Marry for Definiteness

CHAPTER 1

I no longer know what is happening to me now. I just woke up in a familiar room that all I could see was color white. 

Frantically, I slowly opened my eyes, which were now dazzled by the sunlight hitting my whole face. Especially since the window is open and even the curtain is not closed. 

“You’re awake!” An angry tone that I looked at startled me was my mother. 

“Fúck, Kara! If I didn’t order one of our housemaid to check on you at your condo? You may not be here now. What are you doing to yourself and getting too drunk?” I was about to speak when suddenly the door to this private room was suddenly open. Dad entered, looking at me now with concern. 

“Kara…” he said, with a smile on his face. 

Mom sighed loudly as she calmed herself, and then turned around to avoid looking at me. Dad approached me once kiss on my forehead which obviously worried me now. 

“Are you okay?” I nodded at his question, which he also smiled at, and then he stroked my hair. 

“Claire, I’m leaving first. You will take care of Kara here?” Mom turned to dad and nodded and then they kissed on the lips right in front of me. 

Dad kissed me again on my forehead, and then he left my room. When I looked at mommy, her glowing eyes greeted me furiously. 

“Your daddy doesn’t know. So get organized! All he knows is your stomach hurts…. He doesn’t know that the reason you are here is that you got too drunk!” Mommy glared at me, which scared me. I get scared when mom is angry. 

That’s why dad seems to be so easy on me. He wasn’t so angry that I thought he would scold me. He didn’t know that too much alcohol was the reason I was here. 

“When he found out this? My god! Kara. When will you be change?” with action that mommy says she wants to choke me ready to hurt. But I know she can’t strangle me. 

There is only one meaning to why she is like this. I disappointed her as her daughter. 

“You remember! You have a career to guard. What if other fans of your find out that they admire you so much? You will survive?!” I silently looking at my mom without answering about her saying. 

Yeah, everything I do, my action depends on all my fans. Especially I am an actress and sometimes a model of beauty products. That pressuring me actually. 

It’s difficult to be an actress. I’m not that perfect. There are some dislike me. Also, some that I look like a saint if they admire. Which is that I’m not happy about. But this is what I chose before. This is the job where I can make money and buy everything I want. 

 So, I don’t have to rely on my parents. 

 “I called Maxine. She will be here later. She said it would be up to her to talk to the director. Where, next month, is the movie you will shoot.” I don’t know. If I still have an appetite for my next project. I’m feeling lazy. I want a happy life and breathe first into acting. 

Only in him do I rejoice. But is it hard for him to love me back and not hide it for life? 

“Kara! What are you crying about?” I woke up to mommy’s loud voice. 

I just realized that tears are wet on both my cheeks now. I’m hurting. 

“Shssss…” she told me when he wrapped me in his arms. I just cried because of my excessive emotions now. Because of my failure in love. So I got drunk. 

“M-mom, isn’t it… I love him so much?” sobbing, I harvested as I looked mommy in her face. Mommy brought her face a little closer to me and then she touched both my cheeks, wiping my dripping tears. She smiled sweetly at me. She understood me now. 

“I-I admit… he is my first love. Mom, I love him…. I just can’t cope. He’s been fooling me for a long time! The pain, M-Mom….” I pointed to my heart at the same time. 

“You just cried. Take out all your anger on him. You know? I can’t be mad at you. You’re my child. I know you, I raised you. I can’t give up.” My tears flowed without a word at what mommy told me. 

I regret I am her daughter. She doesn’t deserve to be like me. I was not the perfect daughter to her. I’m just crying. My mother’s love for me, unconditionally. 

“Stay home. No one will know it. Your dad shouldn’t know. He will reject you as his child,” she said. I was suddenly nervous. I know dad. He can reject me as his daughter. I’m scared. 

“Sell your condo and come home to us,” I thought about what she said. 

Two years. I lived as an independent for two years and moved away from my parents. For the sake of my work and I want to live alone. They supported me. Especially since I am an only child. But not a spoiled brat. 

“Mom…” 

“Kara. If you were there? What will happen to you will get worse. What’s next?” I was silent at what she said. 

Mom took both my hands and then pressed one of her palms to my right cheek. 

“You can forget him too… There are many more men out there who will love you because you are the only woman in their life,” I could feel mom saying as she caressed my cheek that brought me strange feelings. 

“No, Mom!” I turned my head in the other direction so that mommy wouldn’t touch me and avoid her. I heard her exhale a deep breath. 

I was in the hospital for two days before I went home to our house. At my parents’ house. I can’t do anything. Mommy sold my condo. It was as if I had nowhere to go home. The sadness of my life. 

“Direct, didn’t take you to be the star of a drama they were going to do,” I’m shocked by Maxine’s statement to me, my personal assistant, manager, secretary once. Everything. She is also my best friend. We’re just the same age. So we get along once in everything. 

“They are not a loss. What is this?” At once, I took the folder she gave me. She just frowned and then sat down in front of me. There is a dining table here. We are here on the terrace near my room. 

“Mrs. Black gives. It looks like she will file a case against you and… she is really serious.” My gaze returned to her with astonishment. 

“Case?” 

“You allegedly slapped his daughter. Captured by CCTV. ” 

“Hahaha ha, I’m still real, huh?” at the same time my two eyes turn around at what I said. 

I was not the first. Her daughter was the first to call me a ‘Mistress’. To my annoyance, I told her she faked her face. Because she pantomiming surgery. 

That’s why she got angry and slapped me. To my annoyance, I also slapped her back. That could have her head removed. Case, her cheek turned red. Fake face. 

The mother was angry. I am ready to sue.  

In the depths of my mind. It shocked me when someone grabbed the folder from my grasp. 

“Mom!” I didn’t expect her presence now that she was reading what was in the folder. She even fanned the folder, and then she smiled at me. 

“I’ll take care of it.” I just laughed at her and then she turned around and left my room. 

“That’s really cool, Auntie. Geez!” 

Silence prevailed between the two of us. Until I heard Maxine sneeze. I looked at her. 

“I heard Atom left for Mexico?” It offended me when she mentioned the name of the man I was killing now in my mind. 

“With his family?” 

“I don’t care about him anymore, Maxine. He has already decided. Just don’t let him come back into my life,” I said, annoyed with a hint of anger. 

“Are you so drunk? Why is that?” I fell silent at the question of her. 

Just think of the pain. How he turned his back on me like a trash can. 

I told Maxine everything. But just a little. It hurts me when I remember badly. 

I was about to enter my room. When I saw mommy right outside the door of my room. Its looks are underneath. Until she looked up and went straight to me. So our eyes met. 

“Mom,” I began. She just crossed her arms while she looked at me without emotion. I turned the doorknob to open and go inside. Mommy followed me as I entered. So I turned to her to ask why she was here. When she immediately spoke. 

“Marry Spencer!” I frowned at what I didn’t expect she tell to tell me. I don’t know what my mother is saying. 

Spencer Ean Teves, is the son of her friend. Tita Peni. Spencer’s daddy, Tito Jordan, used to be my dad’s business partner.  

Even though they are always here at home having dinner and we are at their house. Our parents are close. Spencer just smiles at me when our eyes met. He is a busy man, as far as I know. Especially since he is an engineer. 

“Mom…. Get married? To Spencer?” I’m really confused. She nodded as if in tears. 

“This is the only solution. You will marry Spencer. You two be married. DONE! My eyes narrowed at the harvest, and then my forehead wrinkled. I don’t get mommy. 

“What’s done, mom? I can’t understand you,” I smiled at the same time that no one really could understand. 

Mommy blinked and then let out a sigh. 

“I don’t want other people to know about you. That you have become a mistress. Kara, pleaseee… You’re old, Darling. That’s it! It’s time for you to get married. Your daddy and I are old. So we want you to settle down in a quiet life.” 

“What a quiet life, Mom? Do you think I’ll be quiet when I get married? Tsk!” it was obviously stressful, as what she said. I don’t know what shall I do. 

I will not be quiet when I get married. How can I be quiet? If I don’t love who I will marry. 

“Fine! Be a MISTRESS for life!” it’s irritating cry as she stared at me and then turned her back on me. She also slammed the door of my room shut, which really resounded with the force of the roar. 

I’m holding my head, dizzy now. The pain seemed to break. Mommy and I can’t understand each other. I know she will be ignore me tomorrow. That I don’t want to happen.