chapter fifty six

The message on my phone screen has me set in a trance of fear like no other. Why would I be blamed for the death of my wife's parents? And in a time like this, when she just let me in, when she's just started to actually trust me.

"..I love you." Her words, like a whisper ring in my mind, caging me to a reality I once lived and now will surely be destroyed. I need to tell her about this but not before I have her one last time. How do I tell her?

Frustrated, I let out a growl and feel the immense pressure settle on my throat and it bobs slightly. My suit feels suffocating and I loosen up my black tie and unbutton the top three buttons of my dress shirt. But the panicked feeling doesn't dissipate even a fraction and I scramble to fetch my pills from my jacket pocket. My hands are clumsy as I try to open the bottle as the blood pressure to my head feels so intense. The pills scatter to the car floor and I could vividly hear my beating heart and the movements of my blood inside my blood