Jude POVI had not shared the bed with several of the girls I had brought at night since I disliked making physical contact with people at night. Not that she ever would have imagined wanting to be near me at night. Unless there was something she wanted from me, she never bothered to hide her unwillingness to have me near her, especially when we slept together.I refused Isadora's request to be close to me.Her bloated face was lit by the early morning light. Dried tears from her lashes adhered to her flesh. She had gotten closer while we slept, to the point where we were practically touching. I couldn't help but want to touch her, but not in a sexual sense.Leaning on my elbow, I saw her contented slumber. I experienced nightmares about Josephine's blood-covered body, just like I did many other evenings. Even though I rarely dreamed about the people I had slain, I still spend a lot of nights thinking about them.Isadora gave a slight moan and moved her lips. I turned to face her as
JUDE POVHurt flashed across her face. "It's quite annoying knowing that you can be a bully for most of the time."I knew she was trying to get a response from me, but I did give a single reply."I wonder what Josephine thinks" I froze in that moment and turned around to look her eyes widened as she snapped her lips shut.A knock came at the same moment that rage shot through me. I was relieved to have Isadora farther away from me as I made my way towards the door after swallowing my rage. I felt the pounding of my heart in my temples as I tore open the door.When River saw me, her smile vanished. Her gaze strayed to an object behind me. "Is everything alright?" she muttered.I flung open the door. River was followed by both Isadora's cousins and Isadora's mother, and other ladies as they anticipated the ritualistic retrieval of the linens. Enter. Take hold of the sheets. I don't have the entire morning.Ilaria, one of Isadora's cousins murmured, "Rude as usual," as she passed me. Ri
Jude was plainly uncomfortable displaying any emotion in public. He soon left me to the whims of my inquisitive mother and spoke with Romeo and other Underbosses. I eventually got over her and my aunts and went to hide in a lavatory stall.Twenty minutes later, River found me here. "It's quite overwhelming, isn't it?" she asked once I had changed my makeup and came out."That is.""Are you alright? If you're not, you can let me know. Though Jude is my brother, my priority is as a woman.I nodded, recalling Jude's remarks and his hesitation to share our personal life with others."Thank you, but I'm okay."She smiled a little. "Refrain from letting him transform you into someone you're not. There are girls like you in our world.”Unlike her brother, she didn't mind when I gave her a quick embrace and returned the favor. Although I was happy to have her support, I had to figure out where I fit into Jude's life on my own. Anything less would not sit well with him.When we eventually arri
“Are you trying to influence me with your body?”My eyes grew wide. “No. I could smell the liquor on your breath, and I was curious how it tastes.”Jude chuckled. “You are a strange girl.” His mouth twisted. “Woman.” He looked down at the dog in my arms. It was snuggled against me peacefully. Without a word, Jude turned around and returned to his glass of whisky on the table. I stepped inside and closed the door. Stroking the dog, I followed my husband.“What’s its name?”“Loulou,” Jude said, a strange note to his voice. I stopped beside him. “Can I have a sip of your whisky?”Jude’s eyes bored into me. “You’ve never had whisky before?”“No. My father didn’t allow me to drink alcohol. I had my first glass at our wedding.”“Many firsts for one day.” A small shiver passed down my spine at the contemplative growl. “You aren’t old enough for hard liquor.”My lips parted in indignation. Was he serious?He downed the remains of his drink, and before I could say something snarky, he cupped t
Jude POVAnnoyance hummed under my skin. Isadora peered up at me calmly, thinking she knew everything. It was the advantage of youth—believing you knew how the world ran and convinced you could shape it to your ideals. She’d soon realize that ideals were just teenage foolishness.“Come now,” I gritted out, not wanting to release the frustration of the last few months on her. Ultimately, it was my fault for allowing this marriage, for thinking an eighteen-year-old girl could be a wife and mother. The idea that Isadora could become Josephine 2.0 turned my stomach over.Isadora opened her mouth as if to say more, but I sent her a warning look. She’d need to learn when to shut up. She pursed her lips but remained quiet.I led her to Daniele’s room first. I opened the door but didn’t turn the lights on. Daniele’s bed was empty.“Where is he?” Isadora whispered, worried, as she crossed the room toward the bed.My heart clenched. Turning on my heel, I walked out and strode down the corridor.
Jude POVI wasn’t even sure what had me on edge tonight. I had been wounded tightly for almost a year now. It was getting harder and harder to suppress the flood of emotions.Only once I’d released my frustration, and it had felt good, so fucking good. It had led to this point, and had ultimately cost my children their mother.Trying to stop this dangerous train of thought, I started brushing my teeth and getting ready for bed. A bed I’d have to share with another woman who didn’t want me.Isadora still hid her resentment better than Josephine ever did. Yet she couldn’t feel anything but resentment considering she was forced to marry me. Her feelings toward sharing a bed with me again tonight had been clear as day. She needn’t have worried. Despite the dark hunger for my young wife’s lovely pussy, I was a man who could control himself. I abhorred the idea of sleeping with a woman again who didn’t want me. The years with Josephine had been bad enough. Even when she’d approached me fo
ISADORA POVSomething in his gaze made my pulse pick up—something dark lurking in its depth. “Those scars,” he murmured. “Did your father create them?”Oh. Now I understand the look. “No,” I said quickly, and without thinking, I put my hand on his. His eyes cut down to our hands, then back up to me. “He never hit me. He wouldn’t. He adores me.” That sounded vain, but it was the truth. My father was certainly a violent man, but not at home, not to my mother and me.Jude chuckled. “I can see why he does.” I bit my lip, surprised by his words. “Who gave you those scars, then?”“When I was young, I loved to climb trees. We had a few old, tall trees in our garden. I loved to climb them. I wasn’t supposed to, but I snuck out all the time. One time, I didn’t pay enough attention and fell down. I broke a few bones and got cut up by a thorn bush beneath the tree. That’s it. Dad cut down all the trees after that.”“You make it sound as if Felix is a good father, which contradicts the opinion I’
Jude POV I nodded toward the bottles and formula. “You have to prepare the bottle.”Isadora’s eyes snapped at me. “I’ve never done it.”I sighed, then held Bianca out to her. “Then you’ll have to hold her while I show you how to do it.”Isadoraglanced at my daughter, swallowing. Embarrassment filled her face as she met my gaze, and I knew what she’d say before she did. “I’ve never held a baby in my life.”For a moment, I felt the urge to lash out at her verbally, but I shoved it down. Isadorahad even less say in marrying me than I did. It wasn’t her fault that she didn’t know the first thing about being a mother. “It’s not difficult. Just hold out your arms and take her.”“What if I drop her? Or hurt her? Or—”“Isadora, it’s going to be fine. You won’t drop her, and you won’t hurt her.”Isadoranodded and finally held out her arms. I put Bianca into them, and Isadora immediately cradled her to her chest. “Oh, she’s heavier than I thought.”I hovered beside her to see if she could hand