Thirty Nine

I returned on Sunday morning with Rafaella, who wanted to spend her time in New York until Monday, by plane. Actually, once in a while I want to feel the six hour drive by car but because of the snowstorm that hit several points of the state border road, then I don't think this is the right time.

I knew that there was another motive behind Rafaella following me. Whatever it was I just hoped it wasn't about me and Jordan. Realizing that she totally didn't accept what Jordan had done to me made me a little scared that Rafaella would do something reckless to Jordan.

Even though I knew Jordan was having an affair behind my back, I couldn't help but be aware of myself. With what I did behind his back as well with Rhysnad. I did not justify what he did to me and did not justify what I did to him, so I think about it last night I chose to finish everything by talking to Jordan and ending our relationship on good terms.

There will be no more chance. Nothing else will be saved.

I sighed hopefu