Scott
I drive the truck and search for Hailey's body all night. I can't let my mate die like this.
The headlights of our pack’s search team illuminate all the nearby roads and hills.
But we find nothing.
I am so angry but I have no place to vent. In the dim morning light, I return home and sit alone in my study.
“This can’t be real,” I say to myself as I stare into the void, my hands crossed against my lips. “I must be dreaming.”
Taking a sip from my glass filled with bourbon, I let the burning sensation stream from my throat into my body without getting myself to wake up.
I close my eyes, taking a deep breath. “This is it. It is just a stupid nightmare, and I’ll wake up any moment.”
Maybe there is another explanation to it, maybe it is all just a bad joke.
A very bad one.
Grabbing the glass with the amber liquid standing on my desk, I catapult it against the wall, making it shatter into thousands of pieces.
I roar as my heart squeezes painfully, the pain over Hailey’s disappearance too heavy to bear.
It had been already hours ago when my wolf last felt the mate bond, but the connection had been interrupted ever since, making me guess that Hailey might have died.
“Damn, April. What did you do?” I groan, burying my head into my hands.
Sighing deeply, I pass my hand over my face before standing up. The shatters of the broken crystal glass crunch under my shoes as I pace around, feeling angry like a wild beast.
‘We have to make her pay! Get her to tell us where mate is,’ My wolf growls, wanting to see blood and, honestly, I crave to see a lot of that too.
***
April is breathing heavily, hunching over as she is tied to a chair.
Blood is dripping from her face onto the floor, fueling my sadistic side to make her feel the same pain as I feel.
I gesture to the warriors to step away and walk closer to her before crunching down to get into her line of sight.
“Do you still want to continue to lie to me, April?” I ask coldly, making her whimper.
I distort my face disgusted as her scent envelops me. Earlier today in the Alpha ceremony, I felt a pull towards her and her smell confused me. But soon, I felt a stronger and clearer bond with Hailey
And I identified Hailey as my true mate.
“I’m not lying,” she says, whining. “I didn’t send that text. And I don’t know where Hailey is. I didn’t hurt her.”
I sigh as she goes on rambling powerlessly about how she is innocent.
Maybe it’s the stupid sentiment that I harbored towards my childhood friend, but her voice is full of her suffering because of me not believing her.
I never knew what a talented actress she was.
“Stop it, April. Tell me where she is!” I command her through clenched teeth, but she seems to be unaffected by my Alpha command as she shakes her head once more, sobbing.
“I didn’t hurt her. I didn’t text her,” she continues with a whining tone.
Taking a deep breath, I look at her face covered in blood, “Listen, even if we never got along well, I really would hate to hurt you!”
Shaking herself, she sobs, her heart seemingly bleeding as much as her wounds.
“I’ve always loved you,” she whispers, her pain paralyzing her. “I would never do something that could hurt you…”
I get closer to her, making her whimper, and I shift my index finger into a claw. “I’m going to give you another chance to tell me where Hailey is.”
Pressing her lips together, she fights against the ropes constricting her. “No, no. Please! Scott! I didn’t do anything!”
“Alpha Scott for you!” I snarl through clenched teeth, before burying the claw into her thigh.
She screams in pain, causing an uncomfortable shiver to pass through me. “It wasn’t me.”
“Why did you lure her to the pack's borders?” I ask her again with an annoyed tone. “Is that where your accomplices were? Are they from another pack?”
Shaking her head again, she makes my blood boil as she remains stubborn.
“No! No! Please!” She sobs, her pleading getting under my skin.
It irks me so much that she had the guts to lure my mate into a trap to have her attacked and possibly murdered.
Rage streams through me at the thought, the pain radiating from my heart right into my limbs as I move my claw, tearing her skin.
Her blood-curdling scream echoes from the cold walls of the dungeon, feeding my desire to cut her throat. “What did you do to my mate?”
“Nothing! I didn’t do anything!” she cries, gasping for air as the blood drips onto the floor. “She was walking towards the border all alone and I wanted to stop her.”
Her cries echo from the wall, filling the cold cells with her pain and desperation. It must be indeed horrible to have the person you have loved all your life doing this to you.
For a moment, I think about letting a warrior take my place, but then I remember what she has done to us, making my blood boil again.
Right, we don’t care about her.
“It would be so much easier to just admit what you have done, April,” I growl, tilting my head. “Just admit that you were jealous of her!”
“No!”
“That you wanted to be like her because she was my mate, and you are obsessed with becoming the Luna of this pack!”
“I swear that I didn’t!”
Shifting my entire hand into claws, I sink them into her side, causing her already shaken-up frame to collapse.
“You knew that if you didn’t get rid of her you would never get what you wanted. She was in your way!”
She sobs, spitting blood as she denies it once again, “No! I didn’t hurt her.”
“In your sick brain that was all that mattered, right? It never once crossed your mind that you were never interesting to me. Even if I would have found out that you were my mate, I would have probably rejected you!”
I can literally hear her heart breaking as she slumps even further into the chair. “No! It wasn’t me! I wanted to warn her. I didn’t want her to get hurt.”
Tears fall down her face as she whispers her usual statement over and over again. “I didn’t do anything!”
Clicking my tongue, I retreat my hand, “I would really want to believe you, April. I really wished I could.”
She holds her breath as I grab her chin forcefully, her pleadings getting stuck in her lying throat as I snatch a silver blade off the table, sinking it into her shoulder.
AprilFlashbackI lift part of my T-shirt, see the blue bruises on my skin, and groan in pain.In today's training session, I fought hard with a big guy, Taylor. He was muscular and almost twice my height, but I won. His jaw must have been dislocated.Now I’m hiding here, in a small warehouse, with my wound medicine to medicate myself. I’m very skilled at this, at least as long as no one comes to disturb me.After a few minutes, I’m finished and I grab the door handle to get out, but the door doesn’t not open.I tsk, cussing the pranks of those over-energetic boys. Such things are normal to happen in werewolf packs, so I could never complain to the Alpha or my mother about this.Taking a deep breath, I kick the door hard, wanting to break the door lock with brute force to get out. As I’m continuing to attack the door, I don't realize how the piled building materials in this small room are already shaking.One more kick and there is a loud bang. I get buried under several tons of mater
AprilThe low roaring of the engine wakes me softly.Opening my eyes, I recognize that I’m sitting in my mom’s truck, tucked in a warm blanket, about to leave the pack in which I grew up, fell in love and was betrayed by it.I push out a shaky breath just as we pass the statue of my father’s wolf, which was erected to honor my father’s sacrifice for the pack and his Alpha. Touching my chest, I press onto my skin above my heart as it twists painfully in my chest at seeing that it has been completely destroyed. As we pass it with the car, I sit up to look back at the pieces of it shattered on the floor, and my mother sighs sadly.“This was just mean,” she whispers as she has her eyes still set on the road before us. “And unnecessary. There was no need to drag him into this situation after what he did.”I blink repeatedly, looking up at her with a heartbroken expression. “I’m so sorry, Mom. Please forgive me.”If it wasn’t for me, she wouldn’t be banished.My mother shakes her head, shus
AprilI breathe heavily as it rings, and my heart sinks deeper and deeper into my stomach with every ring that resounds,He isn’t picking up.He hates you, remember?And he doesn’t care if you die.My mother fights hard, but soon enough she gets outnumbered, her stamina decreasing as they recharge between their attacks but not granting her the same opportunity.Her light brown slowly changes color, staining itself with her blood as they keep landing hits, sinking their fangs into her side and neck.“Mom!” Desperation ripples through me, and I try my best to push myself from the ground, only to slump back down. I claw onto the floor, clasping the wet soil in my fists as I clench my eyes closed.Even if my body keeps refusing to move as I want to, I can’t give up as she is all I have left. She has already given up her pack for me and I would never survive the thought that she lost her life because of me too.Even if I won’t be able to cry about it long enough.Clenching my teeth, I stan
Scott“I can’t believe you did this to April and her mother,” my father mumbles as I pace back and forth in front of him. “And I can’t believe you convinced me not to execute a death sentence for her. She killed my Luna, I should have executed them both,” I shout, growling as I try to keep my wolf from pushing forward. “All it took you was her mother to show up at your door. I wonder what her striking arguments were.” “Don’t vent your frustration on me, son,” my father growls, obviously offended. “There is nothing going on between Hazel and me, but April is like a daughter to me, and Hazel was my best friend’s mate. I know that you are grieving, but we still don’t know what happened and I’m still convinced that April has nothing to do with it.” I scoff, letting myself slump into my office chair. “How can you be so sure of this? We have Ana and Joey who witnessed them walk together to the spot where we found Hailey’s clothes and blood spilt on the ground. My wolf can’t feel Hailey an
AprilThe white light envelopes my mother, making me look at the scene unfolding in front of my eyes with wide eyes. I see the wounds on her body heal quickly, the life returning into her body as she recovers slowly. Happiness streams through me at the thought that she is regaining her senses and I won’t lose her. "Why hasn't she woken up yet?" I ask my wolf, getting her to react at my words with a comforting purr. A calming sensation she must be triggering in me streams through me, causing me to feel better already. "Don't worry, she just consumed too much energy, and she will wake up after a bit of sleep.""Do you know why we are a healing white wolf?" I ask my wolf. I‘m still confused about all the changes that are occurring around me, my heart squeezing in my chest as dread expands into my throat. She will surely know something as my power comes from her. Convinced that my wolf will be able to clear my confusion, I’m a bit disappointed at her answer."I think our ancestors mig
Scott My leg jumps nervously as I’m sitting in one of the cold chairs made of plastic which are affixed to the wall. The sterile hallway of the hospital is full of scurrying nurses, stalking doctors, people visiting with sorrowful expressions hidden behind forced smiles, and patients trying to get a few steps taken carefully as they spend too much time in bed. And still, it seems so lonely. Leaning my head back against the wall, I take a deep breath and close my eyes. My father is the strongest wolf I know, and due to that perception, I always imagined him to be indestructible. Even after Jax’s death, which he encountered while saving my father’s life, my heart still repudiated the thought that my father could have left us as well. It seemed so far-fetched to me as he was invincible for me. I suppose that I never lost the childish admiration for him that a son has for his father naturally when he is an important and strong figure in your life. “Alpha,” a calm voice disrupts my
ScottThe next morning I wake up feeling the worst.Between the pain radiating from my heart and the thoughts twirling in my mind, I didn’t get a second of sleep.Every time I closed my eyes, the images of Hailey’s blood splattered over the dirty floor of the forest and April continuing to lie to me flashed in front of my inner eye, making my heart squeeze and my blood boil.I’m sipping my coffee absentmindedly while staring into the void, contemplating about how I would need something stronger, as Liam barges into the kitchen. “Any news?” I ask him as he reaches me with hurried steps.He shakes his head, making my heart drop. “Not really. The search patrol didn’t find any of the two bodies but they collected everything they were able to find.”I grunt in disappointment, my thoughts swirling around the fact that I need the bodies to be sure that they are in fact dead and that they didn’t stage all of this with their accomplice to get away.They could even plan another attack on the p
April“Oh, April,” my mother starts, making my heart race. “What is it? Did you keep something from me?” I ask her, my voice nearly failing me. She lowers her head, giving me the worst presentiment.“I’m sorry that I never told you, but there was never the right moment to address it,” she starts making my heart flip. “There is indeed something you need to know.”I look at her wide-eyed as she lifts her gaze back at me with a sad smile. “You are adopted, April.”“What?” I ask, staring at her incredulously. “How?”She reaches out to squeeze my hand soothingly while I feel like my entire life has been a lie. “When I was your age, I had a best friend. Her name was Elena and she was an amazing person. She was strong and beautiful, which made her very popular in school. We stayed very close growing up, but one day she decided to leave. She traveled for a long time, and I started to think that something happened to her as no one ever heard from her again. Her phone was soon not reachable,
Scott“Huh?” Liam looks at me wide-eyed, annoying me even more. “Get the fuck out of my office,” I growl, and his confused face falls, morphing into a disgruntled expression. “Sure… As you wish, Alpha,” he snarls back, and I ball my hand into a fist, ignoring the disrespect with how he sneered my title. Pushing out a deep breath of relieve as he leaves my room, I stare at the closed door for a few heartbeats before I try to concentrate on my documents once again. But it doesn’t take long until I get distracted again by my own thoughts, and soon enough, I call it a day. After putting my files away, I take a bottle of bourbon out of the bottom drawer and pour me a bit of the amber liquid into a crystal glass. With a sigh, I take a slow sip, closing my eyes as I lean back in the seat. I enjoy the alcohol gliding down my throat, triggering a burning sensation and I distort my face as I put the glass onto the desk. ‘So, what are we doing?’ my wolf asks me, slurring his words as his
Scott“Is there something you need to tell me?” Liam asks me. His expression has lost all its smugness as he looks up at me with a void expression. “About April, I mean.” He adds the phrase as if it were nothing. And still he gets my heart to nearly explode. What the fuck is happening with me? I fucking rejected her. The gears turn over and over in my head, my brain calculating the risks of just telling him all. Maybe it would be good to talk it out. Maybe it wouldn’t be that serious anymore. Maybe he could beat some sense back into me… “There is nothing to talk about,” I finally say, redirecting my eyes to the documents and hoping that he will understand and see that the conversation is over. Or at least get that I don’t want to talk about it. Whatever it is.But as the stubborn best friend he is, he gets onto his feet and leans against the desk, lowering his voice. “Scott, if there is something going on with April, I as your Beta need to know about that.” I take up my p
Scott“The omegas were whispering something quite interesting in the hallways.” I can hear the grin in his voice even if I keep my eyes glued to the documents spread before me, avoiding looking at him. “I don’t know what you are talking about,” I murmur in an annoyed tone, but he only chuckles before practically jumping into the seat standing in front of my desk. “Did the traitor say something regarding our warriors?” he asks, and I finally lift my gaze to see that he is looking at me with big eyes. His dark irises nearly sparkling in expectation. “She wasn’t able to tell me anything. She is still searching for the cause,” I say with a sigh, hoping he would just go away. But it is to no avail. He has always been the obtrusive kind. “So, she couldn’t tell you why our warriors’ health conditions are deteriorating and why their wolves stopped healing them properly?” His grin grows, and I really can’t see where he wants to get at. “Hm-mhm,” I answer with a hum as I lean my head o
April “Oh, stop it,” I groan as Daisy pushes herself off the seat, gasping. “No! Listen to me!” She screams before lowering her voice dramatically. “I drank that tea too.” “Everybody drank from that tea,” I shake my head, as she lets herself fall back into the chair. “Do you want to go on and be dramatic about it or do you want to talk about what happened in the library?” Daisy pouts, crossing her hands as she bounces in her seat. “Why? What happened in the library?” I chuckle, taking another sip of the tea, and I must admit that it is indeed delicious. “Alpha Scott waited until Beta Daniel had left the room to fetch us something to drink and came in to talk to me,” I hold the cup in front of my face, watching her smugly as she turns her head at me, looking intrigued. Even if she is still pursing her lips, wanting to play it cool. “And what did he say?” she asks. I clear my throat, shifting in my seat. “He wanted to talk about his warriors and the process of the treatme
April ‘I don’t think that we should drink that,’ Beta Daniel warns me via our mindlink, and as if the warrior was able to get it, he flashes us a big smile. “Ana was so kind to bring us all a cup of this delicious tea,” he gushes, and I sigh. Beta Daniel rolls his eyes, accepting one of the cups she is holding under his nose with an uncomfortable smile and takes a small sip with an exaggerated slurp. I giggle lowly, hiding my lips behind the border of the cup as he hums theatrically, “It is indeed one of the best teas I have ever had.”Turning towards me, he broadens his smile, his expression turning nearly grotesque. “Right, April?” Coughing as the sip I took went into the wrong pipe, I nod repeatedly, holding my hand on my chest. “Yes. Yes, definitely one of the most delicious. Thank you so much, Ana.” Ana beams up at us, smiling so brightly that I fear her face is going to disintegrate on itself. “Oh, I am so glad. I am going to tell Scott that you liked it right away.” With
April I stretch as we walk out of the library under the curious gazes of the omegas who are acting as if they are dusting the shelves and the insanely boastful statues. Chuckling to myself, I hug my book closer, walking faster through the long hallways of the dimly lit packhouse. As I have forgotten the time during my research, it’s already dark outside, and it has always been this dark also in the pack house as the Luna loved this mood. So the former Alpha kept it like this even long after her death. And I guess Alpha Scott just waddled along. “Has the pack house always been this depressing?” Beta Daniel asks, making me laugh. I nod as we turn into the hallway that leads to our quarters. “It’s because the late Luna, Alpha Scott’s mother, loved thunderstorms, so this lighting arrangement was made to make her happy.” “Ugh,” he scrunches up his face, his gaze still directed to the hallway in front of us. “I didn’t know that those bastards could be that cute.” I laugh, “Yeah, but
April“You shouldn’t have said that.” “Huh?” he looks up at me after putting the coffee down on the floor next to me. “You shouldn’t have said that,” I repeat in a whisper, putting my hands in front of my lips as I regulate my breathing pattern, my panic attack wafting through my body as the adrenaline diminishes. “That ‘future Luna’,” I push out a deep sigh, and he repositions on his knees to take my shaking hands in his. “That was too much. Why did you have to provoke him like that?” “Sorry, it was stronger than me. I saw him holding you like that and thought…the fucking audacity! What is wrong with this guy?” He squeezes my hand soothingly, helping me take a few slow breaths. As I feel a bit better, my fog clearing from my mind, I shift my hands in his, squeezing his back to show that I am doing fine. “What do you want to do now? Shall we return home? I could call Noah. I am sure that he wouldn’t approve of you being treated like this over here. Especially when all you want t
Scott I don’t know what is wrong with me. As I am facing the stupid Beta who is looking at me enraged, my vision refocuses, making me fall out of my tantrum. How fucking embarrassing. What happened? How could I let my wolf take over like this? ‘You are an idiot,’ he growls, retreating in my mind offended. ‘If we don’t react we will lose her for good.’ I shake my head, pushing myself off her, and straighten my spine as I keep my cool. “What did you just say?” “What are you doing to her? Who gave you permission to touch her?” he asks shocked, looking around distressed only to see the table scattered all around the place. “What the fuck happened?” “It’s okay, Dan,” April tries to calm him down as he gets more and more enraged. But he couldn’t do anything. Protector my ass. He is so weak that I would break him in half like a twig. “We were just talking. But how did you fucking call her?” I hear April sigh behind me as my anger flares up in me again. “No need to
April “April,” he feigns shock, grinning like the idiot he is. “You could have told me.” “Stop it, Scott,” I groan, annoyed as I lower my head back to my book. “I was obviously not talking to you. You should really know that.” He laughs, leaning back in his chair while sitting with his knees apart. Fitting for an entitled asshole like him. “Whatever, April,” he snickers, leaning his head onto his fist. “So, are you done hiding? Can we talk like adults, or do you need another round of ‘Avoiding the Alpha’?” I understand that he knows me better than everyone else, but after all that has happened between us and all his outrageous behavior, he should know that he does not have the right to act this way. He should act just like I do and take his distances. He should act professionally as the Alpha he is supposed to be, let me treat his warrior in peace, and not try to provoke me with stupid games. Or ask me to trust him when only a few years back, he tortured me. “I don’t remember