Chapter 4

Amanda pov

Two years later

Nothing has changed I am still being kept as a prisoner while my mate fucks his human whore. I am now in the anger stage of grief and I destroyed the whole east side. I was like a feral wolf as I broke, hit and threw stuff all over. I screamed at the top of my lungs while I broke shit. Mason wouldn't accept my rejection or stop in to see me. My wolf was a mess in my mind and I could feel her shutting me out. She was getting weaker and so was I. Food my absolute favorite thing to do sickened me. The thought of eating anything made me dry heave at times. I was throwing up more then I was putting in.

I stopped talking to anyone and I took to sitting in the window seat staring at the world outside. I was only allowed to shift if he was there and I could only go outside if he approved. I barely notice anyone come or go. Most of all I stopped answering my phone and texts. My mother was a constant reminder that I was and would always be alone. Beth goddess love her texted all the time and shared pictures of her happy life. She had pups now and all I had was the east wing of this hell hole.

My mother was a nuisance and called constantly even though I barely answered she kept calling.

She called three times a day and I seriously wanted to tell her what my ass of a mate was doing to me. I was kept so he wouldn't weaken. The only thing was I was weakening and he didn't care. He still had sex with her and I went through such intense pain I wanted to die. It hurt so bad I felt my insides were being shredded with a sword.

After my anger went away I went through stage four acceptance. It was hard at first but I knew if I didn't accept my twisted fate I would forever be pissed at everyone. I sat most days quiet as a mouse and staring at a world right outside the window. From my seat I watched pups and couples play and have fun.

"luna are you hungry? ",a maid asked me. I just sat quietly as she cleaned up my area of this hell hole. She sighed sadly as she stared at me with worry but I didn't notice.

I nodded no and went back to my staring out the window. I felt that familiar intense pain and knew they were at it again. I wanted to scream out but I was so hurt I just passed out. I gave in to darkness my new friend cause being awake hurt. Fuck being alive hurt.

When I woke I was in my bed with an tube in my arm. I sat up and ripped it out. I threw the shit across the room and got up. Mason came in and looked at me. Oh now you care to come I thought glaring at him.

"get out you worthless fuck!! ",I yelled throwing more stuff. He couldn't control me as I went off.

"stop it now!!! ",he roared. I ignored him and threw shit his way. It would of been hilarious watching a six foot four alpha dodge shit if I wasn't so hurt and in pain.

"no it's your fault I keep hurting its because you and that slut. You want her so fucking bad just reject me and let me go. I've been here for two years and I hate it. This is a fucking prison so you can keep your human girlfriend and not weaken. Your killing me!!!! ",I screamed growling at him.

"no rejection. No leaving and I'm staying with her cause she has been here with me for ten years. She needs me",he said glaring at me. I let out a dark laugh as he stared at me.

"bullshit she isn't your mate and all you keep doing is fucking her. Good luck having a pup cause you as well as I know only your mate can give you that and I will never have your pups!!! ",I yelled walking to the bathroom. I slammed the door and collapsed to the floor tears falling.

He growled and stormed off. That stupid fuck lying to me saying he is staying with that bitch cause of ten years. I quickly jump in the shower and cuss the whole time. I also sob so uncontrollably I puke. Once done I dress and call my mom who was mad I didn't call or facetime for awhile. Fuck you, you bitch it is your fault I'm in this mess I think as I listen to her drone on about shit.

"baby you look thinner aren't you eating? ",she said looking at my face. Now she acts motherly nice job bitch I think looking right through her. She doesn't give a fuck about me and we both know it.

"I'm fine mom. Everything is fine mom",I said as she rambled on about what she was doing and how Beth had two pups now. After hanging up I felt like a shell of my former self. I needed a way out and I think I know what I have to do. I think this way I will be free from all of this. My wolf for once doesn't disagree and her once bubbly personality is gone.

Do what you feel is best she murmurs softly it's not like he will care. I'm sorry Jasmine I mumble feeling awful she got stuck with me. You deserved to paired with a human that was loved. I'm sorry I let you down. I'm awfully glad you were my friend till the end.

Your the best human I know she whispered and I love you Mandy but lets just go to where we won't hurt anymore.

The bad thing is it will hurt everyone but I didn't care anymore. My wolf nodded and I headed to the table to write out letters.

I would leave a final goodbye my dad deserved that. He loved me I hope.