My entire crazy ass rollercoaster has just stopped. It's not where one would like to get off, it has stopped at the very top, a place I like to get stuck at, but it is waiting to drop all the way down below, maybe here down below is where a normal person will want get off, but I can't, it still needs to rise to another top, another top where I would like to get stuck at, it drops then it rises, drops and rises, again and again, a real crazy ass thrilling ride.
There is no stop where I can get off, the thing is, I don't want to get off.
I have something special planned for today, first I need to get something else special to get his butt out of bed.Kayley ~”Jackson.”Jackson ~”Yes baby girl.”
Jackson has not slept over for the past couple of nights now, some shit with a container gone missing and him being needed at home. I have not been to the club for the last couple of days either as I have not been feeling well.I miss him.I need to see him.
.....Jackson's POV.....Kay is pissed off with me, seriously pissed off with me. I would also be if she had to pull the same dumb shit that I did.She does not want to see me at all, now and then she will answer a message I send her. I have not seen her since our big fight.
Jackson has been taken by some sick fuck that is out for revenge.I don't know how I did not see this coming. I was more worried about revenge from Valenti's side that I completely forgot about him.It is my fault that this has happened to Jackson, god knows I will never forgive myself if they hurt him.
The worst feeling in the world is watching the one that you love struggle for their life and itis not a struggle you can fight for them.The doctor says that she has lost too much blood, she might not make it, I say bullshit, and she is a fighter.Her rollercoaster is still going, she ain't getting off.
Things have been a bit rocky between me and Jackson since the whole shooting thing. He is not spending as much time as he usually does over here. When I am at the Club he is mostly out sorting shipments and other shit out. This time I know there is no other women involved. Our relationship is not what it used to be before.How do you come back from nearly dying and losing a baby?I don't think you can.All the girls are going out today.I want to dress up but I also need to hide my scars.Matthew ~”Boss are you ready? We need to pick the others up at the Club.”Kayley ~”I am ready. Where is Dre?”Drake ~”Here boss.”Kayley ~”Okay we can go
I hate that moments that you get when you need to remind yourself why you did something. It's been almost a month since I broke things off with Jackson. They say that things get easier with time, I don't know so much about that. Even though things were already rocky, making it totally rocked is a different story.I need to remind myself why I did.As per instruction from Jackson, none of his crew is allowed over at my place. Ant wants to talk to me today so it seems I will be heading on over to the club.Since Danny and the two stooges are not available today, I will be driving myself. I dress and head on out to the club.I really hope he is not there.No such luck, as I walk in I see him sitting at the bar. I have forgotten how good he looks. 
…Jackson POV…God my life is confusing, my baby girl is even more confusing. I guess that is why she calls it her rollercoaster ride.She is laying so peaceful sleeping, last night is the first night she did not have a nightmare. I want to believe it is because she is better but it really only is because I was sleeping next to her.I don't want to wake her but I have to. I give her a kiss on her forehead and her eyes open.Kayley ~”You kidding me.”Jackson ~”What now?”Kayley ~”You had sex three hours ago.”Jackson ~”I know.”Kayley ~”Now you want more.”Jackson ~”I would love to b