LOGINI hate surprises.
And certainly do hate it when I'm being wretched from my gut with two different surprises. Or when Robyn was all hysterical in my head. Glad to know I wasn't the only one shocked to the bones. Mav was truly here. No matter how hard I tried to tell myself that I was dreaming, that this wasn't real, I knew it was. What I didn't want to accept was the fact that my mate, may perhaps be the escort I had booked. "You filthy piece of shit!" He snarled angrily, his voice echoing throughout the diner, causing people to turn their attention towards us. He was still gripping Bukar's hand. And it wasn't a simple grip, because I knew, deep within me, I knew he had broken that wrist. "The next time I see you close to what's mine, I'm going to rip you limb by limb, then scatter your remains to the dogs on the streets. Get out of here," he finished, his voice holding a tinge of promise in it. Bukar gasped as Mav let go of his hand, and without sparing me a single glance, he sprinted away. I didn't know what to say. My head was fuzzy. So fuzzy that I could feel my panicking wheel begin to spin. I had no idea what to make of the situation, what to make of the whole issue. Plus, I didn't dare allow myself to think about the possibility of Mav being the escort I booked. Then there was the pull. The irresistible pull drawing me to the huge man towering above me. The pull I hadn't felt for the past two years. Nerve wrecking. Gripping. A forceful emotion to deal with, and one I certainly couldn't control. And that made this a lot harder to understand. A lot harder to manage. Realizing I couldn't control myself. Couldn't control my raging nerves. Couldn't handle the shock this surprise had knocked into me, so I decided to do one thing. Call me a coward, but that was the only thing I could think about at that moment. Not when he was looking at me like that. Not when I could see the rage he was trying so hard to control. So, as he opened his mouth to speak again, I gathered my phone and bag. And I ran. Not in the literal sense though. And it wasn't helping that Robyn was quiet, too quiet for my liking. Too quiet for her nature. There wasn't a line for the bathroom, so I didn't need to wait to lock myself in one of the stalls. Sitting on the toilet and hugging my phone and purse to my chest, I rocked back and forth. I tapped my teeth together, comforted by the feel of it. My face burned. There's a roaring in my ears. And no matter how fast I counted, or how many times I twirled the ring on my finger, nothing was working. This wasn't something I was expecting, because surprises always leave me with a feeling of being too loose. No control. I need a firm grip on my life, I need to know I have a firm grip on things happening around me. Not this. Not with the possibility that the escort I booked was my mate. I could hear voices around, but I didn't look. I didn't want to do anything. I simply want this to end, or perhaps, be a dream. I just want him to go away so I can return to my hotel room and pretend this never happened. I need to find a different way to solve Robyn's horny state, but I'll do it later, when I can think. So I simply sat, and counted and counted and counted till I lost track of time. Till nothing mattered. Till the thundering beating of my heart quieted a bit. But I still didn't stop. I continued counting to 7 over and over. 'This changes everything,' Robyn finally spoke, her voice had a slight crackly sound to it. 'I mean, who wants to have a one night stand with their mate?' I sighed, counting to 7 again before I finally answered. 'He's the escort, right?' 'Isn't that obvious already? There's the mask, and then the eyes you were drawn to. The familiarity of them.' Right. I nodded. I booked my mate for a one night stand. Great. 'So what should we do here? Rob, I can't understand how I feel about this. I don't even know what I should feel regarding this. I want to be mad so badly but I can't, because I would seem pathetic, seem like I care about a man that doesn't care about me,' I murmured, burying my face in my palm. 'I'm so mad I want to take over. How dare he become an escort? Even if that was what he did before we were mated, shouldn't he have stopped? This clearly shows that he does not care about the sacred bond between us!' Robyn snapped, pacing around with her eyes blazing with an unfathomable kind of rage. 'Maybe I shouldn't have run away like a coward. Now he'll think I'm in here crying because of him and...' the words cut off as a thought crossed my mind. 'Robyn, if he is an escort, aren't we supposed to feel uncomfortable when he's with someone else? I mean, isn't that how the mating bond works?' 'Oh, I do hope his heart broke and shattered into pieces when we were with those wolves. I hope he spent weeks raging and nursing a damaged heart!' Robyn cursed, panting heavily. Then after a few moments, she settled on her paws and stared at me. 'But you are right. We should've at least felt a reaction. But it is no surprise we didn't, because if I remember correctly, we met him first at the king's house, and he was clearly mad about it that day before he left. But neither you nor I felt the bond until he visited us a few days later. Do you think the lack of feeling a reaction has something to do with that?' I mulled over her words, which seems to be true. 'I think something is wrong with us then.' Robyn scoffed. 'Excuse you, I am a very fine and healthy shewolf, thank you very much. I can very well keep my emotions in check. If anyone isn't okay, then it is that bastard. Oh dearest me! I want to gauge his eyes out or rip him limb by limb like he threatened to do to that cute human.' I felt my lips stretching in a closed lipped smile. Robyn is truly angry. But I can't feel that. Heck, I can't even seem to think straight enough to draw a reaction. All I know is that this is going to mess me up for a few days and it isn't something I am looking forward to. 'I know I pushed you into doing this, Sher. And I am so sorry about that. As horny as this bitch is, I think it is over for us tonight. Let's go back to the hotel and perhaps, sleep? Ugh! This is going to be a very long night. But we can manage, or I guess I can manage...' 'We're doing this,' I heard myself say. 'We have no reason to ruin our night because of him. When we decided to do this, we didn't care about him, nor about the fact that we are mated. Because we already knew he doesn't care. This changes nothing. We are going ahead with our plan and we are having a one night stand.' I finished, surprised to hear how clear and confident I sounded despite the daze my mind was in. 'Are you sure? We can totally skip it. I know it's not something you wanted to...' 'Now I want to. I want to do it now,' and it was true. For some very odd feeling, I wanted to do this now more than ever. 'Are we booking another one? Isn't that too late? Or...' 'Why book another one when we already have one booked?' I said sweetly. That seemed to shut Robyn off as I twirled my ring and counted again. Counting till I lost track of time once more, till I couldn't think of anything but the numbers in my head, till I felt my nerves slowly easing. If he has no problem doing this, why should I? 'We have booked him already, we might as well get this over with,' I added as I patted my ankara gown to ease the squeezing on the side. There was a certain rush of adrenaline kicking my gut, a sense of excitement I hadn't felt in a while. If the thought of doing this could make me this excited, then I'm doing this. 'I wanted something different. I wanted to try something new, and I think this is the best option right now.' Robyn grinned like a lovesick puppy. 'I freaking love you, Sherneil!' I smiled. So easy. No stress. And then walked from the bathroom. The knowledge that I have control over this now, made my strides a lot more confident. But then, I collided with something hard as soon as I rounded the corner from the bathroom. A firm chest. Solid body. Warm. Alive. Real. This is horrible. Absolutely horrible. And for some very weird reason, I knew it was him. Maverick. My mate. His hands wrap around my upper arms for an instant as he puts space between us, and the shock of his touch reverberates through me. "Hey," he says, his expression blank, but I could still see the subtle hint of anger. He wasn't holding the mask anymore, and I wondered if he had thrown it somewhere. The mask was part of what we agreed to use for identification. My lips form the word hi, but my vocal chords refuse to make a sound. His throat is directly at my eye level, and I'm staring straight at the swirling calligraphy inked into his skin. Tattoos. On his neck. Neck tattoos. And it looked a bit raw. There wasn't a neck tattoo when I booked him two nights ago. On closer look though, the tattoo doesn't look new. I knew about the butterfly tattoo on his chest, but somehow it's different seeing him...them—in person. Seeing the one on his neck. Okay. This doesn't feel like an adventure anymore. This feels terrifying.I awoke with a loud gasp. Sweating profusely. My whole body ached. The gnawing empty feeling was still suckling at me."Oh, thank goodness you are awake! Thank you for fighting through that!" a voice hovering above me said. I sat up, the movement causing a sharp pain to pierce through me as I winced. I was still in the heated cell, my whole body aching. A throbbing headache. Fresh looking scars that were still oozing blood."Here, take this," the voice said again, before a water pitcher was pressed to my mouth. I gulped it down greedily, welcoming the wetness in my perched dried throat."Easy there. We don't want you choking yourself." the voice added, and with the sudden clarity the water had given me, I was able to make out the person hovering over me.The Keeper.I moved back, afraid she had someone waiting behind her with a whip."Don't be scared. I am only here to help. Mav has been making me do all those things to
SHERNEIL."Have you ever heard the stories about omegas who lost their sanity after being rejected by their mates?" Amara, as she had introduced herself to me a few days ago, said. We were sitting outside, under thick oak trees that were clustered in a small clearing. The moon hung above brightly, the stars shimmering up above while we both munched on the fruits laid before us."What stories?" I asked quietly, as I took a bite of the sour strawberry. "They are sad stories," Amara, my friend and also the fae queen, answered. "Most of them ended up losing their minds to nothingness. I say that if a man rejects you, simply reject him back and end the pain."Something pricked at my chest as she said that. Something odd. Something quiet. But it disappeared just as quickly as it appeared."Just like you should, now that you've finally found your real mate and have reached the right age."A mate. A partner. Half the part of me. One tha
Just like yesterday, we rode our horses quietly, until Lisa trudged her horse up to my side and broke the silence. "Asha says Hi," she mumbled, keeping her gaze up ahead. "Asha..." oh, her lycan. Damn, I completely forgot. To be honest, the only permanent thought in my mind was Sherneil's. "Uh, thanks?" I replied. Lisa chuckled, nudging me on the side with her leg. "She asks when she gets to meet your lycan." I sighed. "Not anytime soon, Lisa." She said nothing, and I went ahead to explain. "My lycan was injured a few years ago, which makes it impossible to shift at will. We did manage to get back a little of the power to do that when we had our mate. But right now, there's... nothing. Just... vast numbing emptiness." Wow! I sound like a broken record. But who cares? I am broken. On so many levels. "We will find her, Chuto. And we will save her. She is okay." I ho
MAVERICK."What are you doing here?" I hissed, crinkling my eyes as I looked over at Lisa, who was pulling a horse behind her, dressed in black leather pants and a top."Going with you, of course," was her simple reply."Says who? You are staying back, Lisa.""No, I'm not," she snapped, stopping before me and snatching the saddle I had been struggling to put on the brown horse. "I know my realm better than you do, and I know the Keeper and Mathilda even more. If you want to succeed on this mission, then you have to take me along.""It's not like you can protect us, so what is the point?" Khalil asked from behind me.Lisa ignored him, finished saddling the horse, then moved back. "I am coming with you, Chuto." Her voice was firm and hard. Her face expressionless under the golden light of dawn striking from behind the tall trees. "We are going to save her together. And you are going to be okay."I stared at her for a few m
SHERNEIL.Darkness had become my friend. A companion. A partner. I tried so hard to stay awake, to wait for a sound, for a sign that anything stayed close by. But none came. I had no idea how long it had been since I was locked in here. I had no way of counting the minutes, or hours, or even days. I hadn't eaten, nor drank anything since the last time I did before the attack.At some point, I dozed off. Probably due to the pain from the wounds inflicted on me by the Keeper's whip, or from exhaustion, or from the heat, which despite the stone Mathilda gave me, still burned through my tattered dress.But the sleep didn't last long, nor did it help. I was hungry. Thirsty. Sick. Yet, when I tried to pull at my emotions, to feel something moderately close to reminding me that my sanity remains, nothing worked. I was still empty.Without Robyn. Without Mav. Without Amadi.So I did the only thing I could. I counted and counted and coun
Tears rolled down her cheeks."I almost did. In fact, when I learnt about the Fiko forest and the curse, I went there and made a blood oath. I used my rage and theirs to throw my own curse. I bound myself to their rage, and vowed that I was going to help them get their revenge. Karima, whose ancestor was responsible for helping the Fikoans then, was my cousin, so I got all the necessary information needed. But when the time came for me to make the potions, I couldn't. With my ingredients sitting in front of me, right at the border of the Fiko pack, I met Talatu Victoria."She smiled at the mention of Mama."Talatu wasn't angry at me. She wasn't even mad. Instead, she asked if I was okay with her being Dakarai's concubine because she can't leave him. She told me that as his mate, I should be the queen and she was okay stepping down and giving me the crown. She told me how it had been three years since they got married, but she was yet to produce an heir. Ho
"Ammi!" I shrieked, mortified that she would even consider asking me something like that. "Okay, okay! I will just believe nothing has happened, yet. Anyways, keep yourself safe. Eat well. And remember, you are strong, beautiful, and kind. At the same time, though, you need to be taken care of. A
We walked into the grand house making small talk. I was glad we weren't having dinner at the pack house, I wouldn't be able to handle that. The memories have never left, and it would've been nearly impossible to pretend everything was okay sitting in that house. When I came back two years ago, Ma
"Huh?""You do know how to bake, don't you?" She asked."Uhh. Not really. I prefer cooking to baking. It isn't as precise." I answered, trying to make sense of what was happening. She wants me to..."Cool! You can sit and watch me bake, then," a small smile played on he
SHERNEIL.I fixed the ankara turban on my head for a final time, keeping my eyes fixed on the mirror. It's been so long since I dressed up, but today's occasion calls for dressing up even if I didn't really want to.I wore a long gown made from soft ankara material. The petal-pa







