Blood. All I could see and smell was blood and I could feel Bailey clawing at my insides to get out, to go in there and get our mate. No matter how much I wanted to hate and reject Dimitri, I just couldn't. I loved him to much at this point to give up on us. Call me crazy for loving the man who hurt me and rejected me but I couldn't help but do so. My heart already belonged to him even before we knew we were mates. I had fallen in love with him over the years regardless of who he was and what he did to me. Call me a masochist for loving my abuser but I couldn't help it. Dimitri was something, someone, that had my heart from day one. A year ago I may have reacted the way I had because I wanted to make myself believe that what I felt for him was just a silly crush and that I could move on even if we were mates. I wanted to see if wha to felt for him wasn't just because of the mate bond. The longer I was away from him, the harder it was to move on. My heart bled for him every waking mom
It's been exactly 8 weeks since I was back home and every day is hard to move past what happened to me for 6 months. It scares me just how much I've changed over that time. My family can't even hug me without me breaking into a panic. The only person who can hug or hold me without triggering my attacks was Bennett and god bless his soul for putting up with me for this long. He could have rejected me when I was at my lowest her he stood by my side and helped me through everything. I started going to therapy to help me with my nightmares and my anger problems. Nights have become my enemy because whenever I closed my eyes, I would be back in that warehouse, tied to a chair with a bag over my head as voices talked about what they would do to me. I could feel them in me, I could still taste their fluids on my tongue and it would cause me to throw up even if I had nothing in my stomach. I would wake up covered in cold sweat with Bennett's arms wrapped securely around me, whispering that ev
"Would you like to stay for dinner?" Dimitri asked once we crossed into the backyard of his house and I smiled nodding."If it's not to much trouble" I murmured but he shook his head "You're always welcomed to join us whenever you want" he assured and I nodded giving him a small smile before linking with my parents and brothers to let them know I will home late this evening to which they said to be careful. Closing the mind link, I followed Dimitri up the steps to the kitchen once we were dressed."Dinner will be ready soon, why don't you boys go and freshen up?" His mom said and we nodded and so with that, I followed him to his room ignoring the whispers of a few of the pack members and he clenched his jaw as a few words were harsh."He should have killed""He's a weakling no wonder he didn't get the Alpha title handed to him" "He's so pathetic, I mean look at him. He walks with head down" I clenched my jaw so hard I was surprised my teeth didn't crack with the force and I could f
"Hey" I looked up from my computer to see Jeremy, Riley and Monica standing in my doorway and I raised a brow"We were wondering if you wanted to come to the movies with us? You can invite Bennett if you want?" Monica said with a hopeful expression that the guys copied and I smiled. This is the first time in a couple weeks that they've tried talking to me again. The first time was when I was found and brought home, they had tackled me in a hug which had been the worst thing they could do as I broke into a panic attack and they've kept their distance since not knowing what to do. I kind of missed hanging out with my best friends and I know they feel horrible for what happened and have been scared to come see me so as to not cause me another panic attack. I've been slowly getting back to my old self and that's thanks to Bennett and my family. "We miss chilling with you Dimi" Jeremy said when I didn't answer making me blink"You can meet our mates also" Riley said and I raised a brow ma
It's been a few days since I went on a group date with Dimitri and I was going over today to go to the park with his friends as well as mine along with their mates. I was currently getting ready to head out since the others had left a few minutes ago and Dimitri was coming to get me in 10 minutes to head out. "What time do you think you'll be home by?" Benji asked as I grabbed my keys and wallet from my desk and I shrugged "No later than 10 I think since we're going to eat dinner then come home after that" I said and he nodded "I'll call if anything changes or happens""Alright and keep your phone on loud in case something happens and we need to get in touch with you" he said and I furrow my brows but nodded before leaving the house when I got a text form Dimitri saying that he was here."Hey" I murmured leaning over and kissing his cheek making him smile before reversing out of the driveway "How was your day?" He asked as he drove to the park "Good. Benji had us train from 5 to 1
The sound of growling and whimpering was all you could hear in the yard as the pack and rogues faught. The scent of blood filled the air as rogue after rogue was killed. I growled as the rogue I was fighting tackled me causing me to skid across the yard, and hit a tree giving him enough time to come at me since I was still disoriented from the tackle but before he could get to me, I saw a flash of black fur jump in front of me as blood dripped down its coat and I knew it was Bennett. I've never seen Bennett fight before so watching this was both exciting and terrifying at the same time. Exciting because I knew he would be able to defend himself if we were ever attacked and terrifying because there was a look in his eyes that yelled murder. He's willing to kill anything and anyone that got in his way and that scared me shitless. Get up you idiot, Bennett has this handled. We need to kill the rest of the red eyes Grayson hissed and I nodded standing up in wobbly legs before shaking my
I walked through the silent house as softly as I could and head to the kitchen to grab a snack. My tummy was growling at me and I didn't want it to eat me so I have to get something to eat. I stopped when the floor creaked looking behind me to see that the lights were still of and strained my ears to hear any movement of my parents or siblings waking up but nothing. All I could hear was the soft breeze outside the window. I reached the kitchen and went to the snack drawer and opens it only to freeze when the light turns on and looked over to see uncle Marc leaning against the wall with his arms crossed over his chest and a brow raised"Want are you doing up so late, pup?" He asked tilting his head to the side "Tummy growl I have to gets foods in or tummy eats me" I muttered patting my tummy and looking up at him with wide eyes and a pout making him smile and walk over to where I stood before peeking inside the drawer"Well we don't want the hungry monster to eat my favorite nephew no
I was sitting on the uncomfortable chair beside the bed as I watched Bennett sleep. It's been exactly 5 days since the fight and he's been sleeping ever since and it's worrying me. He looked so fragile that with the slightest of movements he would have cracked. The doctor said that his body had gone into shock and that's probably why he wasn't waking up. I just want him to wake up so we can talk about the fight. His parents and brothers have been visiting every hour to see how he's doing and each time I tell them the same thing ; no reaction."Fuck Benny, please just do something to let me know that you're still here" I murmured holding his warm hand in mine as I watched his chest rise and fall with the intake and exhale of air but I just want something other than that to let me know that he was still alive. I would kill for anything even a small twitch of his fingers or his brow furrowing. There was a nasal tube sending air into his lungs as the IV filled him with fluids and medicin