Chapter 21

I'm not sure what happened to me. I'm not sure why I suddenly felt compelled to kiss Elliot. But I just did and I gave it my all. I attempted to restrain myself, but the moment I looked into his blue eyes and saw those lips, I knew I was doomed. I was too engrossed in the sensation to notice that I had lost my sense of cognition.

I've experienced it. And it's impossible for me to deny it. I've sensed the connection. It was even better than the connection I have with Matt when we kiss. The emotions I felt during those kisses were unreal. Something that can only be described in books by writers. However, it was all true.

Does this imply that he has feelings for me as well? Is it reasonable to presume that his feelings for me extend beyond friendship? I am so confused that I'm not sure how to deal with him right now. How could I when I acted like a slut? My goodness, Ari! You were the one who initiated the kiss with Elliot. And to even think that you're engaged already! What the hell is