"Okay, the pastry display is fully restocked for the afternoon, so are you good if I leave?"
"Yeah, go," Kiki says while measuring out coffee beans. "Beck will be here soon, anyway."
"Alright," I sigh and head to the break room, taking off my apron. With plans to see Abby in just a few minutes, I gather my things and go through the back door to my car. I take out my claw clip and let my hair fall over my shoulders, and I tweak it in the visor mirror before starting my car and turning out of the café lot. I go right instead of left because Abby's house is the opposite way to mine, and she told me to meet her there after work. She didn't say I would be going on another wild ride through the mountains, so I assume we'll just hang out there, and I can ask her more questions about werewolves.
When I get to her house, I notice her mom's car isn't there. I park along the street and walk up the driveway, quickly sniffing my shirt to make sure I don't smell too much like expresso and pumpkin flavoring. I don't think I do, but then again, my senses may have become immune to all Blue Moon Café smells.
I knock on the door and step back with my hands holding one another against my front. I consider telling Abby about my kiss with Harvey last night, but Abby's boyfriend answers the door — who I've only met once — so I smile a bit awkwardly and say, "Oh, hi, is Abby here?"
"She's upstairs." He opens the door wider. "But she's—"
"I'm right here!" I hear her call, and suddenly she's wedging herself beside him. "I was making us coffee and accidentally splashed my shirt. Come in — it's cold."
Abby nearly walks me through the door.
"I just realized I didn't tell you Liam was going to be here," she says sheepishly. "But, you know, since you always have questions about us and the pack and shifting, we could tell you about mates."
"Mates?" I question, stepping out of my shoes.
Liam says, "I'll grab the coffee."
He disappears into the kitchen as Abby takes me to the living room. There's a pleasant, woodsy smell, and I notice a candle burning on the side table beside the couch. I sit next to it, and Abby places herself on the adjacent loveseat.
I take off my jacket and place it next to me. "So, what are mates?"
"You're gonna love this," she predicts and places a pillow on her lap.
Liam comes in with three coffee mugs gathered in his two hands, and Abby reaches to help him. She takes two and gives one to me. "You like almond milk, right? That's all I put in."
"Yeah, that's what I usually drink," I say and have a sip. "It's good."
"Good." She cups her mug in her lap and takes a breath. "So. Mates. Soulmates."
"Soulmates?" I question.
"That's what they are — soulmates — but we just say mates." She glances at Liam. "It's a special bond between two werewolves that we traditionally believe is bestowed by the Moon Goddess."
"Oh, wow. So you guys are..."
"We are," Liam confirms.
I ask, "Since when? Since always?"
"No. You can only find your mate once you turn eighteen, so — because Liam is older than me — when I turned eighteen, we found out we're mates."
"How did you know?"
"It's a physical feeling. We both feel our mate bond."
"Do you decide who your mate is?"
Liam smiles. "No. We have no influence over it, which is why our ancestors believed the Moon Goddess chooses who is mated with whom. We believe it's like fate."
"Oh," my voice brightens. "That's sweet. Is it...forever?"
Abby laughs a little. "Yeah. And I know that seems kind of weird, like we don't have a say in this, but we see mates as a really positive, joyful thing. Liam and I are really happy to be mated. Lots of us who are under eighteen can't wait to turn of age and find our mates."
I sip my coffee and then set it on the coffee table in front of us. "So is it like being married? But with no divorce?"
"Well—"
Liam gives her a look — almost like a warning.
"What is it?" I ask, worried I'm going to be blocked by another secret.
"There is a sort of divorce option. It's called rejection." Abby peers at her boyfriend again but with a sense of sadness. "It's very serious and final and heartbreaking if the couple doesn't mutually decide to reject each other. You don't hear about it often."
"Has it happened in your pack before?"
"Once or twice," Liam says.
"How do you reject your mate?"
Abby's lips tighten as though she doesn't want to tell me. "You — well, you say it. You say 'I — along with your name — reject you, their name, and then the bond supposedly breaks."
"Just like that?"
"My mother said it's like casting a spell. When we say it, it's in Kanien'kéha, but yeah, that's all it takes."
"Oh," I murmur and stretch to grab my mug, unsure of what to say.
"But like Liam said, it's only happened once, maybe twice, and hasn't for a long time. There isn't anyone in our pack now who's rejected their mate or been rejected," she adds.
Harvey comes to mind. I ask, "Do all werewolves have mates?"
Abby says, "Yes."
One word, and suddenly my chest aches. Harvey has a soulmate, then? I stare into my mug as a torrent of unspeakable questions invades my thoughts. He's already twenty-four, so has he found his soulmate? Even if he hasn't, he will.
So why has he been so suggestive? Why did he kiss me back?
"Anyway..." Abby leans over the loveseat's armrest, closer to me. "What you would think if you were mated to someone? Would you be like, angry? Confused?"
"I don't know," I say, sinking into the couch. I want to say that it doesn't matter — I'm not one of them, and there's no point in pretending I am, but I don't want to sound bothered.
"Really? I mean, I guess it would be a lot to take in, right?"
I point my chin away from her. "Yeah."
I hear the front door open off the hallway, and they're instantly distracted. Liam gets up from the small couch and calls, "Hello?"
"It's us." Suddenly two boys rush into the living room, but they freeze at the sight of me, bumping into each other. "Oh— sorry."
"What is it?" Abby asks them.
"We were just looking for Liam," the closer says.
Liam — still standing — walks back to Abby. "Mia, this is Cory and Delsin. They're a part of the pack."
Delsin? The name sounds familiar.
Cory, the closer, asks, "She knows?"
"So does Harvey, so shut your mouth about it, okay?" Abby demands.
"I'll go with them, see what's up," Liam tells her. "It was nice to talk with you, Mia. I'm sure I'll see you again soon."
"Yeah, I'm sure." I force a smile.
He bends, kisses Abby on the cheek, and then corrals the two boys out of the living room. Abby watches until the front door opens and closes and the house is quiet again. "That happens way too often," she mutters.
"Why do they need him?"
"I dunno. They're both newly-shifted and overly ambitious, and they come seeking Liam's expertise. Their brothers and also Liam's cousins."
"Are a lot of the pack members related?"
"Some."
"How does that work mate-wise? Are there enough people so everyone has a mate?"
"Not everyone's mate is in the pack. Most belong to other packs or just live elsewhere. Because mates are fated, as we believe, the couples seem to find their way to each other."
"Has Harvey found his mate?"
Abby's annoyance with the boys' intrusion fades quickly. "He...has."
My ache worsens tenfold. "Is she in your pack?"
"No, but she lives in Black Lake. She's different — not like us. He doesn't want me talking about this specifically because—"
"It's fine," I interrupt and try to breathe my disappointment away, but the backs of my eyes start to burn. "I-I think you've answered all my questions."
"I have?"
"Yeah, and my stomach kinda hurts, so I think I'm going to go and lie down."
"Does it actually? You're not finding a way out like you did with your mom and the festival, are you?"
I blink hard. "It really does."
"Because of what we talked about?"
I look at her. "Harvey and I kissed."
Her expression drops. "What? When?"
"I get what you're trying to tell me."
"You do?"
I nod and rise from the couch. "I think I need some time alone."
She stands also. "Oh, okay, if you think that's for the best, take all the time you need. It can be a lot to adjust to."
I grab my jacket and Abby walks me to the door. Before she lets me out, she suggests, "I know you want to be alone, but maybe you should go and see Harvey. He's at Norwood House."
I swallow. "Yeah. Maybe."
She opens the door and squeezes my shoulder. "Everything is gonna work out, you'll see. Mates are a good thing."
"Yeah. Right. I'll talk to you later."
"If anything happens just text or call me or come here. I-I'll be here, okay?"
"Okay. Bye."
I walk down the porch steps and along the driveway to my car. Abby waits at the front door as I get in my car and pull my seatbelt on. I wave again and drive down the street just to get out of view, and then I pull off to the side and park again because there are people at home and I don't want my family to see how upset I am; my eyes are already watering.
I push myself back into my seat with my hands still on the wheel. Harvey has a mate, she lives here, and that's a good thing? How can Abby say that after I admitted we kissed?
She's warned me to stay away from Harvey. Is this why? Could she tell I liked him while she knew he was promised to someone else?
Why did he kiss me back? That jerk!
I jam my gearshift into drive. Maybe I should go talk to him and tell him exactly that.
And then it hits me; Delsin is the guy Harper went on a date with, and Black Lake is too small to have more than one Delsin. Besides, he looks like a senior, and she never said he goes to Black Lake High.
My anger builds. Delsin knows he's promised to someone else, but he's using my sister in the meantime. God, what is wrong with these werewolves?
I head towards Norwood House, fueled by my annoyance with plans to tell Harvey exactly what I'm thinking.
Harvey jerks my driver's door open. I never liked crying in front of other people — I always try to avoid such an uncomfortable situation — but I didn't really expect him to let me run off unchased. Wiping my tears away with my fingers, I watch as he crouches next to me.He places a hand on my leg. "Thank you for not driving away."I wipe my eyes one last time and then let my head rest against my seat. "I can't handle this. Not after last night.""I want to help you," he says, speaking carefully."There's no way for me to know what happened in Maine, so I'm going to ask you — and I want the God-honest truth — did anything happen?""No."I turn to him. "You promise?"He takes my hand and squeezes it. "I promise. Nothing happened. Jane is just trying to get to you.""It's her fault her sister's dead; they chose to go near the wolves in Maine," I rant. "Now what? She just gonna...kill me?""Hey, nothing's going to happen to you.""You think she's going to give up once she finds out that
A hand rubs my upper arm as I lie in the plush, warm bed of one of Norwood House's many guest rooms. My body which ached and cramped and cried so tumultuously last night is in no hurry to wake up and get going, but my brain leaps ahead. I turn onto my back and see Harvey bent over me, standing on the side of the bed; his stroking hand pauses. My head just as quickly snaps to the opposite side where Harper is supposed to be sleeping, but she's no longer there."Where—""She's alright," Harvey says, stepping back as I push to sit up.Sunlight comes scarcely through the curtains which haven't been closed all the way. The room is bare of any personal belongings or decorations; all that fills it is the same vintage, heavy-looking furniture that seems to frequent every other room of the house.I rest against the thick wood headboard. "Where is she?""Downstairs."I comb my hair back with my fingers and look around myself, knowing something else is missing. "I-I need my phone."Harvey reache
Harvey and I sit together on the staircase as we wait for Marianne, Liam, Kieran, and Alo. I sit on Harvey's lap and write everything I need to say on a pad of paper, starting with Jane's vengeful ambush, leading to my encounter with the shapeshifter, and finally concluding with our run-in.I then explain in more detail how I know the vampire, Jane — who's also the Society's newest member. Harvey promptly recalls Dianne mentioning Jane earlier when we went out for dinner."Gladstone's pack assumed there was only one vampire," he mutters, sounding disappointed in himself. He's been a bundle of sighs, curses, and headaches since I began recounting the night's events. "I should have investigated it myself instead of blindly trusting them. Damn it."You can't blame yourself for—Harvey grabs my right hand, causing my pen to streak off the line and halt. After a tense moment, he lets go. "I'm sorry."Both Marianne and the boys take longer to arrive than I hoped, so I ask questions to distr
The door clamors shut, and Jane grabs me by the throat, her nails cutting into my skin before I can realize my lack of breath. My hands spring to hers, instantly clawing to pry her off, but her grip is like stone. I sputter, panic compounding and crushing my chest."Mia!"Harper's voice sounds from upstairs. "Can you put fries in the oven?" She calls.The sound of the shower is loud — the bathroom door open — but she isn't visible, she can't see Jane choking me. Tears well in my eyes.Jane brings her emotionless face an inch from mine. The whites of her eyes start to bruise, the blacks like endless tunnels. "Say okay," she commands quietly."Okay!" I call in the short reprieve of her strangle, feeling no control over the matter.She clips off any cry for help by squeezing my throat again. Harper does not respond, but I hear the bathroom door close and the beating water of her shower lessen. I push against Jane as my adrenaline spikes higher and higher — reaching a peak I've never expe
It takes all my effort to hold still as we roll along the stretch of gravel road leading to Norwood House. Both excitement and anxiety surge in my chest, dinging against my heart and throttling into my stomach, more powerful when combined. I know there's no need to feel this way — I want to be alone with Harvey and to take the next step in our relationship like any typical couple — but my body thinks otherwise.Sometimes I understand my sense of unease; anxiety is something I've dealt with for as long as I can remember. But tonight I do not understand. Really, it's making me quite frustrated.I wish I could feel excited without the added panic.We park in front of the house next to my car. Harvey kills the engine, smiles at me, and proceeds to get out of his truck. The second his door shuts, I use my brief seclusion to breathe in deeply, desperate to calm myself. Harvey peers at me through the windshield from the front of the truck once he notices I haven't moved. He comes to my side
I spend the majority of my day at work training a new barista to replace Kiki who is presumably staying in Rochester. Mom and Dad have gone to the lodge for the night to spend their anniversary alone, dropping Perry off at Erin's and giving me free rein to stay at Norwood House without admitting where I am. Harper — who has the house to herself — says she'll be leaving soon to meet Delsin.I remind her to lock up before she leaves, and then I'm off to see Harvey.I park out front, grab my night bag from the passenger seat, and trek up to the front door. Curious, I try the door handle, and it gives way, welcoming me inside."Harvey?" I call."In the study with Kieran," he shouts.Not wanting to interrupt whatever pack-related issue they're discussing — there seems to be plenty to choose from these days — I head upstairs and place my bag in the master bedroom. I set my tote on the end of the bed and dawdle a bit, placing my hand on the duvet and thinking up all kinds of positions Harvey