken out?” Nathan says, holding his pinky fingers towards me. “I promise,” I link my pinky with his. Nathan and I start to get prepared for the dive. My heart refuses to calm down, but I promised Nathan and I’m not the one to break promises. I value them. Nathan hollers as he makes the first jump and my face breaks into a wide beam. I made Nathan check one of the items on his bucket list. “Are you ready?” the trainer asks me, and I nod, adjusting the GoPro I’m wearing. Nathan and I decided to wear them to document the experience and we can also film one another. “We’ll jump on three,” the trainer announces, and I gulp, looking down outside the plane door. I can see nothing but clouds from up here. “One, two.” He doesn’t wait until three and makes the jump and I scream at the top of my lungs. It feels like I’m falling to my death. After a matter of seconds, my screams die and I take a deep breath. The air keep
“I’m sorry.” Why is she apologizing? “What— Oh my God, I’m such a moron. No, Linnea. I’m happy that we did it together. I wouldn’t change anything about that I swear. Please don’t feel bad about this,” I talk faster than lightning. I should have been more careful. My choice of words was terrible. “I wanted to do it with my girlfriend, but I got to do it with my wife. Don’t you think that this is one hell of an upgrade?” She went above and beyond to give me an unforgettable day and I made her feel bad about the whole thing. Couldn’t I just keep my mouth shut and give her any other excuse? I’m a fool. “You can always go bungee jumping or ziplining with your girlfriend, right?” Is this girl for real? Is she trying to make me feel better because she took me skydiving? She’s the best companion I could ever ask for. No one is better than her. In anything. I will blindly follow this girl anywhere. “Does that mean I should start booking these things for u
“Am I imagining or are you and Nathan getting close to each other?” I was sure Thalia wouldn't let such an opportunity go. “We became friends. Nothing more.” I try to act casual. My cousin may be my best friend, but I don't want to declare my feelings for Nathan to anyone because I'm not sure about them. I'm confused too. “Friends? Didn't you see what he did at the dinner table? He stood up for you against your mum. He embarrassed her that she ended up apologizing to you,” she exclaims, trying to keep her voice down. “He's just being a good friend,” I insist, bringing the birthday cake out of the box. “Believe what you want, but I'll give it less than two months. You and Nathan are going to be head over heels for one another. It's crystal clear that he likes you,” Zoey tells me and I laugh a little. Nathan would never like me. He told me before that there was nothing about me that he could ever like, so why would he suddenly like me? After get
After we're done, we go to the mall. Of course, Nathan won't go to normal stores. He takes me to a boutique mum usually forces me to visit whenever we have to attend an event where attention is needed; marvellous attention if I may say. I remember the number of times my mum fought with me for shopping at ‘average stores’, stating that people like us should not go cheap. I don't understand her mentality. If a dress, a blouse, or a skirt looks good, then why do I need to bother? Why do I always need to wear designer clothes? A lady comes to help me after I tell her about the style I want. Hiding how wide my hips are is important. “I don't understand why you're insisting on the same style. Why don't you try something new?” Nathan wonders as he checks the dresses I chose. I'm not going to tell him that I'm insecure about my hips. This will make me vulnerable in his eyes and I don't want to be viewed in that way. “They're comfortable,” I reason. “C
This day has been going well. Why should something or someone come out of the blue the way Chelsea has just done? I’m trying to build a good relationship with Linnea, hoping that I can later ask her out. Knowing Chelsea, she may mess up everything I have been trying to do in a matter of seconds. It took me months to get rid of her annoying ass. She may say anything in front of the girl I’m dying to win and destroy the blooming relationship I’m attempting to have with Linnea. “It’s been a while, Nathan. Where have you been?” She technically tackles me into a huge and my nostrils flare. I awkwardly wrap my arms around her for a couple of seconds, then I drop them. I internally cringe the moment she kisses my cheek and I dare to glance at Linnea, who happens to be watching in complete silence. In a moment like this, I wish I could read her thoughts. Part of me wishes that she’d be jealous, because if she’s jealous, this means she cares. “We should totally get ba
The two dresses are in front of me. My makeup is done and so is my hair, yet I don't know which dress I should put on. The choice between my comfort zone and a challenge I don't know if I'm ready to undergo is a hard one. A challenge that makes my knees wobble in fear. Even my heart thunders in my chest whenever my eyes fall on the burgundy masterpiece. The burgundy dress is flawless and I'm in love with it, but I don't think it's for me, yet the way Nathan looked at me when I had it on said otherwise. I don't know whom I should trust. My judgement is clouded and I'm running out of time. My mind takes me to the skydiving experience. I was a step away from not booking myself an appointment, then I almost chickened out when I was about to jump, but Nathan was there to convince me not to. Perhaps all I need is a little push. Maybe I have to take this step to try something new. Taking a deep breath, I pick the burgundy dress. Nathan is my friend now, a tru