"Okay, the pastry display is fully restocked for the afternoon, so are you good if I leave?"
"Yeah, go," Kiki says while measuring out coffee beans. "Beck will be here soon, anyway."
"Alright," I sigh and head to the break room, taking off my apron. With plans to see Abby in just a few minutes, I gather my things and go through the back door to my car. I take out my claw clip and let my hair fall over my shoulders, and I tweak it in the visor mirror before starting my car and turning out of the café lot. I go right instead of left because Abby's house is the opposite way to mine, and she told me to meet her there after work. She didn't say I would be going on another wild ride through the mountains, so I assume we'll just hang out there, and I can ask her more questions about werewolves.
When I get to her house, I notice her mom's car isn't there. I park along the street and walk up the driveway, quickly sniffing my shirt to make sure I don't smell too much like expresso and pumpkin flavoring. I don't think I do, but then again, my senses may have become immune to all Blue Moon Café smells.
I knock on the door and step back with my hands holding one another against my front. I consider telling Abby about my kiss with Harvey last night, but Abby's boyfriend answers the door — who I've only met once — so I smile a bit awkwardly and say, "Oh, hi, is Abby here?"
"She's upstairs." He opens the door wider. "But she's—"
"I'm right here!" I hear her call, and suddenly she's wedging herself beside him. "I was making us coffee and accidentally splashed my shirt. Come in — it's cold."
Abby nearly walks me through the door.
"I just realized I didn't tell you Liam was going to be here," she says sheepishly. "But, you know, since you always have questions about us and the pack and shifting, we could tell you about mates."
"Mates?" I question, stepping out of my shoes.
Liam says, "I'll grab the coffee."
He disappears into the kitchen as Abby takes me to the living room. There's a pleasant, woodsy smell, and I notice a candle burning on the side table beside the couch. I sit next to it, and Abby places herself on the adjacent loveseat.
I take off my jacket and place it next to me. "So, what are mates?"
"You're gonna love this," she predicts and places a pillow on her lap.
Liam comes in with three coffee mugs gathered in his two hands, and Abby reaches to help him. She takes two and gives one to me. "You like almond milk, right? That's all I put in."
"Yeah, that's what I usually drink," I say and have a sip. "It's good."
"Good." She cups her mug in her lap and takes a breath. "So. Mates. Soulmates."
"Soulmates?" I question.
"That's what they are — soulmates — but we just say mates." She glances at Liam. "It's a special bond between two werewolves that we traditionally believe is bestowed by the Moon Goddess."
"Oh, wow. So you guys are..."
"We are," Liam confirms.
I ask, "Since when? Since always?"
"No. You can only find your mate once you turn eighteen, so — because Liam is older than me — when I turned eighteen, we found out we're mates."
"How did you know?"
"It's a physical feeling. We both feel our mate bond."
"Do you decide who your mate is?"
Liam smiles. "No. We have no influence over it, which is why our ancestors believed the Moon Goddess chooses who is mated with whom. We believe it's like fate."
"Oh," my voice brightens. "That's sweet. Is it...forever?"
Abby laughs a little. "Yeah. And I know that seems kind of weird, like we don't have a say in this, but we see mates as a really positive, joyful thing. Liam and I are really happy to be mated. Lots of us who are under eighteen can't wait to turn of age and find our mates."
I sip my coffee and then set it on the coffee table in front of us. "So is it like being married? But with no divorce?"
"Well—"
Liam gives her a look — almost like a warning.
"What is it?" I ask, worried I'm going to be blocked by another secret.
"There is a sort of divorce option. It's called rejection." Abby peers at her boyfriend again but with a sense of sadness. "It's very serious and final and heartbreaking if the couple doesn't mutually decide to reject each other. You don't hear about it often."
"Has it happened in your pack before?"
"Once or twice," Liam says.
"How do you reject your mate?"
Abby's lips tighten as though she doesn't want to tell me. "You — well, you say it. You say 'I — along with your name — reject you, their name, and then the bond supposedly breaks."
"Just like that?"
"My mother said it's like casting a spell. When we say it, it's in Kanien'kéha, but yeah, that's all it takes."
"Oh," I murmur and stretch to grab my mug, unsure of what to say.
"But like Liam said, it's only happened once, maybe twice, and hasn't for a long time. There isn't anyone in our pack now who's rejected their mate or been rejected," she adds.
Harvey comes to mind. I ask, "Do all werewolves have mates?"
Abby says, "Yes."
One word, and suddenly my chest aches. Harvey has a soulmate, then? I stare into my mug as a torrent of unspeakable questions invades my thoughts. He's already twenty-four, so has he found his soulmate? Even if he hasn't, he will.
So why has he been so suggestive? Why did he kiss me back?
"Anyway..." Abby leans over the loveseat's armrest, closer to me. "What you would think if you were mated to someone? Would you be like, angry? Confused?"
"I don't know," I say, sinking into the couch. I want to say that it doesn't matter — I'm not one of them, and there's no point in pretending I am, but I don't want to sound bothered.
"Really? I mean, I guess it would be a lot to take in, right?"
I point my chin away from her. "Yeah."
I hear the front door open off the hallway, and they're instantly distracted. Liam gets up from the small couch and calls, "Hello?"
"It's us." Suddenly two boys rush into the living room, but they freeze at the sight of me, bumping into each other. "Oh— sorry."
"What is it?" Abby asks them.
"We were just looking for Liam," the closer says.
Liam — still standing — walks back to Abby. "Mia, this is Cory and Delsin. They're a part of the pack."
Delsin? The name sounds familiar.
Cory, the closer, asks, "She knows?"
"So does Harvey, so shut your mouth about it, okay?" Abby demands.
"I'll go with them, see what's up," Liam tells her. "It was nice to talk with you, Mia. I'm sure I'll see you again soon."
"Yeah, I'm sure." I force a smile.
He bends, kisses Abby on the cheek, and then corrals the two boys out of the living room. Abby watches until the front door opens and closes and the house is quiet again. "That happens way too often," she mutters.
"Why do they need him?"
"I dunno. They're both newly-shifted and overly ambitious, and they come seeking Liam's expertise. Their brothers and also Liam's cousins."
"Are a lot of the pack members related?"
"Some."
"How does that work mate-wise? Are there enough people so everyone has a mate?"
"Not everyone's mate is in the pack. Most belong to other packs or just live elsewhere. Because mates are fated, as we believe, the couples seem to find their way to each other."
"Has Harvey found his mate?"
Abby's annoyance with the boys' intrusion fades quickly. "He...has."
My ache worsens tenfold. "Is she in your pack?"
"No, but she lives in Black Lake. She's different — not like us. He doesn't want me talking about this specifically because—"
"It's fine," I interrupt and try to breathe my disappointment away, but the backs of my eyes start to burn. "I-I think you've answered all my questions."
"I have?"
"Yeah, and my stomach kinda hurts, so I think I'm going to go and lie down."
"Does it actually? You're not finding a way out like you did with your mom and the festival, are you?"
I blink hard. "It really does."
"Because of what we talked about?"
I look at her. "Harvey and I kissed."
Her expression drops. "What? When?"
"I get what you're trying to tell me."
"You do?"
I nod and rise from the couch. "I think I need some time alone."
She stands also. "Oh, okay, if you think that's for the best, take all the time you need. It can be a lot to adjust to."
I grab my jacket and Abby walks me to the door. Before she lets me out, she suggests, "I know you want to be alone, but maybe you should go and see Harvey. He's at Norwood House."
I swallow. "Yeah. Maybe."
She opens the door and squeezes my shoulder. "Everything is gonna work out, you'll see. Mates are a good thing."
"Yeah. Right. I'll talk to you later."
"If anything happens just text or call me or come here. I-I'll be here, okay?"
"Okay. Bye."
I walk down the porch steps and along the driveway to my car. Abby waits at the front door as I get in my car and pull my seatbelt on. I wave again and drive down the street just to get out of view, and then I pull off to the side and park again because there are people at home and I don't want my family to see how upset I am; my eyes are already watering.
I push myself back into my seat with my hands still on the wheel. Harvey has a mate, she lives here, and that's a good thing? How can Abby say that after I admitted we kissed?
She's warned me to stay away from Harvey. Is this why? Could she tell I liked him while she knew he was promised to someone else?
Why did he kiss me back? That jerk!
I jam my gearshift into drive. Maybe I should go talk to him and tell him exactly that.
And then it hits me; Delsin is the guy Harper went on a date with, and Black Lake is too small to have more than one Delsin. Besides, he looks like a senior, and she never said he goes to Black Lake High.
My anger builds. Delsin knows he's promised to someone else, but he's using my sister in the meantime. God, what is wrong with these werewolves?
I head towards Norwood House, fueled by my annoyance with plans to tell Harvey exactly what I'm thinking.
Gravel grinds against my car tires as I turn off Audrey Way and onto Norwood House property. My grip on the wheel hardens, and my knuckles turn white, but no amount of squeezing can lessen the feeling I get in my gut when I see Harvey outside. At the top of the gravel driveway is an electric saw and long planks of wood, the type used for flooring.Harvey stops what he's doing and wipes off his hands at the sight of my car. He has no jacket on despite the chill, but Abby's told me werewolves don't succumb to the cold like humans; they're always warm. I step on the brakes and put the car into park, feeling an itch in my throat — a doubt. A slow, shaky breath pushes out my nose, and then I unbuckle my seatbelt and pop open my door.Harvey walks to the car, but his steps let up once I face him."I talked to Abby," I say, not bothering to shut the car door. Instead, I stand behind it like a shield. "She told me about mates.""Okay." Harvey glances left, toward the mountains, and his eyes s
Three days have passed since Harvey told me we're mates, but, most of the time, I haven't been thinking about it. I've been with Harper.Whenever I'm not at work or doing a college assignment, and whenever she isn't at school or doing homework, we hang out together. We get coffee or lunch, or we watch TV in her room, and yesterday we decided to carve jack-o'-lanterns even though the pumpkins probably won't make it to Halloween.She often talks about Delsin. I don't have to outright ask her about him to know she really likes him. They have plans next weekend, yet all I do is smile while she gets giddy talking about it because I can't decide whether to interfere; it's not like I know how to explain why Delsin isn't trustworthy, anyway.Harper goes to bed early because of school, so I spend the rest of my nights in my room whether I'm doing school work, reading, scrolling on my phone, or tidying things up.When I do think about Harvey, it's before bed. I can't distract myself when I'm al
I've woken up nine times to a text from Abby, and they all say the same thing: Harvey isn't back yet. Usually, I sleep through my phone alerts; it's only a soft buzz on my nightstand and a moment of dim light but waiting for Harvey has put me on edge, and once I read the text, I can't fall back asleep.What was assumed to be a week of Harvey helping another pack in Maine has turned into a hodgepodge of spacey, distracted days and endless, restless nights. I was late for work three times and missed an assignment deadline — something that hasn't happened since high school.On Saturday night, Abby texts me repeatedly about getting together, but I'm too busy helping Harper to conjure excuses as to why I'd rather stay home. Harper tries on six different outfits out of her closet and four from mine but can't decide on anything to wear on her date with Delsin. "I still think the black skirt was nice," I tell her while lying belly-up on my bed, "and you can wear those winter-tight things you
"Do you think you and Harvey will get married? For us, the mate bond is enough on its own, but I know humans get married to make things super official — legal and all. I'm sure Harvey would if it's what you wanted.""Oh?" I glance at Liberty as we follow the others to the kitchen. "I can't say I've—""Stop trying to freak her out." Abby steps in."She's mated to an Alpha. If I was in her situation, I would want to be legally bound."We pass the dining room, and I nearly pull a muscle twisting my head to get a better look. There's no furniture, only stacks of hardwood flooring, grey patches covering the walls, and an entire section of the floor missing, revealing the basement; only once I double-take do I realize one wall is gutted entirely.The hall opens up into the kitchen, and Abby takes me the opposite way of Liberty, instead towards Jalen and Luke. We lean against the counter and watch Jalen make himself a drink while Luke b-lines for the fridge. The sounds of more beer cans open
"Harvey! You know Mia is here, right? She's so sweet...and funny. Oh, here she is. Mia, look, he's home."Abby latches onto Liberty who's clearly had too many drinks and coaxes her away. Harvey can't make it past the foyer without being surrounded by his pack, but he sees me past them, and those in the way step to the side. My face burns; I didn't plan on talking to him with an audience.At first, Harvey looks at me like I'm not really here, but he quickly realizes what's going on — everyone has gathered in his absence, and I've been invited. He breathes out and eyes Abby."Surprise," she says. "Mia's met everyone.""And we love her," Liberty tacks on."All of you go home, and if you're supposed to be on duty, shift and get to it." Harvey turns to me, and my body goes stiff. "Mia, come on."Harvey nears me and places his hand on my back, guiding me the way Abby and I came. I peer back at her, and she mouths, "I'll wait for you."When we turn the corner, I say, "I'm sorry if I'm not su
I'm home.I stare at the message for a minute before pressing send. It delivers, and I toss my phone to my bed while I wind down and get ready to sleep.Harper's bedroom door was shut when I got back with no light illuminating the cracks, and by the sight of their coats on the barstools and mom's purse on the counter, I know my parents are home from dinner. I'm not sure why no one decided to ask where I'd disappeared to all night, but with their rose-colored perception of Black Lake, it's easy to assume wherever I am, I'm perfectly fine.I return to my room from the bathroom and finally end my anticipation by checking my phone. There's a message from Harvey, and I sit on my bed to read it: I want to talk again, especially about your expectations and what you're comfortable with concerning our matehood. Let me know when you have the time, and I'll make it work.The butterflies in my stomach start fluttering again. I lie back and contemplate my reply, deciding to say: This sounds like a
It's been two nights since Harvey came to my bedroom to see me, and they've been two nights of horrible sleep. I stare at the approaching road as I drive from the center of town back home, and I occasionally sip on a coffee I made and poured into a travel mug, but nothing seems to cure my grogginess.Halloween is around the corner and all the businesses around the lake have decorated their storefronts for the holiday. Webs line windows with giant spiders, skeletons stand at attention to usher customers inside, and the dentist's office has a window painting of three witches around a bubbling cauldron with a written offer to trade in candy at a dollar per pound.I stare at the sign, assuming no kid will give up their Halloween candy unless their parents make them. The dentist's office did the same deal when I was trick-or-treating, but I held onto my candy for as long as possible until the day it disappeared, and I didn't realize it.Only through having siblings did I discover my mom hi
"We begin this evening's broadcast with breaking news: a local resident of Black Lake has been reported missing for over two days now. Town resident Philip McNamara was last seen Sunday morning walking his dog Scout in the lower lake park as he does every morning, but this time neighbors reported he never made it home. Scout, his gold retriever, was found lying on the doorstep of McNamara's residence still wearing his leash, waiting to be let inside. Philip McNamara has worked at Seymour Hardware store on Main Street for over nine years after retiring from the Air Force where he—"The TV screen goes black. I peer over my shoulder and see my mom with the remote in her hand. "Come on, time to sit down for dinner."Harper — who's stretched across the adjacent couch texting — gets up without looking from her phone screen."Texting Delsin?"She side-eyes me on her way to the dining room, warning, "Stop."Perry's footsteps thunder down the stairs, and he goes right into the dining room wher