LOGINYou know all I’ve ever really wanted was to make a name for myself. Getting recruited into the pack was never apart of my goals, it just felt nice to know the potential was there.
I’m not sure working with the most dangerous ruthless pack was ever in the cards for me, but I pictured it for a moment. Only a moment was all I was allotted for though.
My phones back at it again, so I’ve turned it on vibrate, but the pounding on the front door tells me he’s done waiting for me to answer.
I stare at the ceiling of my bedroom, not making any moves to get up and answer.
I’ve always known that he had a mate out there, always had a sneaking suspicion that it wasn’t me, no matter how good he treated me.
Had I known that mate was my best friend or my greatest enemy, I would have stepped aside and let them have him. I think he’s always known that too. It’s why I’m assuming I was never made aware of the situation.
I’ve never questioned how much he loved me. I’ve only ever questioned how much I loved him. You fight for the ones you love, right? I should want to fight for him, claim him, but I’ve never really wanted that. I want him to be happy, and I don’t think I’ve ever truly believed that it would end up being me that made him that way.
The door to my bedroom slams open, my head turns towards him, his face a mixture of fury and sadness. I slowly sit up and he falls to his knees in front of me, grabbing my hands and gently kissing up my wrist. “I’m sorry. I’m so so sorry. I should have told you. I swear, Baby Girl. Sex with her means nothing to me. Please, forgive me.”
I grab his chin and move his head to look at me, I pull my lips between my teeth, then start, “You belong with Kiera. She’s your mate and you’re only torturing both of you by not accepting that. What we had was amazing, but I think we both knew it would have to end eventually.” I tell him calmly, but his head instantly starts shaking. “I don’t want her.” He repeats, but I smile again. “She’s your soulmate. Give her a chance.” I chuckle, soft and sad, “She’s literally one of the best people I’ve met in this pack, and I think you’re lucky that she’s the mate the Goddess chose for you.”
His jaw tightens and his eyes close, “The Goddess chose wrong.”
I shake my head, “Please, Sam. You’re making this harder than it needs to be. I just want you to be happy, and at the moment, I want that to happen away from me.”
I move to stand and he follows me, I place my hand gently on his jaw and look into his eyes, “I won’t stand in your way. You belong with Kiera.” I whisper. He lays his forehead down on mine, “All doing this will tell me is how much I belong with you. Will you wait for me?” My nose scrunches and I pull away. He shakes his head, “After I do what you’re begging me to do. You’ll be here waiting, right? At least until I mark her.” He asks and my mouth falls open.
“You want me to wait for you?” I ask again, needing to be sure I heard him right. He nods, “You want this, Thea. Not me. I’m only willing to do this if I know you’ll wait for me when it doesn’t work.”
I shake my head, “You cheated on me.” I rasp. “No. No… No. I didn’t cheat. I was only sating my wolf.”
A dark laugh leaves me, “Your dick went inside of another girl, that’s cheating no matter how you justify it.”
A low growl leaves him, “You wouldn’t understand. You’re wolf-less.” He snaps, and I scoff. “Get out.” I growl; his eyes widen. “I’m sorry.” He rushes, but I’m already shaking my head. “Get out, Sam! I don’t want you here, I’m not waiting for you while you go fuck my best friend, I don’t love you anymore!” I shout, my emotions finally getting the best of me.
He takes a step towards me. “Get out.” My dad snarls from the threshold, and Sam turns to look at him. “Sir…” My dad’s head shakes, “She said get out.” He snarls, his body shaking as he tries to control his anger.
My face flushes, how much of that did he hear?
Sam storms past my dad, and we both stand in silence as we wait for the door to slam shut. Once it does, he looks back at me. “We’re going to figure out a way to get you to Shadow pack.”
As soon as my mates see me, they all shift back to human. Each one staring at me, and all of them silent. I look between the four of them, my body already reacting to theirs. Something inside me begging for their touch. It’s nothing I haven’t felt before. I’ve wanted them from the start, wanted their hands on my skin, but now it feels… Heightened. Unbearable, to last another single second without them close to me.But I continue to look between them. I don’t know how to do this… Do I choose? Will one be mad if I choose the other first? I’ve never really had this problem before, but with the distrust running through them right now. I’m scared to make the wrong move here.“We know you feel it now, Thea. Our wolves can feel the bond even stronger now. Tell us what to do.” Orion whispers, and my eyes meet his. I sigh, not sure how to convey my fear without them thinking I want someone more, when I don’t.It doesn’t matter the downfalls I’ve had with them; the bond is pulling me towards on
‘Running isn’t going to help anything.’ I tell Sage, who proceeds to scoff into my mind. ‘Look who’s talking. All you do is run.’ She snaps. My eyebrows knit. ‘That’s not true.’She chuckles, but it’s humorless. ‘You ran time and time again when we first met our mates. You ran from the witch. You ran from your mates and went back to Sam. You are always running away from them and now you have the nerve to shame me for doing the same. For doing what you’ve trained me to do. You leave when things get hard. Things were starting to get hard, so I pull away before they can scare you too much, and yet, I’m the problem?’My head shakes, ‘I didn’t leave them for Sam.’ I snap, and I swear I can hear her eyes roll. ‘You didn’t have to leave, Thea. You could have dealt with it together. Why do you think we have four mates? It’s not just so we can have a giant fuck fest. We need each of them! And each of them needs you.’‘I’m not just scared of the quote, fuck fest.’ I tell her and she chuckles, ‘
Cyrus and Orion’s wolves are both midnight black, beautiful and with their gorgeous blue eyes, they look royal in a sense. Colt and Vince are both the color of darkened ash, having gray perfectly placed around their bodies, breaking up the black in their fur. They’re all huge, towering over my form, just as if we were humans.I can’t believe I’ve never taken the time to get to know their wolves. They’ve been wanting me since we first met and yet they’ve held them back to help me settle and feel more secure around here.‘You’re nearly invisible.’ Cyrus says into my mind, his blue eyes trained on my wolf. I look down at my paw, I’m black, but not just black the darkest shade of black. Vantablack. ‘If it wasn’t for your eyes.’ Cyrus says in amazement.I look back up at him. ‘They’re purple. Like when your phoenix comes out, they seem to glow.’ Cyrus answers my unasked question. ‘I have a wolf.’ I tell him, shock evident in my voice.I honestly can’t believe it. I’ve always thought I was
The healer walks towards us instantly, but my mind is a whirlwind. I don’t want to be here. Somewhere in my brain, I know I don’t need to be here. Regardless of the pain in my stomach ricocheting through my entire body.Orion grabs my restless body and tries to keep me still while the healer tries to place his hands on me. He barely lasts a second before he pulls back with a pained sound.He looks at the burn on his hand, then back at me with wide eyes. I shake my head, “Orion, I can’t be here. I need air.” I rasp, trying to stand, trying to make it to the door.I fail.Falling to the ground and wreathing in pain, when I hear a bone snap. The surprise is enough to dull the pain for a moment, but then I cry out as another breaks.What is happening?‘Hello, Thea. My name is Sage.’ The new voice travels through my mind, waking me up to what is happening. And as if it clicks for Orion at the same time, he speaks, “She’s shifting.” He whispers, I’m not sure if it’s fear or amazement I hear
No.I take a step forward, but Vince pulls me back. Anger flares through me and I grab the arm holding and he let’s go hissing in pain. I don’t bother seeing what just happened as I move closer to the window.I get there, rising on my tippy toes to peak through. My eyes capture on the woman… She looks so much like me, but older, more knowledgeable about life.She’s not a dumb woman; you can see it in the calculating in her eyes as she thinks over the deal. But if she’s not dumb, why can’t she see what she means by that? Why can’t she see the fact she’s talking about false love?She doesn’t care if it’s real…I look into the corner, the little girl standing there, her hand on her cheek and her eyes on the ground… Silent.Silent, as they talk about what to do with her. Silent, as they discuss how her life is going to play out. Silent, as they discuss the best way for her to be a pawn in all the games they play.I watch her with pity… But it’s me. That little girl, she’s me. Have I ever
We walk through the trees, making our way quickly as Vince pulls me behind him and I try to keep up. He quickly pulls up to the side, hiding behind a giant willow tree, and puts his finger on his lips, signaling for me to be quiet.I have so many questions… And for some reason my number one question is, shouldn’t they be able to scent us, we’re so close to the small cabin. I guess if they’re not paying attention…“Please!” The woman’s voice hits me like a ton of bricks because… I’ve heard it before. I don’t know when, and I don’t know where, but the voice sounds as familiar to me as breathing.My head snaps up, as I try to look into the window I can barely see her through.I’m too far away…I make a move to move closer, but Vince keeps me still, leaning over closely to my ear and whispering, “Seeing you could change everything. Colt wasn’t wrong about changing history and unless you’re willing to possibly lose them… You need to stay here.”I swallow deeply, squinting my eyes to try an







