Amanda Pov
Two more years passed and I am extremely weak as he decided to stay with her. I have a feeling she is lying to him but I just gave up caring now. I am at the last stage and to me that is the way out of this. I am gonna kill myself to be free. I already wrote letters years ago and I'm surprised I held on for two more years like I did but I did I sit most days staring out the window from my window seat.Mason visits but I don't speak to him or acknowledge his existence anymore. I sit staring as he talks but I can't register what he is saying. I just go into my mind to escape."Mandy did you hear me? ",he said standing up and walking closer to me. I don't acknowledge him one bit. Most days when he shows up I don't even look his direction. The doctor is an everyday visitor to give me nourishment through intravenous methods cause I barely keep food down. I'm thinner then I ever been my whole life."huh? ",I said watching kids play. He stands right beside me and talks again but I still can't hear what he is saying. I just stare at the kids running around and laughing. I been here for years and I don't know if I can do it any longer. I am at the end of my rope and all I want to do is let go. He growls and snaps."fucking listen to me Mandy I am talking to you",he growls pulling me to my feet. I still look right through him even as he shakes me, my attention is past him.I stare at him in confusion as he talks again. I can feel Jasmine whimpering but she doesn't talk to me. She is weak like me and I can already feel I am losing her. He sighs and drags me to my room. After putting me to bed he leaves. He leaves to go back to his whore.I lay there exhausted and sniffling. It hurts all the time now and all the fight I had years ago just left me. I don't care anymore and I just want out. As I lay there a maid comes in and asks me what I want to eat. I just shrug as she leaves to make whatever. I get up and go sit to eat but all I end up doing is pushing the food around on my plate. I take a few bites but I don't finish it. I head to my wonderful window seat and watch as the darkness descends across the land outside.I love watching the day end and it shift to night.I barely hear the pack doctor or Mason as they come in. I sit staring as they talk about me and my behavior. The doctor says some stuff and I can feel Jasmine weaken more in me. The pain from all the years of being here are catching up to me and I know I have just reached the point of no return. I reached the end and it doesn't matter anymore.Once I am alone I will write more to my goodbyes and give in to my last stage of grief. Death is the last stage for me and I feel there is nothing left for me to do now. I send my mom a long email and send Beth a good luck in her future. Unlike me she is happy and loved. She won't see these till after I'm gone. I hope she continues to be happy and thrive.After eating my last meal which I only ate a couple bites I shower and head to my room I lay out all my letters and go to the bathroom. I break the mirror and grab the sharpest and biggest piece. I look it over knowing once I start cutting this is it. There will be no going back.You ready Jasmine I ask waiting for her to say.Yes Mandy I've been ready for two years but I held on for you. Lets go somewhere better she says smiling softly at meYeah somewhere better I say looking at the glass.I sit on the floor and cut my wrist. I barely feel the pain as the blood runs out and trails across the floor. I watch fascinated as my life drains with the blood. The blood coats the floor and Jasmine sighs sadly. It was good knowing you Mandy I love you she murmurs.I love you more Jasmine see you soon I say knowing we may not see each other ever again.Goodbye cruel world I think as my eyes drift shut and my heart starts to slow. I give into darkness with a soft sigh. I don't hear or see the doctor come on or hear his frantic screams at me to wake up. He slaps my face but I don't flinch or move."Amanda wake the fuck up now",the doctor cries out.He scoops me up smearing blood everywhere and all over himself. He starts running mind linking the nurses to prep the operating room. There is a blood trail following us as we pass shocked pack members. Samantha is crying as she follows and begs to help. I'm sure everyone saw but I'm not here to see or hear them. It is dark as fuck where I'm at.My wolf flops beside me and sighs so we are in the darkness she says. Yes it appears so but it is peaceful right. I don't hurt now, do you?She chuckles no I don't hurt anymore but I think we hurt others. I heard that Samantha chick crying she says watching me. I didn't want to hurt anyone Jasmine I just wanted to be free I say sighing. I know girl I wanted to be free with you.Well we are free now she said hugging me. Yeah I say wrapping my arms around her to. Yeah we are free now and I feel no pain.Finally no pain.Mason povMy wolf is yelling at me as I sit to eat with April. Something is very wrong right now and he won't shut up so I get up and head to check on Amanda. I head downstairs and see the pack doctor carrying an unconscious Amanda in his arms. Blood is running from her wrists which is cut wide open and she looks dead. I listen in and hear her heart beating very faintly. What the fuck happened? I know she has been beyond quiet lately and stares outside everyday,all day. She won't acknowledge me or anyone else. I tried to talk to her everyday cause my wolf won't shut up. The last two years he changed towards April he blocks me completely when I fuck her. He won't come back till we are done and he won't speak to me.I growled loud but he is still running for our pack hospital. Amanda is going to die if she isn't treated soon. I run after them totally ignoring April asking me what happened. Mandy is not dying I can't lose my mate like this. Oh god I was so horrible for years to her. Apri
Amanda povWhere am I? I've been walking around for hours. The last thing I remember is cutting my...holy shit I'm dead. I look around the warmth I am in and there is my wolf we were together sitting here but I was swept away and stuck walking around . I step closer and its Jasmine my and she glares at me before speaking. "you dumbass where did you go I was looking everywhere"I shrug innocently and she frowns at me. "I don't know I was here with you then I felt a pull and I was swept away. I thought I lost you. I was afraid I would never see you again",I said feeling guilty now. She growled at me and laid down with a heavy sigh. We sat together with sigh and listened in to the douchebag. Smirking she stood up. "our mate kicked out that human bitch. I say we make him suffer for a couple weeks. I say longer it would serve him right if we stayed here for fucking months. He deserves to feel pain and heartache".I chuckle as we listen in on Mason begging us to come back to him. His wol
Amanda pov I finish in the bathroom and dress slowly after sitting on the shower bench. I took a shower and felt somewhat better Mason is right outside the door waiting for me to come out. Once there he picks me up and sits me on the hospital bed. I am still trying to get use to being awake and knowing he gave up his bitch human girlfriend. I sigh as I brush my long hair and yawn. I'm fucking wiped out from a shower. Jasmine mumbles more.I ask Jasmine why I'm so exhausted and she says its due to the fact I was unconscious for two weeks. I didn't move around and my muscles were stiff. I sighed and gave up brushing my hair my arms were tired. Mason took the brush and started brushing my hair running his fingers through my long locks. I sighed and stared ahead at the door as he continued playing with my hair. Now he wants to show affection and gentleness. "Mandy...how are you feeling? ",he said sniffing some of my hair. I just wanted to claw his eyes out and run away but I was weakened
Amanda povI was discharged later that day and Mason carried me home. I wanted to go back to my side of the house and curl up on my bed but Mason walked me to his room. I instantly put up a fight he was not placing me on the bed he had that bitch on. I couldn't get away as my heart rate climbed and I panicked. "no do not place me where you had your whore take me to my side of the house",I said as tears filled my eyes. I can't do this I can't. My breathing went labored as he sat down with me in his lap.He froze and pulled me closer in his arms. He hugged me as tears fell and I turned into blubbering mess. He sat so fast I tried to run or move I didn't want to be in their room or their bed."its your bed from your room baby I had mine taken out and burned",he stated hugging me tight as he sat on my bed with me still in his arms. I tried to stop crying but more tears slipped out. For some reason I just can't stop crying and I felt utterly ridiculous cause I was still confused and weak.
Amanda pov I slept on a hard but warm surface and it felt like it was breathing. I opened my eyes and saw Mason under me he was sleeping and holding on to me tight. I moved but he groaned and held me tighter. I felt his cock and it was hard and huge. I froze unable to move or talk. Mason's big hands were gently rubbing my back and ass in a soothing manner. It felt nice and relaxing till he touched my exposed skin and I jumped at the tingles that shot up my body. Holy hell that felt good to fucking good. I need to get off of him and out of his arms.I accidentally moved and I felt his cock twitch. A moan escaped his mouth and his eyes shot open. "shit sorry baby I didn't know I was hard",he stated bluntly. Yeah fucking right he knows he was hard cause he was grinding into my core with it.I looked down at him and he cupped my face and brushed his lips over mine softly. I pulled away blushing as he rubbed my back before moving me off of him so he could get up. A knock to the door had h
Mason povAfter marking Amanda she fell asleep in my arms. I just laid her down when Ryan mindlinked me that they caught April, Her lover and two teenage rogues. I tucked her in and sighed before heading to our cells. He also said April had sent those rogues that were killed to harm my mate. I was gonna question April about sending rogues after my Mandy. Coming in April looked happy to see me but I was beyond pissed. I growled at her. "I miss you Mason, I want to come back home to you",she begged. Fuck no. "Bullshit April you know I have my mate now and that she needs me so stop the act and tell me why the mind wiping serum didn't work on you and why you sent rogues after Mandy?",I growled waiting for an answer. She batted her eyes at me and before it used to work but now it sickened me. She shrugged then smiled happily at me. "I took an antidote to fight off the serum. I remember everything and I ran into Butch and well he hates you so it worked in my favor. I wanted to get rid of
Amanda povI sit with the guys as they eat like pigs and I laugh as they open up a little. Grant still seems uneasy as Ryan and Mason walk around and he flinches a lot if they get close to him. Sam or Samantha sits right beside Michael and moon goddess love her she is very patient with him. He looks at her the way a mate should look at them but I know he is scared he will disappoint her. She takes his hand softly and holds it while they talk to each other. Grant looks around the kitchen and then focuses back on me. He tries to smile but more tears fall as he looks at Mason. I sigh and hug him and rock him like a child. He will be okay, he just needs time. "it will be okay Grant he will never touch you or hurt you ever again I promise you our pack members now. Please just trust us Mason will never touch you or your brother that way. We will protect you both",I say, rocking him as he cries on my shoulder. Mason sits beside him and touches his shoulder lightly. Grant looks at him as mor
Amanda povShe wants my mate and that pisses me off highly. I growled as Mason wrapped his arms around my waist. He rubs my exposed skin and I calm slightly but still glare at my mom. She scoffs and looks at Grant. He shrinks down in his seat as she smiles at him. I know that look and before she can get near him I step in the way. Fuck her if she thinks she will hurt him in any way. "What do you want, mother? ",I say looking down at Grant as he looks at Ryan scared. Ryan steps beside Grant and stands in front of him in a protective stance. His stance also blocks her from getting near me too. She chuckles. "this is rich, she laughs, causing me to growl, you're protecting that runt". I growl at her and she steps back. "Tell us what you want you old hag",I growled as Mason chuckled. She glares at me in annoyance. Grant growls when she steps closer to me. He lets her know with a growl if she touches me she dies. "you will not talk to me that way you ugly little bitch I came to warn yo