Chapter 12

But he doesn't stop. Obvious. And a big part of me wants him to continue, because a big part of me misses him so much. Very much so. I turn around slowly and I can already smell the strong scent of drink, but I can still smell the perfume so strongly. I look down, because I feel too ashamed to look up, to look into his eyes, because I know I'll completely surrender and all the months I've tried to distance myself from him and treat him in the worst possible way will be in vain.

"Look at me," he says. "Look at me, Lukman. I am totally yours."

"I can't." I say. "I can't touch you and I don't want to, you should leave."

"I'm not leaving until you finally look at me," he whispers, bringing his hand to my cheek. "Please..."

Lanton kisses me lightly on the neck, giving me more and more goosebumps. I'm still unable to look into his eyes even now, my heart is racing and I don't know how much longer I can bear it, his presence is too intense and I loved letting myself be taken by him in every